☮ Social ☮ PD Social Thread: Trans-dimensional Hyperspace Cocktail Bar - Fractals Apply Within

[swilow]

Hey Xorkoth my dear . Great to hear from you- sad to hear that you have been troubled- but from darkness comes light I think cessation of drugs has had to have been a very positive thing for you despite the gains you made taking them. There is a whole lot more to life then getting high. Though getting high can, at times, really increase the amazingness of existing inside an apparent vacuum, with matter and energy and sub-atomic particles colliding and stars fucking shining on down (or up or whatever).

I dug your art too Xorkoth. I see some Van Gogh, Pollock and hyper-cosmos in it.

FWIW, I now entertain a very sparse pharmacopeia of occasional codeine use, tri-weekly cannabis use and perhaps 6 trips per solar rotation. Ayahuasca and mushrooms and AMT are friends to me.

It amazes me that I used to be so addicted to so many things- I feel like prolonged benzo withdrawal utterly fried my brain and simulated nearly every known mental illness; I cringe if I ever re-read some of the bizarre stuff I had written in the midst of that time. I wouldn't go back for the world and even then wouldn't.

lol wow, i left for a while and now there's like 5 pages of posts to read :D so glad to see all these old-timers back. i honestly wasn't sure if i'd ever hear from xork again

i have to say i'm feeling overall pretty optimistic about things in general lately, there seems to be synchronicities afoot.

I completely agree on all counts. There does feel like a huge potential is opening up in the universe, or at least my part of it. I'm working at a beautiful old library in my hometown after completing the relevant degree and feel satisfied that my personal-apocalypse has been avoided for now. I still look forward to it but hopefully we meet again when I'm older and willing.

Blah.

Anyhow- going to smoke a little spliff watch True Detective.

Is mundanity a neologism, because its my favourite?

 

[somnilicious]

^ that's what it is. It seems so obvious now, but I couldn't put my finger on it. It's that constant, unbreaking, superficial sarcasm that got under my skin.

Nice stuff Laika. Very intricate and complex, I can see that taking a lot of work.

Yeah... that's what they seem to be all about in the lounge........ Oh, wow it is late as hell. I think I am getting addicted to this sight and letting it interfere with my life Well time to go to bed before I get myself in to deep.

 

[Delsyd]

Im just starting to learn to play guitar. Xorkoth told me about these free online college classes on coursera.com and i saw they had an intro to guitar course there so i signed up and have been learning guitar for the past month.

 

[Roger&Me]

badass bro :D maybe we'll be able to jam some day

if you're wanting to learn any dead stuff, make sure to check out jdarks.com... that guy has just about the whole repertoire tabbed out, and he has youtube videos explaining most of the songs too. its been a great resource for me over the last few weeks

i've gotta say that music was one of the things that was missing in my life, i've been so much happier since i've been playing guitar again

 

[swilow]

^Playing guitar just has to be so much more positive then smoking a cig when you have time on your hands...

 

[Delsyd]

willow is here too

this mxe is making me feel like im sitting in a room with all you guys

 

[swilow]

And I just love this song:

 

[Roger&Me]

badass song willow

i think george harrison was the most talented beatle. his solo work after the group broke up was better than any of the other guys' solo stuff imho

 

[swilow]

^Hmm. I love John Lennon myself, but you are probably correct for post-beatle goodness residing predominantly within George Harrison.. Though I really admire John, I love his thin little nose and everything.

willow is here too

this mxe is making me feel like im sitting in a room with all you guys

On the scale of the universe, sharing a planet is basically sharing shoes...



Aha, I hear my dinner calling me!

 

[Roger&Me]

lennon was extremely talented too. imagine was a great tune.

the jerry garcia band did a beautiful cover of that song, jerry totally dissects the song and riffs on it like crazy, and pays homage to its incredible complexity. just a heavenly tune.

 

[Delsyd]

Well this was a beautiful day in PD land. I love all of you guys. good night.

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

paintings

Gotta put my pretentious dilettante hat on before I comment and critique (note: I really did put on a hat right now). Alrighty then:

Hope - Definitely my favorite of the bunch. The composition and color, brushwork...it's a fantastic piece. I could spend 10 minutes straight looking at it, and probably will.

Dark Hill - You've got a lot of interesting stuff in this one, it feels really windy/stormy, and the colors make me think of Van Gogh in his more expressionist moments. However, your impasto didn't come off that well compared to Hope, and overall the work seems unhoned. Consider revisiting it at some point, I feel like you could pull something top-notch out of it yet.

Down Below - Ohmygosh those textures. The background would have stood up on its own, yet you decided to put it in jarring juxtaposition with the foreground tentacles. Contemporary, full of youthful poignancy, I could easily see it hanging up on a gallery wall.

