Thorns Have Roses
Bluelight Crew
^Thank you, of my collection of photos, I got rid of all but those three. I notice the trend of binary light/dark between them, I wonder if that means something...
☮ Social ☮ PD Social Thread: N-Dimensional Funhouse of Possibilities
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Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
I finally feel back to normal today. My energy levels are still a little low, I can tell because I went to the gym and after 9 minutes on the elliptical I was as tired as I usually am after 15 to 20. But I feel steady again, and no longer feel like everything is weird in comparison to the festival. Man that was an intense experience.
THR: I love your artsy photos. I like the first one especially, not sure how you did that. Last year at Christmas time I went down a road that is known for having nearly every house decked out in lights and decorations (at night of course) and took photos from the moving car, wiggling the camera... I'll see if I can find them, they're along the same lines at your second photo and some of them are REALLY cool looking.
THR: I love your artsy photos. I like the first one especially, not sure how you did that. Last year at Christmas time I went down a road that is known for having nearly every house decked out in lights and decorations (at night of course) and took photos from the moving car, wiggling the camera... I'll see if I can find them, they're along the same lines at your second photo and some of them are REALLY cool looking.
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pharmakos
Bluelighter
^ you need some B12 imo.
Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
Yeah maybe so. Couldn't hurt. For now I am going to take kelp daily as it contains a huge spectrum of nutrients, I believe B12 as well.
pharmakos
Bluelighter
according to this http://www.veganhealth.org/b12/plant the amount of B12 in kelp is pretty much negligible. according to that page a 3 gram serving has only about 1/5000th the amount of B12 as is in these B12 tablets sitting next to me.
i know i've espoused the importance of B12 supplementation for dissociative users before, but IMO it really is important enough to repeat again. B12 is super cheap at the super market, too -- 100 500microgram tablets is like $5. i prefer the sublingual tablets... they actually taste really damn good heh.
post-binge i like to megadose (4 tablets)... after that 1 tablet here and there suffices.
i know i've espoused the importance of B12 supplementation for dissociative users before, but IMO it really is important enough to repeat again. B12 is super cheap at the super market, too -- 100 500microgram tablets is like $5. i prefer the sublingual tablets... they actually taste really damn good heh.
post-binge i like to megadose (4 tablets)... after that 1 tablet here and there suffices.
Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
I came home from the festival with a really dense and weird patch of bug bites on the back on my knee (where the upper and lower leg come together when you bend your leg, in that pocket). It's like 8 or 9 distinct bites, some of which are weirdly elongated and irregular in shape. It almost looks like poison ivy but it's not oily, and it doesn't spread when I scratch it (or hurt). It itches exactly like bug bites. They were the only bug bites I got the entire time, I guess the drugs in my blood kept them away. 
SONN
Bluelighter
lucky you, one time when I was at the beach on DOC I got stung/bit by a green hornet and didn't even notice until I saw blood was dripping down my leg 
mosquitos/insect pests love me for some reason. It also was raining while it was sunny out on that same trip, like you said happened at Lock'n but then an hour later it started to hurricane and I was trapped under a bridge while the entire Island I was on started flooding moreso than I've ever seen. Then my friend who accidentally took a squirt of DOC instead of a drop had to go run through the hurricane and rescue his car from the flooding streets, I can't imagine how crazy that must have been he was probably on at least 6 or 7mg.
living in the hood has its benefits, some crackhead looking fellow just helped direct my car into its parking space, so I gave him like 60 cents and he gave me 10mg cyclobenzaprine
I have no idea how he could have benefitted from that, he claimed it was a klonopin too which makes even less sense. I would have rather gotten some pcp lol
mosquitos/insect pests love me for some reason. It also was raining while it was sunny out on that same trip, like you said happened at Lock'n but then an hour later it started to hurricane and I was trapped under a bridge while the entire Island I was on started flooding moreso than I've ever seen. Then my friend who accidentally took a squirt of DOC instead of a drop had to go run through the hurricane and rescue his car from the flooding streets, I can't imagine how crazy that must have been he was probably on at least 6 or 7mg. living in the hood has its benefits, some crackhead looking fellow just helped direct my car into its parking space, so I gave him like 60 cents and he gave me 10mg cyclobenzaprine
I have no idea how he could have benefitted from that, he claimed it was a klonopin too which makes even less sense. I would have rather gotten some pcp lol
Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
Here, let me help you out, and then I'll sell you a pill for 60 cents. It's all the thanks I need! . :D
I just remembered a really weird and vivid (and cool) dream from last night. I don't remember the details but it was in this really cool world where I was someone else, different friends, etc. We were working on building this massive palace complex, it was our job or duty or something, and going on all these adventures in the meantime, through the partly-built palace and other places, except when I went home, it was to my parents' house and it was me and them and people I knew at those points. We were trying to build the palace before some vague force far away arrived, and towards the end they were getting close so it got a bit hectic. We were building the tops of towers and would have to climb up and down these really sketchy little iron ladders, which was freaky.
