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[Thorns Have Roses]

^I had suspicions at that point, but I figured I was just being paranoid.

Man, I hope this ends up asymptomatic or minor enough to require medical intervention, I do not wanna have that conversation.

 

[Xorkoth]

What are the symptoms that can happen?

 

[Xorkoth]

Anyone with experience with the various APB/APDBs have an opinion on which is their favorite, and why? Thinking of including one of them in my next order... I may just go with 6-APB but mostly because I don't know much about the others. I had it once, but as Benzo Fury so who knows?

 

[Roger&Me]

^ aren't you prescribed adderall as well?

not anymore but i have a little stash left over from when i was. i don't take it regularly though, every once in a while

 

[Bill]

Addy is pretty smoove dewd
The first hour or so was kind of edgy and antsy but I took a few swigs of liquor after a while

Prolly shouldn't have took it at 8pm though, I feel stimulated and super focused
Music sounds awesome and I feel like I'm reading and processing faster, no jaw clenching or negative effects really
Don't feel cracked out or bad in anyway, I still know to have some landing gear in working order for later

I might grab a couple more tom just for whenever, this was the first time I've ever done any other stim besides cocaine

 

[Roger&Me]

lol yeah adderall is clutch as fuck br0

protip: you can take like .25-.5mg of kpin with your addy dose if u want to, and it will smooth it out and take away the jitters but at that dose the kpin doesn't really dampen the actual stimulation

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

For once, I'd rather not wait 'til the excrement hits the air conditioning to find out that I have a problem.

My hopes are laid down to rest with the Titanic. So it goes.

Having a large part of my sinuses bypassed while breathing feels profoundly wrong. I wish I could tell what portion of my feelings are physiological and which psychosomatic, and let's not forget the portions caused by being sleep deprived and hungover gettin' mixed in there, confounding me. In any case, I'm still succeeding at fighting off the panic attack my brain wants give me. I guess I'll make an appointment next week so my GP can check me out and see what the best thing to do is, I don't want an infection or whatever.

What are the symptoms that can happen?

Sorry, I've spent too much time reading about that and looking at pictures. That stuff is being pushed out of my mind until it is needed.

 

[Roger&Me]

sometimes when i get really high on stims (especially if i smoke too much weed on top of it) i will start thinking things are wrong with my body when they really aren't.... ear/nose/throat shit seems to be a common theme in my paranoia. maybe that's what is happening. i mean, i have no idea, i'm just saying shit like that happens to me sometimes.

 

[Bill]

Damn nkb, hope you'll be alright man

lol yeah adderall is clutch as fuck br0

protip: you can take like .25-.5mg of kpin with your addy dose if u want to, and it will smooth it out and take away the jitters but at that dose the kpin doesn't really dampen the actual stimulation

Hmm, I figured I wouldn't even feel the benzo until later
I'm not zinging but I feel wired and also calm at the same time, no jitters (maybe the tequila helped that) and just a bit clammy

Packing up some chron right now and it tastes delicious
Also I notice like with coke I can take ungodly huge hits

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

^It's not like it's that crazy, it's just unexpectedly early, and the idea of there being some kind of cavity eaten away inside of my face that I cannot see disturbs me a little (by a little, I mean a lot).

sometimes when i get really high on stims (especially if i smoke too much weed on top of it) i will start thinking things are wrong with my body when they really aren't.... ear/nose/throat shit seems to be a common theme in my paranoia. maybe that's what is happening. i mean, i have no idea, i'm just saying shit like that happens to me sometimes.

I've gotten that stuff. I suppose sensation of where airflow is goin' when I breathe is subject to placebo, here's some novel stuff:

Nasal whistling when I breathe, vapor/smoke leaking out of my nose involuntarily, the flappy nose plugging feeling that went away when I blew out that bloody non-mucousy looking snot, half-strength nasal suction, normally I don't get a massive drip as soon as the stuff hits the bridge of my nose area, Etc. Etc.

I'm not discounting the possibility that it's more psychosomatic than not, or that my speculative diagnosis is inaccurate. Panic-y feelings have jumbled my ability divide the development of my assumptions and my emotional state chronologically, unsure of mental soundness. Imma hit the sack.

 

[Folley]

Adderall is what got me into meth... it has a really light reputation but in reality it's quite a dirty amphetamine.

 

[psood0nym]

I'm not discounting the possibility that it's more psychosomatic than not, or that my speculative diagnosis is inaccurate. Panic-y feelings have jumbled my ability divide the development of my assumptions and my emotional state chronologically, unsure of mental soundness. Imma hit the sack.

At least go to a craft store and buy a tiny heavy bead and some string or something. Tie the bead to the string, snort it up there, and tilt your head to one side. Upload the video of yourself pulling the string through your suspected perforated septum -- in one nostril and out the other (with half your face showing and "Hi Bluelight" written on a post-it note stuck to your chin if you want to preserve anonymity). It's a simple experiment to crudely confirm or deny a pretty serious problem you think you may have (assuming it's a hole big enough to fit a bead through), that shows everybody it's a fact, not paranoia. If you can't do that, relax (you're welcome???). If you can do that, that's fucked up, and I wish you the best.

