TheAppleCore
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Hi Delsyd!
Competitive gaming can be such a rush. Also extremely frustrating.
Are you Global Elite?
For awhile I thought I wanted to get into the Hearthstone pro scene, because I did make it to Legend at one point, but I just don't have the motivation to put that many hours into a game.
From what I understand, some people are good enough at predicting match outcomes that they can consistently net profit from CS:GO gambling.
This post made me LOL. I've so been there, holing on a dissociative at inappropriate times and places. I try to look at the bright side. It's a learning experience. If you survived holing while having dinner with your mom, that's a notch on your psychonautical belt. :D Now it'll be easy street to handle yourself while tripping with buddies.
I can also relate to feeling naked without dissos. I feel like I've just barely finished shaking off my MXE addiction, and it's been years. *shudders*
Coming up on my first-ever dose of 1P-LSD on this Good Friday of 2016. Jesus would approve. I'll be very interested to judge how it compares to the black market L I've been getting. The effects of street acid I've been sold lately have varied so widely that it's starting to make me wonder whether it's real acid I'm getting or not. I should really invest in a test kit.
[Edit a few hours later] Well, it didn't disappoint. I got exactly what I wanted today -- a mind analyzing its analysis of an analytical mind. :D
I have played almost only FPS games my whole life, actually just one game: Counter-Strike. It's so competitive and after +10 000 hours I'm pretty fucking skilled in that but never made it to professional because I stopped playing so seriously when I was like 15-16 but I'm back to it at Counter-Strike: Global Offensive. There's huge money in that game nowadays, tournaments with million dollar prize pool. I don't really like singleplayer games or playing games casually, I need it to be competitive. Making it to the top takes all of your time tho so you need to sacrifice so much in life if you want to succeed.
Competitive gaming can be such a rush. Also extremely frustrating.

For awhile I thought I wanted to get into the Hearthstone pro scene, because I did make it to Legend at one point, but I just don't have the motivation to put that many hours into a game.
Some people go completely crazy by gambling skins on pro matches in CS:GO, that pro scene is completely crazy.
From what I understand, some people are good enough at predicting match outcomes that they can consistently net profit from CS:GO gambling.
took 40 mg of 3-MeO-PCP around 2:30 pm yesterday orally along with about 50 mg 2-fluoroketamine. Had a nice free afternoon and decided I wanted to hole. High doses are required for me now to get effect with this even though I space my doses out by a week or so. Not bragging, just require more than the average guy to get to where I want to go. Right around 6 pm it starts coming on strong and I get an unannounced visit from my mother who was nearby and decided to drop by. I'm handling myself ok at this point. She invites me out to dinner and I reluctantly accept. The effects continue to intensify until I'm practically holing while having dinner conversation. I had to confess I took something. An awkward conversation cause its difficult to explain what dissociatives are in general to someone who knows nothing about this stuff, never mind to your mom when holing in public. I think I handle myself well in spite of all this. Knew the menu well enough to order my food cause I couldn't read it and could sustain short bursts of small talk. Anyways, I'm taking that as a gentle enough wake up call that its time to stop. From all the stories I've heard, it starts to go downhill when stuff like that starts happening. I was kinda fooling myself into thinking that since I've been really straight edge lately with exercise, diet and life in general that the occasional dissociative binge wasn't affecting me. Kinda feel a bit naked moving forward without it. Doesn't help that I got all these dissociatives in stock in multiple gram quantities.
This post made me LOL. I've so been there, holing on a dissociative at inappropriate times and places. I try to look at the bright side. It's a learning experience. If you survived holing while having dinner with your mom, that's a notch on your psychonautical belt. :D Now it'll be easy street to handle yourself while tripping with buddies.
I can also relate to feeling naked without dissos. I feel like I've just barely finished shaking off my MXE addiction, and it's been years. *shudders*
Coming up on my first-ever dose of 1P-LSD on this Good Friday of 2016. Jesus would approve. I'll be very interested to judge how it compares to the black market L I've been getting. The effects of street acid I've been sold lately have varied so widely that it's starting to make me wonder whether it's real acid I'm getting or not. I should really invest in a test kit.
[Edit a few hours later] Well, it didn't disappoint. I got exactly what I wanted today -- a mind analyzing its analysis of an analytical mind. :D
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