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It's not that I plan to do it any time soon. But it is how I plan to leave this world. I wouldn't have it any other way 
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straycatphizzle
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^ Well we'll see where your life takes you, hopefully you'll change your mind. But as long as you choose to continue living for the next several decades I think we're at terms with each other 
10 tons of love sent your way Laika
10 tons of love sent your way Laika
coelophysis
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Thanks & thanks to everyone else showing the love. Right back atch' ya'll I just don't want to die in a hospital if you feel me.
& kittie, you'll be getting the love tomorrow morning Probably before you even read this
I just don't want to die in a hospital if you feel me.& kittie, you'll be getting the love tomorrow morning
Probably before you even read this 
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^ I think once I'm good and ready, that's how I'll go as well. Not before wringing it well dry of all the joys and wonders it has in store for me, though. %) (edit: that was referring to your previous post, Laika.)
The way I see it, life is either meaningful, or it isn't - if it's meaningless, and joy and pain and consciousness are all illusory mechanisms of our biology, created by an accident of a cold and lifeless universe, there's certainly nothing I or anyone else can do about it. I can't make a "right" decision, nor can I make a "wrong" decision - all we were, all we are, and all we ever will be is lifeless space dust. The OTHER option is that life DOES have meaning, in which case, our decisions suddenly gain importance, and the most prudent course of action is to embrace life to the fullest extent. Choose the latter path, and you can't lose.
Also, uniting with egoless universal consciousness after death - I'm not so sure. If consciousness were possible outside of a physical body, what would be the point in going through life on earth? Wouldn't it be a more efficient system to send souls straight to this divine coalescence of consciousness right from the get-go, rather than having them first plod through life as a human being, with all of our imperfections? I don't know. Maybe I'm asking for pudding before supper.
Just last night, I was sitting on my bed, stoned and playing some Shpongle, thinking about space dust. And I asked myself: "Are you space dust, or are you something more?". I asked myself if I were really hearing the music, and if I were really seeing the interior of my bedroom, and if I really could feel the bed comforter against my skin. So I sat, and for a few moments I silenced the drone of my thoughts, and listened, and looked, and touched. And slowly, a smile crept across my face, and soon I burst out laughing in confounded amazement, upon the glorious realization that, indeed, I heard, I saw, and I felt!
The way I see it, life is either meaningful, or it isn't - if it's meaningless, and joy and pain and consciousness are all illusory mechanisms of our biology, created by an accident of a cold and lifeless universe, there's certainly nothing I or anyone else can do about it. I can't make a "right" decision, nor can I make a "wrong" decision - all we were, all we are, and all we ever will be is lifeless space dust. The OTHER option is that life DOES have meaning, in which case, our decisions suddenly gain importance, and the most prudent course of action is to embrace life to the fullest extent. Choose the latter path, and you can't lose.
Also, uniting with egoless universal consciousness after death - I'm not so sure. If consciousness were possible outside of a physical body, what would be the point in going through life on earth? Wouldn't it be a more efficient system to send souls straight to this divine coalescence of consciousness right from the get-go, rather than having them first plod through life as a human being, with all of our imperfections? I don't know. Maybe I'm asking for pudding before supper.
Just last night, I was sitting on my bed, stoned and playing some Shpongle, thinking about space dust. And I asked myself: "Are you space dust, or are you something more?". I asked myself if I were really hearing the music, and if I were really seeing the interior of my bedroom, and if I really could feel the bed comforter against my skin. So I sat, and for a few moments I silenced the drone of my thoughts, and listened, and looked, and touched. And slowly, a smile crept across my face, and soon I burst out laughing in confounded amazement, upon the glorious realization that, indeed, I heard, I saw, and I felt!
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If you're talking about my little theory there you didn't read it well... what I was thinking is that when you die time ceases to exist so that the period after death is kind of besides the point for that person and his consciousness... If you were talking about something else, sorry ---
Of course there is the other theory that we don't necessarily own a consciousness that is divided but all are part of the web of universal consciousness. Only in our lifetime, besides the transcendental experiences we all tune into specific parts of that field, manipulating it in our mind to give us awareness. Consciousness could be not an illusory mechanism of our body but a property of all of nature, being virtually synonimous with energy. Whenever we stop using a specific part of it that is us and meant for us we then only see the whole picture, we begin seeing the web, the collective.
