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Thorns Have Roses said:
I admire your psox sized dosing skills. If I took amp, the only thing I'd end up doing is taking more amp.
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well, there was only 15mg there and a bud and i split it. i'm pretty good about low dosing / non compulsive dosing with stimulants, tho. i ended up regretting even that 7.5mg when i couldn't fall asleep even come sunrise.

pretty much the only stuff i have a problem with using too much of is dissociatives.... and i'm even getting better with that.
 
Hey dstr, I'm good, thanks, hope you had a good vacation. :)

I ended up having an epic night last night. Didn't really expect anything in particular to happen, expected an early night actually... but went over to hang out with a friend at around 6pm, we had epic conversations for like 4-5 hours and then went to hang out with our other friend downstairs... a friend of his came over who is into psychedelics/RCs and who had a nice collection, and a trade was made and lots of fun drug geek talk. Then we decided to do some MXE, and then at like 1am a bit of MDMA came out... I had 70mg, and 2 finger dabs a couple of hours later. Turns out, MDMA + MXE is like possibly the best MDMA combo ever, I liked it so much more than I liked LSD + MDMA. Generally when I take MDMA these days, 70mg wouldn't be enough to get much of anywhere and if I take more, it kinda floors me, makes me fuzzy, sometimes even sleepy. I haven't had a proper MDMA roll since I was probably 19 or 20, it just doesn't seem to give me that euphoria rush anymore like it used to. Well, somehow 70mg of MDMA + 50mg of MXE was amazing. I felt SO GOOD, 100% loving, social, tactile, and still with the MXE aspect too. It was like the MXE filled in all the gaps that MDMA stopped filling for me and turned it into a fucking awesome drug again. I might not even want to take MDMA again without MXE, it was really an amazing combo, and with pretty low doses too. We listened to some jams that my friends had recorded and there were some amazing, beautiful moments. The combo made music absolutely heavenly and very easy and fun to take apart and/or get swept up in. And then they told me they want me to play/perform with them, on secondary percussion like a hand drum, and voice. Which is a big honor for me and really exciting. Then we listened/talked about music conceptually for hours.

For the past couple of years I have been increasingly feeling like it's necessary for me to start playing music again, and specifically to jam and perform. And specifically to learn to play the guitar. I feel like I have amazing music in my head and that it needs to be shared, that possibly it's even the most significant thing I have to share. And the guitar is the best instrument for it I think. But something has been stopping me from really getting into it or doing the work to get there. I think this is going to be the thing that makes the difference. If I'm playing music at all with people then I think it will happen, I just have to break the initial resistance. My friend gave me a guitar lesson from like 5am to 7am and said I did really well.

Of course then I just slept from 7:30 to 10:30. And had a good number of beers throughout the night too. So now I'm pretty exhausted. The girl I'm into possibly still wants to go to a waterfall with me and this other girl I met Friday wants to hike with me too... not sure how I'm gonna proceed. I think if the girl I'm into wants to go I'm gonna have some caffeine and go. If not I might stay home and sleep... the other girl is nice and I'd like to get to know her more but I'm not totally attracted to her... it's the upper gums/mouth thing, feels kinda shallow to say so but I realized I really have to be attracted to your face. And it might be that I'd rather sleep than go hiking with her. 8)
 
hahahaha sounds like you had a good one buddy :) nothing wrong with not being attracted to someone, it's not shallow at all. If she's got a great personality then just go for a friendship perhaps....but really I agree completely and it's not shallow (well if it is, I'm shallow as fuck lol). You like what you like, and that's that.

My weekend down the coast with the girlfriend for her birthday was great! Ended up getting to the holiday park at about 7:00pm...so as soon as we got our stuff unpacked we went straight to the shops to get nibbles, then straight back to the cabin to prepare for the evening :) downed our first caps at ~8:15pm with a planned redose roughly 1.5hrs after the first. She was beginning feel the come up only half an hour later, but even though we both had empty stomachs I didn't begin to feel anything until +1hr haha....and it hit pretty hard too lol, good thing I kinda like harsh come ups. For some odd reason I can't remember a LOT of events through the night, even though my dose was the same as when I go out clubbing, and I remember just about everything those nights o.O ah well, some good constructive conversation was had through the night, along with plenty of random activities (shower + darkness + glowsticks = pretty hahahaha). Thoroughly enjoyed :)
 
