Hi,
Im in my mid twenties and tried mdma/X for the first time a few months ago. The experience was amazing to say the least. I had never felt anything remotely to close to those few hours previously in my life.
I ended up rolling on 4 other occasions over the next few months. On the fourth occasion I didn't roll as hard as normal and ended up getting a headache. When I got home I felt fine besides the headache, just a bit tired. After being home for about 20 minutes or so I became extremely nauseous and felt like I was gonna pass out. My first thought was maybe my blood sugar was low cause I hadn't eaten much the entire day. I tried to eat something but i just couldn't. My roommate was there and he sat with me, I felt extremely ill and was about to go to the hospital. My roommate suggested sitting outside for a bit to see if the fresh air could help. I sat outside with him, the fresh air helped a little but I still felt pretty sick, something I had never experienced before. I had experienced bad comedowns prior to this, but this was something completely different.
Eventually I was able to eat a few scoops of ice cream, drank some water and lied down to go to sleep. At this point I still felt pretty ill, but I thought it may just because I got no sleep the night before either. I passed out instantly.
I woke up about 5 hours later and felt pretty much fine. Actually I felt prett normal, not sick at all.
Im not sure if what I took was MDMA/X, the pills were never tested. They were from the same dealer tho and 5 other people who took them that night are completely fine.
Now a month passes and everything is well. I even stopped popping due to that experience. Over the next little while, people start commenting on how I look different. Like my face is sunken. I basically shrug it off. Over the next few months, more and more people all unrelated to each other comment on how I look very skinny. People ask me how I lost so much weight, am I sick etc.. I get concerned and when I look in the mirror i dont notice much of a difference, so i chalk it up to weight loss. I eventually go weigh myself and the scale says that I weigh the exact same I always have been for the last 5 years. I look at my body and it looks the same.
Then i decided to take a picture of my face and compare it ones I had prior to the drug use. What I saw when I compared the pictures completely shocked me.
I looked at the new pictures and my temples, cheeks and eyes had all sunken in. My whole face looked like a different shape. If you were to look at just the pictures you would surely think that I had lost 20-30 pounds. Thats how drastic the change is.
I searched everywhere on the net for something similar to this and cant find anything related to this. Honestly it looks like I have lipodystrophy of the face, similar to what HIV meds cause. My temples, cheeks (below the zygoma) and undereyes have gone concave. My zygomatic arch has become prominent.
I have read that Rhabdomylosis is common with MDMA. That is the only answer that I can come up with here. Possible my muscles of mastication atrophied, but this doesnt really make sense either because it looks like I have lost fat from all over my face, much more like lipodystrophy.
I have blood tests for basically everything possible, everything came back normal. I have seen many doctors and they tell me it must just be age related volume loss. I can guarantee you that its not age related volume loss because everything occurred over that one month after that event where I got sick. Ive even gotten an MRI and that was normal.
I dont know what to do anymore, I have become extremely depressed and am on antidepressants for severe depression and benzos for panic attacks. Every doctor I see just thinks im a nut that needs more meds.
Im turning to this board for some insight/help/advice because I don't know what else to do. Ive developed major depression from this and get suicidal thoughts constantly. Im hoping someone here can help me figure out what happened and possibly reverse this, even though I know its highly unlikely. I am otherwise in good health, everything is in working order. One other change that has occurred is that I used to have extremely oily skin on my face along with my hair, now the oil has COMPLETY dried up. It has now been over 6 months since this occured and my face had not returned to normal, I actually think is sinking in more, but cant confirm it 100%. I can tell you it has not gotten any better even though I have not drank, smoke or popped at all. By the way im not a smoker of weed or cigarettes in general.
My face seems to be the only area affected which is very strange. I don't know if anyone has heard of anything like this before on this board, but I would really appreciate any help/advice!!
Im in my mid twenties and tried mdma/X for the first time a few months ago. The experience was amazing to say the least. I had never felt anything remotely to close to those few hours previously in my life.
I ended up rolling on 4 other occasions over the next few months. On the fourth occasion I didn't roll as hard as normal and ended up getting a headache. When I got home I felt fine besides the headache, just a bit tired. After being home for about 20 minutes or so I became extremely nauseous and felt like I was gonna pass out. My first thought was maybe my blood sugar was low cause I hadn't eaten much the entire day. I tried to eat something but i just couldn't. My roommate was there and he sat with me, I felt extremely ill and was about to go to the hospital. My roommate suggested sitting outside for a bit to see if the fresh air could help. I sat outside with him, the fresh air helped a little but I still felt pretty sick, something I had never experienced before. I had experienced bad comedowns prior to this, but this was something completely different.
Eventually I was able to eat a few scoops of ice cream, drank some water and lied down to go to sleep. At this point I still felt pretty ill, but I thought it may just because I got no sleep the night before either. I passed out instantly.
I woke up about 5 hours later and felt pretty much fine. Actually I felt prett normal, not sick at all.
Im not sure if what I took was MDMA/X, the pills were never tested. They were from the same dealer tho and 5 other people who took them that night are completely fine.
Now a month passes and everything is well. I even stopped popping due to that experience. Over the next little while, people start commenting on how I look different. Like my face is sunken. I basically shrug it off. Over the next few months, more and more people all unrelated to each other comment on how I look very skinny. People ask me how I lost so much weight, am I sick etc.. I get concerned and when I look in the mirror i dont notice much of a difference, so i chalk it up to weight loss. I eventually go weigh myself and the scale says that I weigh the exact same I always have been for the last 5 years. I look at my body and it looks the same.
Then i decided to take a picture of my face and compare it ones I had prior to the drug use. What I saw when I compared the pictures completely shocked me.
I looked at the new pictures and my temples, cheeks and eyes had all sunken in. My whole face looked like a different shape. If you were to look at just the pictures you would surely think that I had lost 20-30 pounds. Thats how drastic the change is.
I searched everywhere on the net for something similar to this and cant find anything related to this. Honestly it looks like I have lipodystrophy of the face, similar to what HIV meds cause. My temples, cheeks (below the zygoma) and undereyes have gone concave. My zygomatic arch has become prominent.
I have read that Rhabdomylosis is common with MDMA. That is the only answer that I can come up with here. Possible my muscles of mastication atrophied, but this doesnt really make sense either because it looks like I have lost fat from all over my face, much more like lipodystrophy.
I have blood tests for basically everything possible, everything came back normal. I have seen many doctors and they tell me it must just be age related volume loss. I can guarantee you that its not age related volume loss because everything occurred over that one month after that event where I got sick. Ive even gotten an MRI and that was normal.
I dont know what to do anymore, I have become extremely depressed and am on antidepressants for severe depression and benzos for panic attacks. Every doctor I see just thinks im a nut that needs more meds.
Im turning to this board for some insight/help/advice because I don't know what else to do. Ive developed major depression from this and get suicidal thoughts constantly. Im hoping someone here can help me figure out what happened and possibly reverse this, even though I know its highly unlikely. I am otherwise in good health, everything is in working order. One other change that has occurred is that I used to have extremely oily skin on my face along with my hair, now the oil has COMPLETY dried up. It has now been over 6 months since this occured and my face had not returned to normal, I actually think is sinking in more, but cant confirm it 100%. I can tell you it has not gotten any better even though I have not drank, smoke or popped at all. By the way im not a smoker of weed or cigarettes in general.
My face seems to be the only area affected which is very strange. I don't know if anyone has heard of anything like this before on this board, but I would really appreciate any help/advice!!
