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[xammy]

Yeah AL-LAD is great

 

[TheAppleCore]

I'm struggling with that right now... I'm beginning to realize I need to give up on MXE because it works too well for me, unlike Trozz. I still have maybe a gram left of it, and I want so dearly to obtain more, but it costs so much (for my meager income) and it's so sketchy these days, I worry about the order being lost or being the wrong drug, what have you... and then I worry about what I would do if I had five, ten more grams of MXE (which should be enough for life), and I know deep down my answer would be to use multiple times weekly. And I worry over the long term effects of MXE use. At first many users on here, even the far out ones, seemed rather healthy considering daily disso abuse, but now as time passes, I dunno...

I once saw someone on BL say "MXE is the drug of the decade" and I'd be hard pressed to say I disagree; but in reality, that statement is evocative of both the great benefits of the drug as well as the terrible negatives. MXE will suck you in, woo you with dream worlds and comfort and a blank contentment, and before you know it you've lost what little that brought you happiness in the real world.

In short, I feel sorry for you Trozz, that you never knew what it was to truly love MXE... but then at the same time, I truly envy you.

Stay safe everyone.

I can agree with most of this post. My plan regarding MXE and dissociatives in general right now is to wait a good decade or two, at which point the long-term health effects of these drugs will be much more apparent. If the MXE-heads haven't dropped dead by that point, I'll join back in the fun. :D

 

[jammin83]

All this MXE talk makes me want to wash out the residue of my empty bag. From what I've heard there may be a buzz in there after all. I took me a few months to go through a gram (which was slack to begin with) but I won't be purchasing anymore for a while.

Xor, I hear ya man. Some music is good, there's stuff I like, there's a vast web of stuff out there, it can just be tedious to look through. I find a tune I enjoy but I get sick of it. The jam scene these days is all about the cash grab, ya know? Who are even headliners anymore? Phish, SCI, tDB, WP, sts9, yada, yada. No one really tours anymore. Phish is excellent, but 90s epicness? I think not. My personal live favorite, bisco, seems to be much more disjointed since they quit touring. There is a lot I do genuinely like, but there is plenty I don't. I dig the electronic influenced stuff, it's really the final frontier, but I usually need more than just a dj. I love the melding of genres into something new. I just feel like a lot of it is pretty dark. I love a dirty dance party jam but some of it is too dark.

You really can't beat one man on the piano creating flawless beauty. Classical will always be classic. It seems the purest to me, but I do love my rhythm section.

Maybe point me in the right direction? I always am up for giving something new a spin.

 

[Tralen]

Just got back from six flags. I'll definitely be tripping there again sometime. Holy shit, was that an experience. Had a blast with some of my closest friends, and got to ride roller coasters on mushrooms lol. It was strange actually, I didn't experience any of the anxiety I normally do about riding roller coasters. Being on mushrooms actually made me more calm about it than I would have been sober. I'll definitely do it again, but next time I'll probably take lsd because it's more stimulating and lasts a bit longer. By the end I was pretty much baseline, and extremely tired lol

 

[Yeetbeat]

hahaha good stuff man glad to hear it! I wouldn't mind tripping at a theme park, though I'm not too sure I'd find mushrooms' effects very fitting for the settings personally.

 

[Xorkoth]

Anyone here have experience with LSD analogues? I may have a chance to try 1P-LSD and/or AL-LAD in the not too distant future.

Of the two I'd go with AL-LAD... 1p-LSD is great, but it's basically identical or nearly so to LSD, whereas AL-LAD is unique, and very euphoric and fun. It's a really, really nice drug.

All this MXE talk makes me want to wash out the residue of my empty bag. From what I've heard there may be a buzz in there after all. I took me a few months to go through a gram (which was slack to begin with) but I won't be purchasing anymore for a while.

Xor, I hear ya man. Some music is good, there's stuff I like, there's a vast web of stuff out there, it can just be tedious to look through. I find a tune I enjoy but I get sick of it. The jam scene these days is all about the cash grab, ya know? Who are even headliners anymore? Phish, SCI, tDB, WP, sts9, yada, yada. No one really tours anymore. Phish is excellent, but 90s epicness? I think not. My personal live favorite, bisco, seems to be much more disjointed since they quit touring. There is a lot I do genuinely like, but there is plenty I don't. I dig the electronic influenced stuff, it's really the final frontier, but I usually need more than just a dj. I love the melding of genres into something new. I just feel like a lot of it is pretty dark. I love a dirty dance party jam but some of it is too dark.