Waaiit a minute, I seem to be volatile lately, and I am combining SJW and serotonergics....it occurs to me that I tried to off myself while doing that previously. Throwing that shit out right now. I have been taking events that bother me slightly, then cherry picking instances prejudicial to myself, and snowballing it into "everything is horrible forever scenarios" that are less than half true. Some stuff I wrote last night in a notebook clued me into this, as it was unambiguously insane.

xork said:
For the past couple of years I have been increasingly feeling like it's necessary for me to start playing music again, and specifically to jam and perform.
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It can only be good for you, dude. Go for it, as it seems you are.




P.S. On child labor in US Tobacco farms. Consider buying from Phillip Morris, smokers, so as not to support this practice.
 
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P.S. On child labor in US Tobacco farms. Consider buying from Phillip Morris, smokers, so as not to support this practice.[/QUOTE]

Wow, that's fucked up. Thanks for sharing that. Something needs to be done about that. How can it be legal for 12 year olds to work 12 hour shifts in a tobacco field, but they aren't allowed to get a job bagging groceries in a grocery store until they're at least 15.. And even then they still can't work more than like 16 hours a week during the school year (at least in my state that's how it is. I don't know about elsewhere).
 
So... unexpectedly great day yesterday. The girl I just met once on Friday wanted to hike with me, and I was going to cancel if the other girl ended up calling. But she didn't. Since I got 3 hours of sleep after doing MXE + MDMA on Friday, I almost just cancelled anyway and slept. But instead I had some caffeine and decided to go. Really glad I did. :) We met up and did an awesome hike, probably for a full 4 hours. We talked about all sorts of things, I told her all about my past year, my past relationship, opiates, ibogaine, etc. She knew what ibogaine was and was excited to hear the whole story. She told me all about herself too. We talked about psychedelics in general too although she hasn't had a breakthrough experience yet.

Then we finished the hike and sat around talking until it got dark, at which point she invited me to the place she lives for dinner. She lives on this farm where people either work there for pay (like her) or come through and work for room and board. It's in a super beautiful area I haven't been to before, like 45 minutes from me. It was SUCH a fun night, everyone there (like 15 people) was super cool and we all just played instruments, talked, drank some beers, ate some pasta someone made, etc. There was this one girl who was really talented at guitar/singing and we all sort of played with her... I was singing and playing some hand drums. Oh and when I first got there we were all jamming to the Beatles, everyone was singing or drumming or something, it was so fun. :)

I could tell the girl I went hiking with is into me... but we were both being kinda shy. Eventually we started sitting really close and doing some leaning type of stuff, gradually becoming intertwined. It started getting late (probably after midnight but there were no clocks) and unexpectedly (for me) she said to me "want to go to bed?" Well... yeah I do. :D So my 16-month dry spell is officially over. Didn't actually get to bed for quite a while after that though, I'm running on some serious lack of sleep today. She sleeps in a large raised tent outside, and it was super comfy. Plus she likes to snuggle and that worked out really well, I really missed snuggling with someone all night. My ex didn't like to snuggle with me much the last couple of years. :\

I know I said a couple of days ago that I'm not 100% attracted to her but the more time I spent with her the more I just was. And she has a nice little body. :) She's moving out of there and leaving to travel out west for some time (6 months or so I think) in 2 weeks, so it's really just a friends with benefits sort of thing which is awesome. We're definitely gonna hang out more before she heads out.

So yeah, my day could have been boring as shit yesterday but instead it was great. :) Glad I made the right call.
 
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thats awesome xorkoth. of the girls you've mentioned recently this one sounds like she's got the best personality. and from a nice personality attraction can come with time. good stuff.
 
*high five*

Yeah TNW, I really like her personality. Really easy to hang out with, really nice, nothing complicated (emotionally) going on here (she is very smart and thoughtful though). I'm already attracted to her, really it just took spending some time with her. That and she wore tighter clothes yesterday which revealed some sexiness that I didn't notice before. Which was even better naked. :) Actually she's hotter than I expected, always a bonus. Also she's a really good snuggler, for real. I liked that about as much as anything else because I love snuggling. I woke up in the exact same position, all intertwined. Super comfy night, great sleep even though it was on a thin pad on a wood platform out in the chilly mountain air (the tent is open so we were basically sleeping outside, so badass).