Scramble & Sunset Smear - Look almost like they were done on a computer (not in a bad way), interesting. Kinda abstract expressionist, but more deliberate.

Blue Hole - A study? You seem to have a good command of color.

I can't describe to you the horrific nature of 2013

Things fell apart for me that year, I don't feel like talking about it right now.

I hate having to go to bed, I'm like a kid in that way

I'm like this too. I actually like being up in the morning, but no, I put off going to bed so long I wake up at brunch time.


Jeez, there's been an entire page of posts since I started this one. I take being opinionated way too seriously. Here's a bedtime tune for y'all.

 

[Morninggloryseed]

I love IMs. My IM is morninggloryseed on AIM. Anyone should feel free to IM me whenever the mood strikes. We can talk about stuff.

 

[Roger&Me]

I can't describe to you the horrific nature of 2013

Things fell apart for me that year, I don't feel like talking about it right now.

2013 was a terrible, shit year for me too. broke up with the girl i'd been with for 7 years. felt totally out of touch with the light, emotionally dead, cynical, uncaring. i drank way too much and i felt like there was no meaning in anything. i just wanted to die. physically, i look like i aged about 6 years in the last 14 months.

but i'm totally ready to be happy again, i can actually feel things changing for the better. i'm really hoping this trend continues. i don't ever want to go back to that dark place again.

 

[Just A Guy]

On the scale of the universe, sharing a planet is basically sharing shoes...

Great line!

 

[pharmakos]

am i having a flashback or is xorkoth actually posting again? =p

welcome back man

 

[Xorkoth]

jinx

Damn man, that keeps happening

 

[Xorkoth]

2013 was a terrible, shit year for me too. broke up with the girl i'd been with for 7 years. felt totally out of touch with the light, emotionally dead, cynical, uncaring. i drank way too much and i felt like there was no meaning in anything. i just wanted to die. physically, i look like i aged about 6 years in the last 14 months.

but i'm totally ready to be happy again, i can actually feel things changing for the better. i'm really hoping this trend continues. i don't ever want to go back to that dark place again.

Yeah I feel like I look older rapidly too. And I feel older, I really do. Like, holy shit, how did I get to be 30? I wasn't feeling like 30 years old at all anywhere leading up to it, or even after I turned it (in June). But now I realize, I do feel that old.

It's so incredibly painful to separate from someone you've been with for a long time. I had the advantage (weird to think of it that way because it hurt too) of her telling a friend she had feelings for him, it made it quite clear to me that I should end it, in fact it was THE kick I needed, for at least a year before that I was battling inside myself, I knew deep down it needed to end but I am not sure I would have gotten there had that not happened.

It was actually Delsyd she said it to, even though we both think it was really about something else. I kinda think she knew we should end too and she was too afraid like I was to do it outright so she did something that would make it happen that we couldn't go back from.

I think this world is getting far to rampant with mental illness, I don't even know anymore, we feed our children amphs, anti-psychotics, anti-depressants, yet it's illegal to smoke a flower. I think humans have seriously lost the plot....like big time. If I was an alien race overlooking our progress, at this point I think I might well be reaching for the abort button..... Were dirty war mongers who are more interested in building our lives entirely on false things, then forcing those beliefs upon every other human, and if they don't comply, we drug them, or lock them up until they do. Avarice is so free flowing too..... I halfway think were nearly completely lost as a race and would be better off, off this planet, extinct before we simply destroy it, and end up ruining it for every other species. I think its saying something when you can truly say in this day and age that spiders,and bees live a more important life than something with six billion times the intelligence.

We've lost the plot big-time, as a world culture I think we're literally insane. Like we're lost in a terrible, bad trip. Certain people in the world realize this, and certain cultures, but the greatest power in the world is also the most far gone. I fear for the future. It's hard for me to be hopeful, but I keep trying because what do we have if not hope? I do believe something can be done, but it's easy to infer that perhaps we're too late...

 

[Xorkoth]

am i having a flashback or is xorkoth actually posting again? =p

welcome back man

No flashback, I'm here! Thanks.

