Oh, wow, 3-meo-pcp is really something else... I cant even explain what Im feeling right know. I've been having a pretty rough year, everything I thought I could trust in is in question right now but today I just said 'Fuck it' and took some dissos and went to a rave... Which was awesome btw and now Im coming back home feeling preetty out of it but I've experienced true happyness for the first time in a very long time and right now I understand that this is the feeling that makes everything worth it. The connectedness, the realization that we are all humans and we are all struggling but we are all also doing our best to do our best... I know it's a though that rationally doesnt alllow itself to any concrete or productive praxis but emotionally, spiritually, it is so healing, makes so much sense, feels so important to keep in mind... I feel I've facing the void all my life but I choose existance, i choose joy, I choose optimism..!
Theres nothing to hold to but in all this cosmic chaos there is constant movement, and movement is energy, energy is power, power is joy!!!
Maybe the whole universe is just a chuckle in the void
I will choose to laugh along. I will choose to dance and cry and live...
Somehow I managed to isolate myself and now its 5 am and im walking alone but I choose to love myself... My love will heal me and aid me, love is such a powerful thing...