BottleDryer
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I just wanted to know how many people on here (out there) DON'T smoke marijuana because they don't enjoy it's effects.
(Maybe I should've made a poll).
Every time I mention that I don't smoke weed I always get this "funny look" thrown at me. Like as if "its not normal" or "how can you not enjoy it?", "everyone needs some weed"...
Ok, a little back story here, I USE to smoke weed long ago in highschool . I was a full time pot head back then. So much so, that I even convinced my parents to change the ceiling fan in the bathroom to a "bigger" one because it gets too steamy in there after a shower and it might end up causing mold... lol. Lot's of "Jamaican showers" .
So eventually I don't know when and how exactly, I gradually stopped smoking weed and finally came to a complete stop. As of now, all it does for me is get me paranoid, anxious and makes me think way too much to "relax" and chill out. Whether this current state was brought on by developing negative social and environmental factors in my life, which is quite possible, is open for debate (in my own head...maybe).
I remember the first time I tried it , back in high-school, I was sitting on a porch of a close friend of mine at the time and her friend was there too (two chicks). I wanted to really try it, mostly from curiosity and partly from not wanted to "look" or be "lame" anymore. I guess trying weed for the first time when your a kid sorta "catapults" you into this higher social status (if you get what I mean). So I was sitting there and my friend asks me if I want to try it and I said hell yea, but her friend was reluctant and felt as if she was going to "corrupt me", but as if that would've stopped me, anyways, I totally remember the first drag I had on that joint, I remember saying as soon as I exhaled "this tastes like barbecue sauce" (Ralphie's voice- from the Simpsons) lol, but seriously I was so hyped that I had tried it and was just there chilling with these two chicks. We ended up going to this sleazy bar and playing pool. Was an awesome first time.
So ever since that moment in my younger life, I was this pot smoking machine, I loved the way I felt on it, the way things seemed / appeared to me while I was on it, the way things were so chill and amplified. Just everything was great.
But now like 10 years later I hate it. It's the complete opposite for me.
Around a year ago I remember trying some medical grade "Sour Diesel" in Detroit after not having touched marijuana for a few years and I completely got my ass handed to me after 2 hits. I was floored, literally for maybe 3 hours. I was starring at the floor thinking "when the fuck is this shit gonna end??!" .... thinking "did I just shit my pants ???" .... thinking "fuck I cant get up and I don't want to look up, why is everyone starring at me!!?? " . lol. You get the point.
Like I mentioned before, these "negative" effects/thoughts/feelings are probably due to social and environmental change(s) in my life and how my character / attitude / beliefs / ideology etc, has changed since high-school. But I can never be to certain, I mean how exactly can one be ? (How do exactly do you pinpoint this down and solve it ?) I've had some very deep and insightful moments with myself ( while sober or not) and I do understand "most" of the inner workings of my attitude / character. But despite this "understanding" I still cannot enjoy weed.
Last time I smoked weed was a few months ago, the place and setting wasn't negative (but then again it wasn't exactly the optimum spot to be in), but anyways that didn't bother me so much. So , to go in slight detail, as the high began to come on , I literally had to begin talking to myself (inside my head) to calm down and relax and that this is what weed "is", there was nothing to be afraid of (there really wasn't) and that I needed to relax and enjoy the ride. This helped somewhat, but the fact that I had to actively/consciously engage in this process of "calming myself" was so annoying to me and it killed the buzz / trip.
*Feels like I'm writing a novel*
Some people have recommend to me that I try a different weed strain, like indica instead of sativa (Indica being more physical rather than cerebral, did I get that right ?). But the thing is, nobody knows jack shit outside of the "internet" / forums, about different strains and types of weed.
Usually when I ask someone what "kind" of weed they got I usually get these kind of responses ; "Kind ?, it's chronic mannn", "It's the good kind of shit, some dank bud" .... etc.
Grrrrrrr, lol I want to enjoy weed again!!
Anyways, I don't want to rant.
