Oh man, benzo blackouts are rough. This one time I ordered 100mg of phenazepam and 3 grams of methylone... I started taking methylone one day, and then added bits of phenazepam, I remember doing it three times over that day; the next 3 days were a blur I barely remember and I came to with the phenazepam bag missing with no idea how much I took because I must have lost the bag at some point, and the methylone was all gone... and my ex was like what the fuck was wrong with you for the last 3 days.
Beautiful plants Solipsis! It's awesome caring for plants, I had a beautiful young brugmansia tree one spring/summer/fall, it died over the winter though. I also had 2 san pedro cacti, a peruvian torch, and a bridgesii var monstrose that I had for 4 years, then one day I brought them outside for the Spring and it got down to like 25 degrees overnight and the next morning they were goop from being frozen.

I was super sad and felt really bad for quite a while, those guys were my friends.
So I went ahead and asked her if she wants to do something Sunday... she said she'll see if she can get a sitter. Ideally she'll want to go exploring nature with me and I can show her my favorite waterfall. But in reality I'm down for anything, even something more normal. Took a lot of nerve to ask even though I already know she's into it. I get so nervous about that stuff!
I took a normal dose of phenibut today, sometimes that dose barely even gives me effects, but for some reason today it hit me way too hard. I've got that weird too much phenibut thing... body weirdness, soreness, and the overwhelming urge to just pass out... I sure do dislike that feeling. I need to power through it and get some house cleaning done, I have a feeling I will need to have my house properly presentable soon.