This would also explain how this collective web of all makes us all part of it even though we might be conscious at most times at a different level but even though we are not aware of it, this prime mover is the one making us all do what we do, almost like puppets.
As for the point of life, besides the perennial idea that the goal is to achieve happiness, the point of not only being this web of oneness that also comprises spacetime, all there ever was is and will be is that everyone at once is without a frame nothing at all. There is only sense in it if there is an evolution of consciousness from basic viral automatons to humans and maybe further so that bit by bit there is awakening of true nature. Endless potential is not that unless there is manifestation, in the form of cycle upon cycle within cycle, microcosm in macrocosm. Infinite complexity looking in the mirror.
Basically the universe is as grand as would ever be possible, or so it seems. Though realizing too much of it too fast can produce a really sensitive predicament. I can't pretend to myself I don't see so much that makes me contemplate but at the same time I find the world utterly overwhelming. The fact that I don't know much at all somehow doesn't make it any better, rather worse...
Of course there is the other theory that we don't necessarily own a consciousness that is divided but all are part of the web of universal consciousness. Only in our lifetime, besides the transcendental experiences we all tune into specific parts of that field, manipulating it in our mind to give us awareness. Consciousness could be not an illusory mechanism of our body but a property of all of nature, being virtually synonimous with energy. Whenever we stop using a specific part of it that is us and meant for us we then only see the whole picture, we begin seeing the web, the collective.
This would also explain how this collective web of all makes us all part of it even though we might be conscious at most times at a different level but even though we are not aware of it, this prime mover is the one making us all do what we do, almost like puppets.
As for the point of life, besides the perennial idea that the goal is to achieve happiness, the point of not only being this web of oneness that also comprises spacetime, all there ever was is and will be is that everyone at once is without a frame nothing at all. There is only sense in it if there is an evolution of consciousness from basic viral automatons to humans and maybe further so that bit by bit there is awakening of true nature. Endless potential is not that unless there is manifestation, in the form of cycle upon cycle within cycle, microcosm in macrocosm. Infinite complexity looking in the mirror.
Basically the universe is as grand as would ever be possible, or so it seems. Though realizing too much of it too fast can produce a really sensitive predicament. I can't pretend to myself I don't see so much that makes me contemplate but at the same time I find the world utterly overwhelming. The fact that I don't know much at all somehow doesn't make it any better, rather worse...
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So has anyone ever watched Party Monster and said to yourself "I know someone who i could see going down this path"
rave promoter, and has done enough crazy things to make the simple idea of "yea one of these days he might go off on someone and kill them with a hammer" not completely unbelievable.
It might not be a hammer, but one of these days we are all going to end up on the news for when something goes horribly wrong...
When you eat so much DOI that you can see nothing but fractals in front of you at a roller rink psytrance party you are not a normal individual.
rave promoter, and has done enough crazy things to make the simple idea of "yea one of these days he might go off on someone and kill them with a hammer" not completely unbelievable.
It might not be a hammer, but one of these days we are all going to end up on the news for when something goes horribly wrong...
When you eat so much DOI that you can see nothing but fractals in front of you at a roller rink psytrance party you are not a normal individual.
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Holy Smokes you guys have been posting up a storm.
Congrats Ecto
Solipsis; I like your theory a couple pages back. I have also wondered what happens in "insta-death" situations, ie. Headshot.
In the past I have used both in combination and found good effects. In the end though i found the SJW to feel "edgy" and stopped taking it after a while. I know people say they're dangerous in combo but they're not really. The MAOI effect of SJW is very mild, it's mostly an SSRI/SNRI.
About 5-HTP, use L-Tryptophan instead. It's much better. It lasts a lot longer. It keeps the serotonin level more steady; 5-HTP acts quicker after you take your dose, but L-Tryp will stay with you longer and is generally more balanced and stable. Make sure you take these amino acids on an empty stomach. If there's other proteins in your gut the receptors are also taking those ones up. To get maximal absorption of the Tryptophan you have to take it on a empty-ish stomach and not eat for a 1/2 to an hour or so afterwards
I agree.
Exactly. You need to accept some things for the way they are and just live with it. Integrate it, because it's a a part of you and isn't going anywhere.
