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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Thread: N-Dimensional Funhouse of Possibilities

I think tripping two days in a row is alright for some people, sometimes. I went way too far with it for a while but I'll probably do it again. In fact I think I'm going to a festival in late summer so I probably will then.
 
All I want is a god damn stiff drink, I think I'm deteriorating worse than ever before.
I can only pretend things are okay for so long.
 
last time I did dxm I got those tussin gels and ate like 40 15mg dxm pills and got all fucked up at a party with a few friends and ended up blacking out on a couch for like an hour.

I think i'm gonna eat 80mg mxe in an hour or two, I tested a little over 40mg last night and I gotta say there definitely a noticeable difference between good and bad MXE. This stuff isn't as nice as stuff i've seen from more legit vendors :\
 
i've just been reading through some old PD socials from like '08-'09, good times :)

i'm glad that so many people from back then are still around, still there's so many that i miss

i wish p-sox would come back :(
 
Laika said:
All I want is a god damn stiff drink, I think I'm deteriorating worse than ever before.
I can only pretend things are okay for so long.
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What's the matter man?

Roger&Me said:
i've just been reading through some old PD socials from like '08-'09, good times :)

i'm glad that so many people from back then are still around, still there's so many that i miss

i wish p-sox would come back :(
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Yeah, great times. Spring/summer of '06 was actually my peak time, it felt so magical and innocent. I also wish PSox would come back, he did pop in for a couple of days a while back.
 
Xorkoth when u tripped more often back in the days did it cause you what kind of problems? Or did the magic of psychedelic experience just dull?
 
For me, it pretty much just dulled the magic, the biggest issue I had was that I was usually doing them at night because I was hiding it from my girlfriend/wife, so I had a tremendous lack of sleep that eventually caught up to me and caused me a lot of problems for a while until I stopped doing that. Once that cleared I was fine, except that serotonergic drugs have never affected me the same since, I have permanently become insensitive, requiring higher doses, whereas before I was quite sensitive, usually requiring the lower dosage range for psychedelics. Which is a bummer. My trips are magical again but not like the old days. I never had emotional or mental problems. I never even got HPPD (I've never had a trace of it in my life). But I think my mind takes the psychedelic experience exceptionally well. I doubt most people would escape unscathed.

Despite that the period where I was tripping a lot was one of the best periods of my life, when I look back on it. I was super happy and enchanted with the world. But it was totally unsustainable and in those few years I really didn't learn any ways of coping with life aside from using drugs, which set me back.
 
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willow11 said:
Stay strong brother <3 How's your job going?

:)
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It's going well, but I'm in such a tight spot I really have no choice other than to fake like I like it. It's no advancement in life for me. I'm still stuck in a limbo of lack of success that I've been in my whole life, only nowadays I don't think it's cool or an interesting personality trait of my like I used to think. I used to think it was cool to be content with very little goals and desires, but the jig is up.

And that's what's the matter Xork. I'm just inherently unhappy I doubt I will ever really find happiness considering how long I've been unhappy for (which is all of my recollected life so far.)
 
Aw man, you gotta think more positively, if you are convinced you'll never be happy then you probably never will be. We see the world as a reflection of ourselves. And this is coming from a place of having been very unhappy, sometimes critically depressed to the point of wishing death, for the last 3-4 years until recently. In my case I identified some things I was missing and repressing in myself, in my case it mostly had to do with my relationship though also because of being a serious opiate addict, and fixed them... and the ibogaine also helped a lot.

<3
 
I've never been severely depressed but I know the feeling, its hopeless. It's like you're living in this bubble and u're unable to see what's outside.. I never thought I could be this happy I'm today at the time. Sometimes my eyes just get teary for the beauty of life, and that's when I'm completely sober
 
Yeah that's where I'm at now too... it's amazing what changing a few things in your life can do for the quality of said life.
 
But in reality we live in a corrupt fucked up world. Sure there is beauty in the cracks, and my eyes swell up at those times as well. But they shouldn't have to be so few and far between, if anything it is more proof of how fucked up the world we live in really is.
I can think as positive as I want, that doesn't change that I'm a product of my environment. Sometimes I think I am completely out of control of my body. It's just completely autopilot mode, even the decisions I make and situations I find myself in are really not my own decisions or choice to get to those situations. I'm just the viewer behind the eyes, being given the opportunity to watch, and even listen in on the inner dialogue of a human mind, but really I just am imprisoned and along for the ride that I don't want to be.
 
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