Well I can conclude that LSD is and was everything I expected and so much more. I'm eternally and unfathomably grateful for the wonderfully kind soul who sent me the acid at no cost, and only hope I can think of a reasonable present to send him in return :D
It's been a beautiful day. LSD took my perception beyond 3D and into a more "4D" if you may call it space akin to DMT experiences, only I had full control and could move out of it at my own control. One moment I could be floating in 4D space with tendrils of energy and light pulsating through my being and the next I could be downstairs conversing freely with my parents and having a lovely nice dinner and going about my day to day life.
I'm not sure if I've written my intentions here before, but I've experimented with drugs for a while now, and quite a lot. I've gained much, lessons, insights, and just fantastic memories and experiences - but it's come to a time when I let the use of drugs become more of an obsession than my useful interests in drugs (i.e. helping harm reduction, writing about them, learning about them).
As I'm sure you've all noticed I've become distant from these forums, been a lousy moderator at best and spent much more time off on my own getting high and tending to my own pleasures than caring to help others as of late, and over the past few weeks I've been thinking more about my family, friends, and love, and these things have driven me to the decision I need a break at the very least.
I want to continue researching and helping in HR and drug-related areas of work, but as for my own consumption, I think after the start of 2014 I plan to give it a break for a bit until I've had some time to clear my head and enjoy life sober.
I think LSD was the icing on the cake as something I've wanted to try for so long and it helped solidify for me that my decision is the right one and that drugs have been something wonderful - but something I can soon put aside until it comes the time that I feel they're appropriate again.
More accurately, I hope post-break to return to a state where I'll have my couple drinks at the weekend, have the odd spliff, have that fantastic trip at the summer festival, and the new years eve roll, maybe even the occasional brew of PST or whatever, but it's time for my daily live to not revolve around consuming drug after drug in an almost sick fashion.
I really love the lot of you in PD and feel very apologetic for the fact I've sort of neglected the community here (along with drug studies) due to my own selfish behaviour, and hope that these changes coming can bring me back to a more grounded individual - and also allow me to enjoy spending time back here and actually not neglecting my duties as a mod
Love the lot of you, really do.
Many of you I may have never said a word to directly and yet you've changed my lives in such ways you don't even realise - Sepher for one is someone who quite frankly.. without his help I wouldn't be where I am today and I can say in a round-about way he saved my life - through just a couple of tiny actions that barely involved much. Though I unfortunately don't have the chance to thank him for it now. I'm sure if he's looking down there somewhere he's having a good giggle at my post though for sure.
I'm probably blabbering on at this point but I just felt I had to say what was on my mind, and want to share a little of the positivity that's touched my life right now with you all.
Oh, and, moderator's orders - you're all to do at least one act of kindness even if it's just a smile to a stranger tomorrow, or I'll come after the lot o' ya!
