IM Ketamine a few hours ago. Went for the thigh in the end. First time trying Ketamine, and first time injecting anything. I wasn't nervous until the moment I pierced my muscle, then I felt a huge adrenaline rush even though I wasn't feeling any "psychological" anxiousness. Found that detail pretty funny. The needle didn't hurt at all but the solution going in did, a little bit. Onset wasn't as fast as I thought it would, I think it took five minutes or so. For a while I thought I wasn't going to hole, and was going to get stuck in a sub-hole uncomfortable space. But then I got carried to the other side.
The first thing I saw going into the hole was syringes, an infinite landscape of syringes piercing the void, plungers going up and down. For a while it made me have a silent, internal laughter, thinking about how ridiculous the image was, and it made me ask myself to what extent it represented a repressed apprehension. But then I got anxious for a second, worrying that my whole experience would be a repetition of the injection. The second I had that though the image changed, and I saw... micropippettes. Anonymous hands operating micropippetes. The WTF factor was high, but I think a that moment I wasn't really judging what I was seeing/experiencing. I remember darkness after that, and 'Psychic - Darkside' coming from the speakers. I remember being surprised about how clearheaded I felt, I was recalling some memories as if in sober consciousness, but in retrospective I think that was because I was coming in and out of the hole. I remember certain specific things getting me back to the room, like my SO coughing, who was by my side and had also injected ketamine into her thigh. I felt some apprehension but upon opening my eyes didn't understood much and went back into the void. Also the sound of a very loud motorcycle engine passing by my window kind of pushed me out of the hole. I wasn't holing too hard, it seems.
Another image I can remember more or less vividly is going through a dark tunnel, following a human silhouette that kept changing colors. Also the feeling of sitting in a train. I remember entering the Taj Mahal in the middle of the clouds, while my girlfriend asked me if I was alive. I think I moaned something.
The most beautiful feeling was just as I was coming out of the K-Hole, I think this song was playing:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BxuloVDZ3Eg&index=7&list=PLTNZF3CguEwwATOlrUuvxX14dYM3zjkga
And rather than listening to it, it was as if I was "feeling". Like a texture, or a presence, expanding through the room, filling the space with it's mass and it's aspect was like a wooden barroque altar, something like this, kind-of:
http://l7.alamy.com/zooms/aad98e0ff...-of-the-santa-maria-church-baroque-cr0ct0.jpg , and as it kept expanding I felt every part of it was kissing it's way through the air ... Hard to explain honestly, lol, sounds pretty non-sensical, but I was filled with a sacred serenity. Then I became too conscious of my surroundings to be able to loose myself into the void again, but felt disoriented for a while with some faint activity behind eyelids, kind of colorless CEV. I don't remember getting those with MXE. I was in the hole for maybe forty minutes or so, I remember that when the album was over I freaked out about how fast time had passed, I thought I would experience significant time-dilation but it all felt rather short.
My girl was kind of underwhelmed, and decided she's just not into dissociatives. She never liked holing on MXE either. Too internal of an experience. And I kind of get her point, it felt pointless doing drugs "Together" if we were going to end up so disconnected from reality. But it was a very special experience for me anyway, very confusing though. I found the hole had a lot less "content" than the holes I've explored using MXE, but it was interesting in that it felt more like dreaming.