You'll be the happiest, most fulfilled and most successful that way, and you'll end up with a lot more money too, if you keep at it.
The career part of my life has some huge holes in it and is a big part of what gets me stressed these days.
I have an education that allows me to get jobs (salary types) that I'm good at but it still leaves me groaning in the morning when I wake up and I know it's not going to last long this way. If I really like my job I'm far more productive and into it; therefore the boss is more pleased with my work and I am more pleased with myself.
The hobby type work I do around my house (mostly working on old, junky pieces of machinery and keeping them going) drives me and I really get into it, but a career in it isn't going to pay squat. Lab work is work I'm good at but it really has to be in the right type of lab. If the material being investigated isn't interesting to me, obviously it's going to be hard to get the motivation to do a lot of it; even though I'm good at it.
I think your post pretty much made me realize I really need to get into university and try again. Organic chemcistry is the only thing I'm interested in that'll actually make me happy and get me some dough as a side-effect.
I'm just a little late is all. Ideally I would already have my undergrad; not be starting 2nd year next year (I'll get a year credit for the school I've already done). Oh how I wish I didn't get majorly depressed and screw it all up in high school. 8)
I think a key part of getting through working jobs that aren't very glamorous, like dishwashing or housekeeping, or working in a grocery store, is just realizing that someone has to do it, and that it is not a difficult job, and that even if you don't like it, do a good job anyways. It says a lot about who you are when you have a good work ethic. And don't get all pissy when you're not having a great day. I mean, be in touch with your emotions, and acknowledge what it is that is making you feel down, but always try to keep a positive attitude ! Being down on yourself and miserable over a shitty job that you might not be able to change "for now", won't do anyone any good.
I do this for every job I've had. I get really down on myself and tend to lose my drive to maintain a positive attitude.
I've never gone back to a summer job for a second summer. It's very common to do that around here but the longest I've held a job is about 4 months. When I get a job I'll get very excited and into and then it'll slowly deteriorate and by the time the work term is up I'm glad to leave. I know a big factor is that the jobs have been very monotonous, low paying, always being watched, always have to be moving every second you're at work, that kind of thing. Maintaining a positive attitude in a job that crushes you down is really hard.
the job I have now I'm not always being watched which is a huge weight off my shoulders it's just that the subject matter is dull to me.
Xorkoth said:
A lot of people seem unable (probably just unwilling actually) to acknowledge their emotions as a chemical response... they BECOME their emotions and as a result they take out their negativity on everyone around them while feeling justified about it.
mmmm hmmmm. It's a perpetuating ego trap. Negativity from you pisses other people off, which makes them negative towards you which makes you more negative; all the while you feel justified.
Oh how I know that feeling. The first step is being aware of it.
). It also doesn't interfere with my schoolwork.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
. I'm not losing my shit or anything but I keep running trivial stuff around in my head and getting myself worked up over it when I'm probably just reading way too much into social cues. Or maybe not enough. I am far too presumptuous about people. I'm also not very good at hiding my dislike for somebody or something and often come off as sketchy as a result of just wanting to avoid prolonged social interaction. I need to work at being more straight-forward and transparent I think.