So, is anyone else kind of in the same situation ?
(Maybe I should've made a poll).
Every time I mention that I don't smoke weed I always get this "funny look" thrown at me. Like as if "its not normal" or "how can you not enjoy it?", "everyone needs some weed"...
Ok, a little back story here, I USE to smoke weed long ago in highschool . I was a full time pot head back then. So much so, that I even convinced my parents to change the ceiling fan in the bathroom to a "bigger" one because it gets too steamy in there after a shower and it might end up causing mold... lol. Lot's of "Jamaican showers" .
So eventually I don't know when and how exactly, I gradually stopped smoking weed and finally came to a complete stop. As of now, all it does for me is get me paranoid, anxious and makes me think way too much to "relax" and chill out. Whether this current state was brought on by developing negative social and environmental factors in my life, which is quite possible, is open for debate (in my own head...maybe).
I remember the first time I tried it , back in high-school, I was sitting on a porch of a close friend of mine at the time and her friend was there too (two chicks). I wanted to really try it, mostly from curiosity and partly from not wanted to "look" or be "lame" anymore. I guess trying weed for the first time when your a kid sorta "catapults" you into this higher social status (if you get what I mean). So I was sitting there and my friend asks me if I want to try it and I said hell yea, but her friend was reluctant and felt as if she was going to "corrupt me", but as if that would've stopped me, anyways, I totally remember the first drag I had on that joint, I remember saying as soon as I exhaled "this tastes like barbecue sauce" (Ralphie's voice- from the Simpsons) lol, but seriously I was so hyped that I had tried it and was just there chilling with these two chicks. We ended up going to this sleazy bar and playing pool. Was an awesome first time.
So ever since that moment in my younger life, I was this pot smoking machine, I loved the way I felt on it, the way things seemed / appeared to me while I was on it, the way things were so chill and amplified. Just everything was great.
But now like 10 years later I hate it. It's the complete opposite for me.
Around a year ago I remember trying some medical grade "Sour Diesel" in Detroit after not having touched marijuana for a few years and I completely got my ass handed to me after 2 hits. I was floored, literally for maybe 3 hours. I was starring at the floor thinking "when the fuck is this shit gonna end??!" .... thinking "did I just shit my pants ???" .... thinking "fuck I cant get up and I don't want to look up, why is everyone starring at me!!?? " . lol. You get the point.
Like I mentioned before, these "negative" effects/thoughts/feelings are probably due to social and environmental change(s) in my life and how my character / attitude / beliefs / ideology etc, has changed since high-school. But I can never be to certain, I mean how exactly can one be ? (How do exactly do you pinpoint this down and solve it ?) I've had some very deep and insightful moments with myself ( while sober or not) and I do understand "most" of the inner workings of my attitude / character. But despite this "understanding" I still cannot enjoy weed.
Last time I smoked weed was a few months ago, the place and setting wasn't negative (but then again it wasn't exactly the optimum spot to be in), but anyways that didn't bother me so much. So , to go in slight detail, as the high began to come on , I literally had to begin talking to myself (inside my head) to calm down and relax and that this is what weed "is", there was nothing to be afraid of (there really wasn't) and that I needed to relax and enjoy the ride. This helped somewhat, but the fact that I had to actively/consciously engage in this process of "calming myself" was so annoying to me and it killed the buzz / trip.
*Feels like I'm writing a novel*
Some people have recommend to me that I try a different weed strain, like indica instead of sativa (Indica being more physical rather than cerebral, did I get that right ?). But the thing is, nobody knows jack shit outside of the "internet" / forums, about different strains and types of weed.
Usually when I ask someone what "kind" of weed they got I usually get these kind of responses ; "Kind ?, it's chronic mannn", "It's the good kind of shit, some dank bud" .... etc.
Grrrrrrr, lol I want to enjoy weed again!!
Anyways, I don't want to rant.
So, is anyone else kind of in the same situation ?