I just got off of inferior internet. :D
You on dial-up? I've been living with 2 kB/s for my whole life up until about a month ago.
Congrats Ecto
Solipsis; I like your theory a couple pages back. I have also wondered what happens in "insta-death" situations, ie. Headshot.
In the past I have used both in combination and found good effects. In the end though i found the SJW to feel "edgy" and stopped taking it after a while. I know people say they're dangerous in combo but they're not really. The MAOI effect of SJW is very mild, it's mostly an SSRI/SNRI.
About 5-HTP, use L-Tryptophan instead. It's much better. It lasts a lot longer. It keeps the serotonin level more steady; 5-HTP acts quicker after you take your dose, but L-Tryp will stay with you longer and is generally more balanced and stable. Make sure you take these amino acids on an empty stomach. If there's other proteins in your gut the receptors are also taking those ones up. To get maximal absorption of the Tryptophan you have to take it on a empty-ish stomach and not eat for a 1/2 to an hour or so afterwards
I agree.
Exactly. You need to accept some things for the way they are and just live with it. Integrate it, because it's a a part of you and isn't going anywhere.
I just got off of inferior internet. :D
You on dial-up? I've been living with 2 kB/s for my whole life up until about a month ago.
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Postamania! Laika hang in there, look for the positives, life is good, try to enjoy every fun, love-filled, terrible, depressing, ecstatic second of it
Hello PD! Been a couple days, good to see how active social has become recently. Its nice to always have someone to talk to in here whenever u need it.
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Hello PD! Been a couple days, good to see how active social has become recently. Its nice to always have someone to talk to in here whenever u need it.
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I wish I had a dad who was open to consuming a a psychoactive besides alcohol.
I've been making "opium" by evaporating the water from poppy seed tea and scraping the residue. Smoking a pipe of that sure works, but I feel crappy the next morning. I had some last night and it was great but I felt really tired this morning.
I've been making "opium" by evaporating the water from poppy seed tea and scraping the residue. Smoking a pipe of that sure works, but I feel crappy the next morning. I had some last night and it was great but I felt really tired this morning.
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I wish I had a dad who was open to consuming a a psychoactive besides alcohol.
Amen to that brother...u pretty much boil the pod tea down right?
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Its been a while since i've had some real opium. I think thats the one opiate im still open to using without having to feel guilty about it.
Pod tea usually lasts a very long time for me. Well into the next day if i take it in the evening. Maybe thats why your tea evap residue lasts so long.
I had a nice weekend visiting some friends.
decided against 2ct21 for the weekend and went with good old
LSD. Aswell as some nitrous, pot and my old best friend Ketamine.It was a good time. Did a whole bunch of fun tripping stuff like making fractals on the wall using video feedback and a projector.
And then all of us playing random insruments that we didnt know how to play to make some loud sounding chaotic noise that had a few moments of harmony.
It was a nice way to spend a weekend and definately an entertaining trip.
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^^ Twas a nice weekend We threw an Acid Test for sure! Epic.
We threw an Acid Test for sure! Epic.
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^ Indeed.
Nah, I think I understood your theory, for the most part anyhow. I was just rattling off some ideas that I've come to after pondering this sort of thing over the years.
That seems to describe how I view things.
Oh, and thanks for the YouTube links, Laika and Roger. I always appreciate it when I get a little glimpse into the music you guys are chilling to, which is why I sometimes share some links too. Dunno if anyone ever clicks on mine, though.
Nah, I think I understood your theory, for the most part anyhow. I was just rattling off some ideas that I've come to after pondering this sort of thing over the years.
That seems to describe how I view things.
Oh, and thanks for the YouTube links, Laika and Roger.
I always appreciate it when I get a little glimpse into the music you guys are chilling to, which is why I sometimes share some links too. Dunno if anyone ever clicks on mine, though.
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Always good to know if people have a pair of acid testes say what?
Bought like half a sheet of ganesha as well. Don't care if my tripping frequency is low for a while, it's a primary resource to have in yer freezer - even better if its quality amide
Always good to know if people have a pair of acid testes
say what?Bought like half a sheet of ganesha as well. Don't care if my tripping frequency is low for a while, it's a primary resource to have in yer freezer - even better if its quality amide
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