DOC would definitely do the trick, and I think you someone who has some.

We should trip when we hike, I'd like to.
MGS - for me anyway, you have returned it more than you even know. I don't think I could have done this ibogaine thing without you. You talked to me about it for hours almost every night for like a month leading up and helped me plan and even offered yourself as a real-life contact in case of an emergency. For that, I consider you to be a good friend, I mean I was actually feeling a little guilty because I felt like I was so absorbed in my own stuff that I probably wasn't being as supportive of your stuff as I could/should. I love you man.
willow - The TR is definitely coming along, quite a lot to go though, just warning you it's going to be really, really long, like maybe the longest TR ever. But it's being crafted to be more of a short story, and also to convey as much info as possible since there is very little on home ibogaine flood doses for addiction.
And ibogaine is not scary at all, it feels totally natural, fear never even happened at 1%. I just took it for what it was, I was totally transported more completely than ever. Of course I was terrified going into it! It was definitely the most fucked up I have ever been, and for by FAR the longest time. A flood dose lasts a FULL 3 days before you can even be sure what you're experiencing is real. But the lower dose I took as a follow-up only made me trip for about 12 hours total.
Help - Come on man, don't bring insults in here. I hope you don't take this the wrong way, but I am going to remove the insult part, take it to PMs please.
Another fucking awesome morning, waking up at 7:30 and working out for an hour. I ran 2 miles at 8 mph first, it was hard for the last third of a mile but totally doable, and a notable improvement even since yesterday. Then I did a bunch of reps on various weight machines trying to get all of my arm, chest and back muscles, then I did some ab stuff, then I ran a mile on a steep elliptical and worked the fuck out of my legs, and then I did some more weight reps til I couldn't anymore and it was about an hour. I'm still feeling shaky but I have the most peaceful and happy mindset and the day feels extremely warm and bright (and as Delsyd said, the weather here has been gorgeous, as perfect as I can imagine).
I've got my first therapy/drug counseling session today at 5. I'm really excited about it.