I love how my dreams are so much more vivid post-ibogaine, and more otherworldly. They're getting a little less so but since I was probably 18 I have remembered just a small handful of dreams and then immediately after I took a substance (ibogaine) that worked on some subconscious dream level, I can dream again. It makes my life feel more complete.
I just remembered a really weird and vivid (and cool) dream from last night. I don't remember the details but it was in this really cool world where I was someone else, different friends, etc. We were working on building this massive palace complex, it was our job or duty or something, and going on all these adventures in the meantime, through the partly-built palace and other places, except when I went home, it was to my parents' house and it was me and them and people I knew at those points. We were trying to build the palace before some vague force far away arrived, and towards the end they were getting close so it got a bit hectic. We were building the tops of towers and would have to climb up and down these really sketchy little iron ladders, which was freaky.
I love how my dreams are so much more vivid post-ibogaine, and more otherworldly. They're getting a little less so but since I was probably 18 I have remembered just a small handful of dreams and then immediately after I took a substance (ibogaine) that worked on some subconscious dream level, I can dream again. It makes my life feel more complete.
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Off to the coast with the girlfriend for the weekend straight after work this arvo :D 'tis her birthday today, so here's to making sure she has a great weekend!
Got a simple cabin booked for the 2 nights and really looking forward to rolling in a more relaxed environment rather than the usual nightclubs. Any suggestions for activities or things to take along (not specifically sexual in nature, lololol)? So far:
MDMA, duh
Weed....again, duh
Speakers for music
Glowsticks
Picnic blanket (town we're headed has a nice big golf course with lovely ocean views around the clubhouse)
Fruit like grapes etc
Chest rub :D
I'm sure I'm forgetting stuff I've already thought of....haha
Got a simple cabin booked for the 2 nights and really looking forward to rolling in a more relaxed environment rather than the usual nightclubs. Any suggestions for activities or things to take along (not specifically sexual in nature, lololol)? So far:
MDMA, duh
Weed....again, duh
Speakers for music
Glowsticks
Picnic blanket (town we're headed has a nice big golf course with lovely ocean views around the clubhouse)
Fruit like grapes etc
Chest rub :D
I'm sure I'm forgetting stuff I've already thought of....haha
Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
Awesome man, I tried to think of something else to add to the list but I'm coming up black at the moment. Have fun!
Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
Ugh, it's fully dark at 8. Just got that first "fall-twinge". In the Fall I start getting really introspective and nostalgic (that sort of sad/wistful/happy nostalgia that's not always good) and start dreading the winter because winter makes me feel depressed. Here's hoping I won't feel that way this year, because my life is way better.
SONN
Bluelighter
one thing I would suggest to you that is specifically sexual in nature is ginseng dood, it makes you able to go longer forreal, she'll totally dig it lol
MDMA = seemingly endless sex anyway hahaha....always amazing, just very rare I'll finish haha...not that I care in the slightest, given it's a million times better anyway.
That being said, when the fireworks do go off.....BANG hahahaha
That being said, when the fireworks do go off.....BANG hahahaha
Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
Yeah the experience is the best part about sex for sure.
Roger&Me
Bluelighter
howdy PD fellas :D
hey xorky i remember a while back you mentioned how you would like to get into playing the guitar, i've been wondering if you ever did
hey xorky i remember a while back you mentioned how you would like to get into playing the guitar, i've been wondering if you ever did
Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
Hey Roger. I haven't really started practicing yet, I learned some stuff from my friend, I had a huge breakthrough in understanding the goemetry of it and how it's basically a 3D piano keyboard where you touch the strings directly, based on the circle of fifths.
I haven't really started practicing yet, I learned some stuff from my friend, I had a huge breakthrough in understanding the goemetry of it and how it's basically a 3D piano keyboard where you touch the strings directly, based on the circle of fifths.