Or wait, is this a flashback? UmmmmmmmmfhaadNBAGG...... *crackle crackle pop sssssssssssssssssssssssssssss....*

lol wow, i left for a while and now there's like 5 pages of posts to read :D so glad to see all these old-timers back. i honestly wasn't sure if i'd ever hear from xork again

i have to say i'm feeling overall pretty optimistic about things in general lately, there seems to be synchronicities afoot.

so anyway i just played guitar for almost 9 hours pretty much without a break. man, i don't know wtf was wrong with me, i have no idea why i stopped playing for so long. i vaguely remember it being when i was on benzos, and i kinda just lost interest in everything. but man, i'm getting my shit back together. i've been re-learning all the modes, scales, arpeggios, etc and its coming back to me pretty quickly.

i was on an intense trip all day (i wasn't on any drugs but i was still tripping the fuck out, lol). i had this C mixolydian jam track on in a loop and i was totally lost in the most intense modal jam... discovering all sorts of secret little pathways through this labyrinthine maze of notes, finding all these weird little hidden melodies that overlap and converge with other weird little hidden melodies, and you can overlap them in numerous different ways and alter their cadence with respect to the music, etc... there's almost an unimaginable amount of other ways to introduce melodic variations. its fucking intense.

there's a whole universe hidden inside of that fretboard, man.... and its impossibly delicate and complex. you hit one wrong note and it shatters the whole universe you're creating. but when you get totally into the flow of it, its like the music starts playing you, and your fingers just dance to all the right notes, and suddenly you're effortlessly exploring this infinite space. for a while i was full synesthesia, all my senses were the music. i was floating in that otherworld place, like where you go when you smoke DMT but without the funhouse imagery, its like my mind is normally a cube but inside of that space it becomes a tesseract or some kind of super high dimensional hypercube, morphing and grinding with the temporal progression of dimensions i didn't even know existed.

i dunno man, maybe its just the afterglow from sunday's acid :D but fuck, you can get really high off of music if you're doin' it right

Hey man, really glad I stopped in, it reminded me of what I get from here and how good it makes me feel to put my thoughts out there. Today I woke up feeling pretty good for the first time in a long time.

As for music, yes, music is perhaps the ultimate trip, it's such a powerful, root-level force in the universe. I had an experience on MXE a couple of weeks ago where I listened to music and went pretty far out and I became the music, it had shape and meaning, it was perhaps the most intensely I've ever experienced music, or at least tied. I grew up playing music, piano and percussion. I sing all the time, I sing along with my own parts to music that's playing and people really respond to it. I have been increasingly thinking I really, really want to learn to play the guitar so I can get it out on an instrument. I actually had signed up for a free online guitar beginner's course in July but then right when it was starting I broke my hand by punching the refrigerator (due to the intense stuff going on... it was a low point for me for sure). It's all healed and strong again now but I haven't gone back to pursuing it yet, I've got to do that.

 

[Xorkoth]

Never Knows Best: thanks for the comments about my art, glad you like it. Hope is a special piece I feel. A lot of people like Dark Hill better though, it's often the piece I get comments on when people are briefly walking by my market table. You mentioned brush work, I actually never use a brush, I use a putty knife or a pin (for the marbling) or other objects sometimes to stamp shapes.

Hey Xorkoth my dear . Great to hear from you- sad to hear that you have been troubled- but from darkness comes light I think cessation of drugs has had to have been a very positive thing for you despite the gains you made taking them. There is a whole lot more to life then getting high. Though getting high can, at times, really increase the amazingness of existing inside an apparent vacuum, with matter and energy and sub-atomic particles colliding and stars fucking shining on down (or up or whatever).

I dug your art too Xorkoth. I see some Van Gogh, Pollock and hyper-cosmos in it.

FWIW, I now entertain a very sparse pharmacopeia of occasional codeine use, tri-weekly cannabis use and perhaps 6 trips per solar rotation. Ayahuasca and mushrooms and AMT are friends to me.

It amazes me that I used to be so addicted to so many things- I feel like prolonged benzo withdrawal utterly fried my brain and simulated nearly every known mental illness; I cringe if I ever re-read some of the bizarre stuff I had written in the midst of that time. I wouldn't go back for the world and even then wouldn't.



I completely agree on all counts. There does feel like a huge potential is opening up in the universe, or at least my part of it. I'm working at a beautiful old library in my hometown after completing the relevant degree and feel satisfied that my personal-apocalypse has been avoided for now. I still look forward to it but hopefully we meet again when I'm older and willing.

Blah.

Anyhow- going to smoke a little spliff watch True Detective.

Is mundanity a neologism, because its my favourite?

Willow! I was hoping you'd stop in. I think about you periodically. I'm really glad to hear you seem to be doing so well... great news.

On another note, it's really weird that you mentioned True Detective, because the IT manager at my work yesterday mentioned that someone was going to get in a bit of trouble for watching "some true detective show" through an illegitimate site while connected to the company intranet. Well, I often watch episodes through illegitimate sites, though I usually remember to disconnect from the intranet, but occasionally I forget, and I've been freaking out a little. I wasn't sure if there was a show called True Detective or if he meant some sort of detective-related show, of which I watch several (but not True Detective, never seen it). So your mentioning it has proven to me there is a show called True Detective and it's someone else they're after.