MGS, you have my complete and utter support and love
I had such a beautiful trip this last weekend, mescaline and DMT many times over. I saw all sensory input happening so slowly I could almost out race it and modify it before it even tickled my neurons.
I also realised that the conglomeration of sensory input is the data we use to construct our (apparently) illusory self and just felt into some deep deep euphoria whilst having a shower, realsising that I did not matter at all. I could embrace life and death so easily... Isn't it amazing when you are in a situation and you realise is the exactly correct and perfect moment and that there can be no other, and you just stop resisting and just tremble with delight? :D Well, that hardly ever happens for me, and it did, it was like being in a pool of pure light and completely atheistic, entheogenic bliss

Despite it being a delusory as every experience I and everyone has, it was valuable and memorable...
I was amazed that at work today I almost sought out conflict in the hope of being able to make somethinganything better! The utter narcissism and solipsistic abhorrence of that almost scared me, but I am contending with a deepening understanding of the inherent lack of reality in reality at the moment. Must keep the pretend hat of the world on my head for now...