She's leaving for a long time pretty soon so nothing is going to come of it, but neither of us is really looking for that. I mean I want that in general but I would prefer to be unattached and just doing this sort of thing, with people I care about but not trying to be in love with, you know? I mean who knows sometime in the future but I'm not thinking about it that way. I think we're just trying to have some fun with a cool person that we like to hang out with and that's how we feel about each other. This is the first time I've been single as an adult, I think I should work with that for a good while, it's been doing me good so far. I just, like, needed to have sex with someone, you know? Cuz that's something people need. And this was the barrier I needed to break through, to do it with someone who isn't my ex. I thought it might be weird but it wasn't weird at all and now I can be confident about that.
 
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Ouch man. I thought 16 months was bad (it was). Wishing lots of sex for your near future. :)

That's how I felt too, I almost forgot what it was actually like. But as a good friend told me a little while back, it's like riding a bike. :)
 
Yeah things just keep looking up man, life is on such an upswing for me right now I can hardly believe it. :) 2014 started out bad but hopeful. 2013 was the worst year of my life. But since early 2014 I hardly even feel like the same person. It feels like it's been 2 years but it's been less than 7 months, SO MUCH has happened in my life this year. Life is a muthafucking trip.
 
Amen to that brother. Feeling much the same way about this year myself, only for me it's because of the girl I've found :) though it's sounding like you're well on your way to finding that same thing yourself; that is if you haven't just stumbled upon it (her :P) now

In other news, I'm not too sure what I plan to do with my remaining AL-LAD blotters. I've almost decided to just conclude I have some sort of allergic reaction to ergoloids or something, given all but one of my 4 or so "LSD" experiences along with this AL-LAD experience resulted in the same mass of negative side effects with minimal desired effects.....thus I am seeing if 4-HO-MET is what I'm after hahaha....haven't gone wrong with tryptamines yet :)
 
You could give them to me. =D

I doubt I found the girl for me to be with, just a good one to have good, nice times with for a little while... I don't even want that right now actually, I have only been single this one time as an adult. I suppose who knows in the future. I guess that's why it's the future, because you can't know until it happens. :)

I mean I could see us continuing to hang out and something developing, except that she's leaving for quite a period of time soon, and she's a traveling type anyway, and I'm kinda rooted here because of my job and house. She is from around here though so it's not like a random place for her.

Seriously though, this year just keeps getting better and better, it's hard to believe how amazing this summer has been. And it looks like I'm going to a psytrance festival this weekend, a much smaller local one, with our friend samadhi_smiles. Which is sure to be amazing. :)
 
I wish I knew someone who's experienced AL-LAD so I could give them a tab or two to see what effects they get from it...haha
 
Yeah I haven't experienced it so I couldn't be of help there... I just want to experience it. I never got many effects from LSD either until I took 5 hits (2 confirmed around 115ug, and 3 that were probably half that strength). I suspect I will need at least 2 if not 3 AL-LAD blotters to get a good trip going too... I seem to have a high natural lysergamide tolerance but to be fair I have only experience LSD (and LSA a little bit but not extensively or conclusively).
 
I would go for it and dose 600ug to see what happens, but I'm afraid of the side effect response curve :( blahhh hahahaha
 
Okay so sleep deprivation is finally catching up to me... I don't even feel sleepy, I just feel a little unbalanced, like I keep feeling a little sad but I have no reason to at all. Looks like it's gonna be an early night. 7-8 hours of sleep over 3 days (Saturday through now) along with lots of physical activity isn't enough.
 
The girlfriend just expressed her interest in trying psychedelics :D this actually makes me excited haha...I introduced her to MDMA, which has been such a great thing to share so far...so the idea of tripping with her is mad :)

I would've gone with mushrooms for her first time, as is widely agreed, though unfortunately timing isn't great as we just came into spring :( though I'll hopefully be able to get some 4-HO-MET very soon, does anyone agree that this would be equally suitable particularly for the facts that we can dose accurately and from what I'm reaching it's very similar to psilocin anyway?
 
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