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Please Scare Me Away From Meth

^ Really good honest post.. <3
Have you tried therapy to see if you can work through how you feel at the moment? I don't know how long you've been clean (or if you are still using) but forever is a long time, I don't think it is that hopeless.. while you are still isolated from family and friends to a certain degree, you are still going to be feeling like that - it's hard to smile and joke when you have all that guilt and emptiness but i really think you should keep trying to reconnect with people and start to turn your life back into something that can make you happy..

Sorry, sidetracked thread somewhat, just wanted to reply to that. Carry on...
 
if its really only been six months since you started, You should quit immediately and forget all about it. The simple fact is that you don't have any idea
where this drug is going to take you. All you will do forever more is try to convince yourself it is not to blame for all the things that will go bad in your
life. Stop now and be glad someone told you to do so this early in the game. No joke...
 
^^I haven't tried therapy, but I am indeed trying to reconnect with my old friends. Most of them are welcoming me back. Anyways, I remember when I started doing meth, and I knew I shouldn't do it, and I looked on the bluelight and the internet and tried to scare myself away from it. But it didn't work. Now I finally found what can scare me from meth. It's losing yourself and changing into a different person. As cliche' as that sounds, it's absolutely horrorfying when it happens. To the original poster... Keep trying to scare yourself away from meth. Please keep trying.
 
Imagine its 0900 on a Friday morning. You have a cute GF, a nice car, a good job, etc.

now Imagine your on your bed, in thermal underware, computer guts everywhere, bleeding like a stuck pig (from them thin little electronic screwdrivers) Your hot GF wants affection, your buddies wanna go driving, but no, since 0500, you've been here, trying to make broken mismatched computer parts work together so you can compile your own kernel to set up your own usenet server. Because Damnit, your, your on meth, and nothing else in the world matters except whatever stupid tweaky project you have and more meth.

That is my current fate from meth.
 
An old friend who used to use meth everyday showed me (and this was years ago) the back of his throat was totally gone and rotten. Someone told me that happens when a meth cook uses draino (sp) in the cooking process.
 
I feel like I gave you a good enough reason to not use meth anymore. Let me add something.

I swear to you. When I first started using stims... I had my shit together. I was doing great. I looked like I was on my way to the top. Everything was going just fine. It was as if one day everything was happy then one day my life was hell. I was stealing, my friends were gone, my family hated me, my girl left me, I lost my job, I lost my place, I lost my car, I was sick, I was evil, I hated my self, worse of all I lost my mind. I really lost my mind. My mom was planning on where to bury me when I died. They thought I would be gone in a few week. Do you know how hard it is to here that from my mom today? 8 months sober... ya I got most of my life back but ... its like someone ripped into my soul and tore me in half and I can never be whole again.

Sometimes when people ask questions like you did I laugh. Its like is this real? Why even post a question like that. Your not going to quit because we tell you. But.. You know what? I didn't know better. I got into stims because I loved my brother and trusted him to protect me. I never though he would hook me on a drug like meth. He lied to me he told me it was ok. I was a child. I had no exp. I didn't know better. Meth made my other habits get worse. Drinking pills. everything went through the roof. One day I was great... then one day I was not.

All drugs are easy to recover from given time. stims are not. They may have a easy WD but the long term damage is by far the worse. Because its mental.

Well maybe your not ready or don't believe the 50+ posts telling you dont do it. So I say this to you buddy.

One day when you find your self doing a line on the back of a bathroom toilet maybe you will rethink your choices. Some day you won't be able to take a shower with out a bump... ..... good luck
I wish you understood.
 
although I don't use meth, I have been on dexys for 20 years for ADHD, because its an amphetamine it killed one of my kidneys, if you think you have a problem with any amphetamine go and seek help, be it medical help, Narcotics Anonymous, help from a family member or close non using friend, If you want to get off it you can.

living with only 1 small kidney sux hardcore. I Fear weekly dialysis, and so should you.

thankfully I'm on a cut down & quit program,

please don't ruin your body, its the only one you've got.
 
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olab7 said:
Well I don't think anyone can scare you away from meth. If you've researched it, know what it can do to people, or have seen it take over someone then you should of already been scared away from it. No matter what people post here about it you'll still do it if you want.
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Exactly my thinking.

I don't even think the faces of meth will work, the OP seems quite educated about it anyway, and those pictures are controversial (for many reasons I don't want to go into here)

The main reason I don't do meth is extremely simple. There are few stimulant drugs that if abused over years to the extreme cause such long term neurotoxic damage to brain chemistry. Severe abuse of meth has however been researched extensively as it was previously yet breifly used as pharmaceutical drug. People that severely abuse meth, on a nearly daily basis, for years are left permanantly changed, for the rest of their life, irriversibly so. Some can not feel hapinness at all, some are permanently dysphoric, some end up mentally ill and in psychiatric care, and some end up developing neurodegenerative disorders prematurely.

If that doesn't put you off abuse of meth then I dont know what will!
 
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