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Bluelighter
fucking hell thats horrible. Waikato draught is already awful.
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Deleted member 521610
Bluelighter
man im glad i got some nicotine i get so fucking tired walking everywhere and using my brain really bad fatigue. I wish i had the energy of when i was like 14.
cosmic charlie
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I think that Proscaline is quite q nice drug and I will continue to explore the drug and its close relatives.
electronDegenerate
Bluelighter
Well I couldn't help it.
Sent for some 4-AcO-DMT and MXiPr. Perhaps this order will find favorable winds.
Sent for some 4-AcO-DMT and MXiPr. Perhaps this order will find favorable winds.
Deleted member 521610
Bluelighter
For all my spiritual journey i cant believe i always that one little step that simplest truth i always overlooked because i could not accept how simple reality is. Always look at enlightement as been annihlated into a white light of bliss or living in some crazy heaven.
The simple truth is that the "I" thought does not exist we are simply absolute reality there is nothing to seek for we are the light the love and the absolute infinite reality the present moment even if its so boring is the most extraordinary reality the absolute the past and future are simply imagination of the human mind. which itself is also a illusion. The Zen/ peace we can abide in total presence just being simply give up all grasping or rejecting. That is the secret to the awareness of all spiritual masters. We are not people who are looking we are just "that is looking" we are that absolute reality self aware in this void of infinity. Its a endless mystery and rabbit hole its infinite its impossible to grasp so give up trying its already you all is total.
Finally i acutally learnt something from that zen ego death trip it has lead to my new catalyst of unwinding the knots of consciousness which made me aware of the simple truth to peace. Chop wood carry water all is well divine being we are one we are not the doer of anything the absolute moves all thinks the thoughts and does it all we are moved by something far deeper than our human mind.
"I am" anything after is a extension of illusion of separateness
The simple truth is that the "I" thought does not exist we are simply absolute reality there is nothing to seek for we are the light the love and the absolute infinite reality the present moment even if its so boring is the most extraordinary reality the absolute the past and future are simply imagination of the human mind. which itself is also a illusion. The Zen/ peace we can abide in total presence just being simply give up all grasping or rejecting. That is the secret to the awareness of all spiritual masters. We are not people who are looking we are just "that is looking" we are that absolute reality self aware in this void of infinity. Its a endless mystery and rabbit hole its infinite its impossible to grasp so give up trying its already you all is total.
Finally i acutally learnt something from that zen ego death trip it has lead to my new catalyst of unwinding the knots of consciousness which made me aware of the simple truth to peace. Chop wood carry water all is well divine being we are one we are not the doer of anything the absolute moves all thinks the thoughts and does it all we are moved by something far deeper than our human mind.
"I am" anything after is a extension of illusion of separateness
cosmic charlie
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Great choices personally I fucking loved MXiPr but it does have that off putting smell of burnt Rubber when ypu b sniff it tho. Bit that beong said its one of the most euphoric dissos for me. I find it wicked compulsive but if you let your partner monitor your baseline.i like Proscaline alot it serves as a good launching pad for DMT and I'd imagine other Tryptamines as well.
electronDegenerate
Bluelighter
If its even somewhat as magical as MXE I'll be pretty happy.
It'll be the first of the new analogs I'll be able to test out since the travesty of my sweet new dissociative stash never arriving.
But if somehow it does, I will have a lot of MXiPr to test and I may do my first ever wash. I've been pretty lucky with the purity of the chems I have received in my time doing this, save for a few that were so off putting that I didn't even care to try and clean them.
It'll be the first of the new analogs I'll be able to test out since the travesty of my sweet new dissociative stash never arriving.
But if somehow it does, I will have a lot of MXiPr to test and I may do my first ever wash. I've been pretty lucky with the purity of the chems I have received in my time doing this, save for a few that were so off putting that I didn't even care to try and clean them.
Buzz Lightbeer
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DET is gone, most likely not coming back for a long time as it apparently was a one time thing, by some UK chemist that synths rarities once in a while (TMA-2 was from him as well I believe).
Buzz Lightbeer
Bluelight Crew
GONE!!
cosmic charlie
Bluelight Crew
This has undoubtedly become my favorite genre as of late i just can't get enough of this synthwave stuff. There's so much epic stuff out there on YouTube if you go digging around, these mixes put me in the zone. Got pretty scattered sleep last night from the psychedelics but its all good. Next time I'm gonna do a combo of 30mgs Proscaline and 40mgs 4-AcO-DMT both plugged, that is probably gonna be a nice time. Sorta wanna take a light dose of some DOiP or 3C-P today but I will probably hold off, let my tolerance fall some more. Had some really amazing DMT trips last night the visuals were breathtaking I have to get some art supplies and draw. Some of these patterns for ya'll so you can see what I mean. I get this audio effect lately as well when it kicks in where there is a echo of every sound I here and voices change pitch and sound somewhat alien, it's fascinating.
electronDegenerate
Bluelighter
Anxiety has been a struggle for me too.
I have literally been grinding little pieces off of my teeth. Its hard to meditate while my blood is boiling!
I have literally been grinding little pieces off of my teeth. Its hard to meditate while my blood is boiling!