SONN
Bluelighter
I had an insane dream last night.
me and my housemate were walking down the street in a badly lit part of the hood. We're just casually having conversation when we look back and see that theres kind of a hood ass guy following us. A minute later we look back again and he's directly behind us like way too close and he pulls out a gun and sticks it into my chest. I obviously panicked but after a little bit of struggle I somehow managed to grab the gun out of his hands. So then I'm the one with the gun and I'm waving around like, "back the fuck up!! you ready to get shot right now???" because he kept trying to come up and steal the gun back. My housemate just ran away, and I was basically following him but the mugger kept getting to close to me so I'd get into shooting position and threaten to shoot. Sooner or Later I ended up pulling the trigger, the first shot didn't hit him, but it made him try harder to get the gun from me so I ran back and shot at him one more time and it got him right in the chest. So then I'm in super panic mode still running away from the guy freaking the fuck out looking for my housemate. I thought I had just actually potentially killed that guy but it was definitely self defense. So then I'm running around weird distorted city dreamscapes freaking the fuck out with a gun trying to figure out what to do. I'm not sure what happened to the gun but I ran into a 7/11 and two cops basically looked at me and said something along the lines of, "we've been watching you for a while sonn, and we weren't gonna try to charge you until this happened.." So then I'm in super duper freak the fuck out mode and I don't know if I ran away or what but I remember just being back in the strange dream city pretty much having a panic attack until I woke up. This is one of those dreams where you wake up and still panicking but you realize it was all a dream within a few minutes. When I woke up it still felt like I had decided to pull the trigger and shoot someone though and that was such an intense thing to accept.
like holy fuck dude that even beats the one where I thought I broke open a vial of acid in my mouth
me and my housemate were walking down the street in a badly lit part of the hood. We're just casually having conversation when we look back and see that theres kind of a hood ass guy following us. A minute later we look back again and he's directly behind us like way too close and he pulls out a gun and sticks it into my chest. I obviously panicked but after a little bit of struggle I somehow managed to grab the gun out of his hands. So then I'm the one with the gun and I'm waving around like, "back the fuck up!! you ready to get shot right now???" because he kept trying to come up and steal the gun back. My housemate just ran away, and I was basically following him but the mugger kept getting to close to me so I'd get into shooting position and threaten to shoot. Sooner or Later I ended up pulling the trigger, the first shot didn't hit him, but it made him try harder to get the gun from me so I ran back and shot at him one more time and it got him right in the chest. So then I'm in super panic mode still running away from the guy freaking the fuck out looking for my housemate. I thought I had just actually potentially killed that guy but it was definitely self defense. So then I'm running around weird distorted city dreamscapes freaking the fuck out with a gun trying to figure out what to do. I'm not sure what happened to the gun but I ran into a 7/11 and two cops basically looked at me and said something along the lines of, "we've been watching you for a while sonn, and we weren't gonna try to charge you until this happened.." So then I'm in super duper freak the fuck out mode and I don't know if I ran away or what but I remember just being back in the strange dream city pretty much having a panic attack until I woke up. This is one of those dreams where you wake up and still panicking but you realize it was all a dream within a few minutes. When I woke up it still felt like I had decided to pull the trigger and shoot someone though and that was such an intense thing to accept.
like holy fuck dude that even beats the one where I thought I broke open a vial of acid in my mouth
Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
Wow that sounds intense man.
I just met a girl I've been chatting with on OkCupid for lunch. It was a nice meeting, seems like we have some things in common, especially the desire to hike and be in nature. She wants to go hiking with me this weekend, I'm gonna go for it. She's pretty cute but she does have this upper lip/teeth thing that isn't ideal for me... I guess that's pretty shallow though and she was fun to talk with so I'll proceed. She'll be fun to hang out with either way.
It lasted longer than expected though and I forgot to go refill the parking meter so I got a $10 ticket.
I just met a girl I've been chatting with on OkCupid for lunch. It was a nice meeting, seems like we have some things in common, especially the desire to hike and be in nature. She wants to go hiking with me this weekend, I'm gonna go for it. She's pretty cute but she does have this upper lip/teeth thing that isn't ideal for me... I guess that's pretty shallow though and she was fun to talk with so I'll proceed. She'll be fun to hang out with either way.
It lasted longer than expected though and I forgot to go refill the parking meter so I got a $10 ticket.
Anytime I have questions I know I can always post here. Or if I just want to talk, pd is the place to go.