Otherwise, your problem is, as you've posted you suspect it might be, psychosomatic -- and it's to your credit that you've posted such a skeptical self-appraisal. If you think that's it, why do you imagine you suspect that and post about it here immediately before you go to bed? If indeed it's psychosomatic, I think you'll get to the root of your troubles more effectively by brutally answering that question than by any other means. I'm no psychologist (quite obviously). In the past I completed about 70% of the course work for a doctorate but it was clear to me I didn't have enough patience to survive the muster of any legitimate Western ethics board (quite obviously) (that and I was too much of an incurable generalist to survive in an academic world that demands to know where exactly the money's headed long ahead of time, or so I imagined).

 

[pharmakos]

nkb, perhaps the meth is exacerbating seasonal allergies? i have some of those symptoms right now, and i haven't been snorting anything.

 

[amanitadine]

Hopefully you are sleeping now, and wake up feeling sound....but I would be quite surprised if you had such an issue given your age, length of use, etc. Sure, it can happen, and the susceptibility to such varies wildly, but usually it takes years and years of serious hoovering to deviate a septum. Best of luck NKB

 

[SONN]

just dropped 50mg AMT and its a beautiful day out. CHEERS PD I LOVE YEW ALLLLLL. I will report back with more zealous intrigue and excitement for life later!!!

 

[Xorkoth]

Enjoy your AMT! God I used to love AMT, I abused the shit out of it though and a couple,of years after that I received a few doses as a birthday present from samadhi_smiles, and I noticed each time I tried it I felt almost feverish and had a raging headache. I attributed it to my brain chemistry changing s a result of excessive AMT abuse. I wonder if it would work for me again now that it's been another 3-4 years after that?

Gonna go to the art market again tonight, last night I made $110, hopefully tonight will be even better.

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

^That's the spirit, if at first you don't succeed....good luck with art-for-cash thing.

Hopefully you are sleeping now, and wake up feeling sound

I did neither of those things, called in sick, have since regained composure. Feel like garbage, but hey, it's been a long time since I've had a sober day 3 awake. Not sure why I couldn't sleep last night or this afternoon, but the third time's the charm, as they say.

years and years of serious hoovering to deviate a septum

Usually, but it may be plausible given previous exposure to



That hurt for few days. And it happened more than once.



Maybe it's not surprising that crises are the source of most alterations to my behavioral patterns. I'm always prepared to do the right thing, after I've tried everything else. %)8)

DIY diagnostics

You're really grossing me out dude. Moving away from my preemptive self-diagnosis, I see that it could be something as simple as inflammation. There's definitely something going on up there, and I will have it medically evaluated.

In any case, my decision to give up on that ROA still stands. Maybe I'll decide to go for something futuristic like P.O. aided by measuring equipment, to approximate therapeutic (i.e. benign) use.

why do you imagine you suspect that and post about it here immediately before you go to bed

Possibly a combo of intellectualization, keeping track of what was happening (in writing), and a desire for sympathy/acknowledgment of my experiences? I'm not that complicated a fellow.

Surprise medical problems, that I cannot see or do anything about acutely, are my sanity's kryptonite.

 

[Xorkoth]

Hey PD peeps! So I had another good night at the market, made a total of $230 extra this weekend, feels good man. I was hungry on the way home so, emboldened by my success, I picked up a Baconator burger from Wendy's. I just took a big rip of some sexy nugs, and now to eat my delicious, calorie-laden meat sandwich.

EDIT: *drool* so good...

 

[coelophysis]

Good job Xorky, I'd feel on top of the world after a day like that as well.
Enjoy that cow.

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

Smell has to be our least beautiful sense. I started smelling things after a nap, it occurred to me that there are more unpleasant scents out there than pleasant ones. I mean, there are some nice ones, and there's that smell/memory connection, which I suppose makes for half the pleasant smells being acquired tastes (lol) due to positive associations. Human olfaction seems primarily geared towards detecting unhygienic stuff to avoid. Second lamest sense is taste.

Touch is kinda a survival necessity, but I do sometimes ponder whether I should prefer to lose my sight or my hearing. Losing the ability to navigate would be crippling, but deafness would be so lonely and alienating. Could I choose to never again see a flower, or never hear another song? I mean, as someone who communicates primarily through the internet, and spends more time reading than anything else, loss of sight would destroy my lifestyle (especially given the large amounts of solitude I demand). However, the idea of absolute silence produces a visceral horror that I cannot explain in terms of practical impact upon my life, which would be minimal. I guess I imagine blindness as agoraphobic vulnerability, and deafness as claustrophobic smothering.