Zephyn
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ah, allahu ackbar, god is good, i'm out of my halfway house, in my own apartment enjoying some delta-8-thc and a couple brews for the first time in many, many months. Got a job offer in line with what i was making last, have a drug test coming up and background check. assuming they dont mind my recent misdemeanors/i can explain them away, and this UPass synthetic urine passes in the lab, i should be able to get a car soon and this is much better than being homeless or subjected to indoctrinating religious propaganda. the anxiety on the way here or even still that this all could crumble keeps my blood boiling, but i am in signifigent amount less distress now that i cant get kicked out or fined for nonsense. regardless, feeling strong that i wont return to hard drugs and it was just a prolonged bad stage of my life, a chapter of learning
Jabberwocky
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I've noticed my anxiety levels have been through the roof since the imposition of the many national lockdowns we've had. I have a habit of ripping my leg hairs out whilst stressed, my legs are now completely bald. I've been trying a few methods to subdue myself, and have been taking 900mg ashwagandha every day for almost 3 months but the anxiety still remains pretty poignantly, my GP recommended that I take sertraline but I said I prefer diazepam, he didn't take that well. I think one way to mitigate anxiety issues is to try and remove oneself from media/news outlets, they're a cesspool for anxiogenesis at the moment, I find.
electronDegenerate
Bluelighter
That has certainly been a struggle
Xorkoth
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I should post this in The Dark Side but it's full of trolls and most of my friends are in this forum. I logged on here to post my latest dreams then decided it might be therapeutic to vent.
"Bluelight: Come for the dreams, stay for the self-pitying rant!" - Me
I woke up with absolutely no motivation whatsoever. I took my supplements, puttered around the house and did everything I could to be mentally & physically healthy.
It started turning to anxiety, so on a whim I took 10mg. of Klonopin (Five 2mg. tablets, NOT time released) over an hour ago and I don't feel a single thing from them. It's amazing how my mind can overpower anything when it wants to. On a good day, 2mg. will just about knock me out.
I should be cleaning my house and fixing it up to sell, running errands, washing my car, filing my paperwork, lifting weights, eating and a thousand other things, but I'm so overwhelmed that I don't know where to begin. I hate this.
Please send me some prayers or good vibes my way because I could really use them.
Peace, Love and Faith,
Dreamflyer
Sorry my friend, sending some love your way.
It's upsetting to me that TDS isn't a place you feel you can go to, as back in past years it was the most supportive place I can think of ever finding on the Internet, besides this thread. It's so hard to moderate that forum and we used to have a large mod team who actively pushed the culture into a positive direction. Personally I go in and out of participating there and it's been some time since I've felt strong enough in myself to venture in. That makes me very sad to hear though. 
Yeah lockdown has been awful for me too, especially at first. First the first few months I actually didn't go anywhere. Then my band started practicing again and I've been to some events, etc. I also caught covid at one recently but I'm kinda relieved now that I feel better, The state told me I can't get it again or transmit it (once Tuesday rolls around) for at least 3 months. If everyone got it like I had it, I'd say all this lockdown stuff totally isn't worth it, but since a lot of people get it much worse, and it is deadly for a not-insignificant percentage of vulnerable people, I maintain that these measures are necessary. But I'm sure we're all more than sick of it. It's not easy, that's for sure. And I say that as an American in a state where they've never enforced anything. I know it's much more severe in some other places.
Buzz Lightbeer
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Ever try Rhodiola Rosea? It seems to have pretty significant results for some.
Are SSRIs really the go-to when people have anxiety? It sounds crazy but maybe it isn't
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
I didn't know a single flat in my accommodation complex that didn't have at least 3 COVID-19 cases, none suffered any major symptoms but in saying this, they're all 19 years old and have a spring in their step. I luckily never exhibited any symptoms, so I presume that I never caught it. Took my daily dose of 1000mg ascorbic acid and 4000iu cholecalciferol just to be on the safe sideSorry my friend, sending some love your way.
Yeah lockdown has been awful for me too, especially at first. First the first few months I actually didn't go anywhere. Then my band started practicing again and I've been to some events, etc. I also caught covid at one recently but I'm kinda relieved now that I feel better, The state told me I can't get it again or transmit it (once Tuesday rolls around) for at least 3 months. If everyone got it like I had it, I'd say all this lockdown stuff totally isn't worth it, but since a lot of people get it much worse, and it is deadly for a not-insignificant percentage of vulnerable people, I maintain that these measures are necessary. But I'm sure we're all more than sick of it. It's not easy, that's for sure. And I say that as an American in a state where they've never enforced anything. I know it's much more severe in some other places.
I implored him slightly more as to his reasoning. He merely said that it was his go to in treating 'mental illness', it seems like he would prescribe it to anyone that had any minor psychological malady, he offered it before offering CBT too which I found odd.
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
I've yet to try it, I've added it to my eBay basket for later, what was your experience like with it? I have been using 30mg noopept alongside 300mg CDP choline and my mood has seemed to mellow out significantly, it appears to have quite clear antidepressive properties for me. My motivation is the highest it's ever been, and the combination with 50mg modafinil in the morning really aids in maintaining focus for prolonged periods of time. I won't ascribe all of these benefits solely to noopept as there are a few situational factors that have elevated my mood, but it seems to be helping. Have a few racetams on the side to try out over the coming exam period too!
Buzz Lightbeer
Bluelight Crew
Man, we can't leave the country, we get fined if we don't wear a mouthmask outside, in France people can't go outside after 6, 10/12pm here, you mentioned playing a party, if discovered you'd have to appear in front of a judge, a lot of people have no income anymore and the covid reliefs are hardly as significant. Got a fine myself on top of the drug offense after my AL-LAD trip. You can feel people are sick of it, and experts are postponing any conversation of somewhat less strict rules. Good fun...
Lol, solid reasoning, must instill a lot of confidence.
I get quite manic on it, for a while it was one of my favorite substances because it'd be incredibly euphoric with unrelenting natural energy and a full on bodyhigh.
I've read reports of others insisting it has changed their lives, it might be worth a shot.
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