I'm having an extremely weird trip right now.
I'm on somewhere between 50 and 100mg of aMT, which I've never been able to take in the past without letting it really influence how I feel and stuff. I mean like I don't know, I always felt like if the trip got difficult there was absolutely nothing to do but ride it out, spend a few hours in horrible terrorised agony until it ended. But that's actually not true at all :D for instance okay. I saw World War Z last night and the zombies really freaked me out even while sober. I was planning on tripping tonight and I remember during the movie just thinking like okay, these zombies are gonna appear in your trip tomorrow. And they have, I mean they're sitting right next to me, but it's fine :D it's pretty fucking icnredible. I can choose to feel like there's a murderous zombie at my door or I can choose to feel like there isn't. Or I can choose to feel like there is but I can live with it. I mean I am in
complete control. Even of what I'm seeing, which is pretty insane. Like okay, I closed my eyes earlier. The CEVs started out awesome with the typical swirly colours, and then I thought of the film and without having a precise image in mind, my prevalent emotion was fear and so all sorts of scary images popped up before my eyes. But then I could think of happier things and they would get nice again.
Same with the stuff I'm seeing with my eyes open tbh. I mean I'm just in total control of this world. I've been having a lot of very intense, very difficult trips lately and tonight I just wanted it to be about fun. No intense, deep thoughts, just happiness. So that's what I'll make it into. Tell the zombies to just fuck off and I'll simply have fun.
Pretty cool to feel like your own little god I must say
