@AutoTripper next pictures give us a nice smile.
I know there is some happiness in there. One of my main reasons of taking acid is to dig past the normal consensus consciousness and see things to be happy about.
Anyone ever feel guilty for NOT tripping? I only had an LSD trip and one 4-ACO-DMT trip two strong DMT trips and one strong Salvia trip this year. I meant to get more in but always find an excuse to not too. And that makes me feel guilty, like I am not doing my meditation or exercise or something. I wanted to get a DPT trip in but not sure I have that in me right now. But the year is still young and maybe the fall I will get a few more in. I would love to get a cactus trip in too but may need to wait on that. Have not done 2C-B in 2 years either.
Cheers man, but I can’t say I’ll try, as I just don’t do posing, pretence.
But if you showed up on my door I swear I’d surprise you, with a full natural greeting smile and bright demeanour, I’m a very serious man, but you really wouldn’t find me glum, sullen, or at all misery guts in person.
But smiling for a photo, I’d need to be taken off guard, it’s the only way it wouldn’t be a pose, at least subconsciously but fully consciously really, in a psychosomatic way almost.
So I’ve been to town for acupuncture today. I’ve never in my life, once, taken “too much” Acid.
Too much in a week, month, year kind of, but not acutely like an overdose.
I’ve never felt regret, shit wish I hadn’t taken X Micrograms that day, last week.
It’s always been water under the bridge, and until very very recently, I’ve really never felt as though I’ve “lost” anything to Acid.
This is honestly the first time ever, I’m hoping recovery, return to previous state is possible. I’m always saying how “safe” LSD is on paper, in regards.
A milligram plugged is officially too much for me, I took it mentally so well, but it’s such an intense hit for the nervous system, oral acid seems like child’splay.
In hindsight, it was officially too much. I’ve never felt this type of after effect before, it’s like way too much MDMA something really not right feeling and presentation.
I underestimated the dose via the ROA, the only time ever with Acid I have bitten off more than I can chew, after 25 years.
I considered that the maximum dose I would plug, most Acid I would take, effectively.
I really hope I get away with it, maybe tomorrow the wind will change, maybe in a week it will be a memory.
But I have really spooked myself. I haven’t heard a report of that amount plugged before, and I urge against it. 500, 600 ug about alright. Last week, I could have gone any way, pretty unscathed in most ways, just given the right will to live with and act by.
It’s out of my hands now. Really unexpected. I never had a bad trip. Until earlier today, maybe the very delayed psychological comedown phase I don’t like with Acid these days, my mood took a turn and today is a replica of a real bad trip, physically, reverberating still.
I didn’t tell the nice Chinese acupuncture man, who I typically am as open, honest and direct as can be or is worthwhile, that I have IMO overdosed on LSD the one and only time ever, and so disconcerting and unsettling it is.
I told him the other basic bits, probiotics were aggravating IBS, this, that, but not- last week the ball was in my court. Now I’m concerned I have blown it.
I’ve never felt this way before post LSD. It might come good. Too much of a good thing, I really underestimated the power of rectal Acid. It’s unquantifiable, as it feels like a different drug.
Paul McCartney formed “Wings”. My mum has the CD since 80’s, “Band on the run.”
One song lyrics are….If I ever get out of here…gonna give it all away…to a rested charity…All I need is a pint a day, if I ever get out of here…if I ever get out of here…”
Well, on a positive, I will be so pleased, relieved, to see the same old evidence, pattern and proof in the pudding, basically drugs wear off, same old same old, just a bit different.
This is not like that atm. I’m not just assuming, trusting either. That would be presumptuous, hence my mental state.
4 days ago, I was pretty unscarred by Acid. I could have got away. I might still.
In a way, maybe I needed it, to go quite a bit past that line. No drug taking I’ve ever done has been quite so heavy and impactful, just one single dose.
My vision hasn’t returned to normal, visuals still, hppd has never “bothered” me so much. It’s different all round vs what I’m long used to.
I did it though. I wouldn’t do it again, nor would have in hindsight. 600 max if plugging in the name of mental health and nervous system endurance is my experienced advice.
Roll on the new/normal normal.