You really can't beat one man on the piano creating flawless beauty. Classical will always be classic. It seems the purest to me, but I do love my rhythm section.

Maybe point me in the right direction? I always am up for giving something new a spin.

Well for one, search Youtube for Hiromi Uehara... in my opinion easily the greatest pianist alive and maybe ever, and her music is... breathtaking. Watching her face in the videos is incredible too. Not that she's in any way indicative of anything else going on.

I actually saw Phish last summer and it was, to me, above anything I ever heard from any other time period including the 90s. Of course I never saw them live then, I've just seen videos/heard recordings.

We have lots of great local bands here but not everywhere is like that probably.

 

[Xorkoth]

About to meet my girl's good friends from college and hang out... they're visiting town for a few days. That'll be cool. Hopefully they want to come with me and Delsyd and friends to a free show at one of the greatest and chillest venues of all time, because that's what I really want to do. But I'll go with them wherever they want to go for sure.

Oh, and She invited me to her cousins' wedding on August 8th. It'll be an 8 hour road trip. I'm pretty nervous because her whole family will be there almost and that's a big thing... and she has always talked slightly shit about her dad being difficult and intense and ridiculous, though she clearly also feels close to him. She said he'll probably love me because I'm a good talker and I have a good job and I can appear extremely "normal" with ease (though I am not in fact at all normal ). Pretty nervous but also excited, I'll certainly get to know her on a deeper level after spending time with her family.

 

[Yeetbeat]

I plan to embark on a journey shortly... 6g dried cubensis, in the form of homogenised powdered capsules. This should be interesting, given my housemates got full effects from less than 2 grams. It seems the homogenising and powdering if the material makes a massive difference in intensity, come up time, and reduction of nausea/digestive issues.

I'm definitely excited! It's a fairly chilly day, overcast and somewhat foggy... But I feel it may add to the mental space in a unique way, even if the OEVs aren't as pretty haha. Will have to rug up if I go for a walk though.. Only like 4°C :/

 

[TheAppleCore]

^ Have fun and be safe Trozzle! I think cloudy days are wonderful for trips!


So, I suppose I can say I now understand the attraction of night clubs that play deafeningly loud hip-hop music. Don't get me wrong, it's not exactly something I'm chomping at the bit to do again; but if you get drunk enough, the window-shatteringly loud bass frequencies make your whole body feel like wobbling jello, and you lose enough dignity that you feel comfortable dancing like a fool.

 

[Xorkoth]

I plan to embark on a journey shortly... 6g dried cubensis, in the form of homogenised powdered capsules. This should be interesting, given my housemates got full effects from less than 2 grams. It seems the homogenising and powdering if the material makes a massive difference in intensity, come up time, and reduction of nausea/digestive issues.

I'm definitely excited! It's a fairly chilly day, overcast and somewhat foggy... But I feel it may add to the mental space in a unique way, even if the OEVs aren't as pretty haha. Will have to rug up if I go for a walk though.. Only like 4°C :/

Nice man, I hope you have a great trip. I was just talking to my girl about mushrooms today... she mentioned she wants to do them sometime soon on a nature day, and I realized I haven't one them in... well, probably 7 years since I had a proper one, I did take a low dose once in a cluttered apartment in downtown Chicago with my cousin and ex, and dealt with him having an existential crisis and her obsessing over whether we were offending the other family members we left behind. So I don't really count it, terrible setting.

Speaking of my girl... well, tonight was a great night, truly great. I decided to try the ethylphenidate + etizolam combo again (plus a couple of beers), and it was exactly like the last time (I don't remember if I mentioned it on here or not) where it basically removes all of the negatives of all of the drugs and combines all the positives. I took 75mg of EPH at like 3pm, and then 2mg of etizolam at 4 when the EPH was about to get jittery and weird. Then I redosed the EPH just like 20-40mg (all oral) every hour or two, whenever it seemed right. I also took 2mg more of etiz at about 7, and drank 3 beers throughout the night. And basically, all night I felt amazing. I was speaking to people totally confidently and honestly and without any fear. My girl came over, we were going to meet her friendswho were visiting (well, I was going to meet them but we were going to meet up with them at a free show). But they were running very late so we went to my friends' house, who were also all going, and hung out. I felt maximally clever, quick, and it was honestly empathogenic, I was telling my friends all the things I really like about them and what they're good at and we were getting into some great, deep conversations (same as last night when my friend and I did the same combo). Then we went to the show, met up with her friends, they were cool, we conversed. Everything felt awesome, not in an "oh my god I'm overwhelmed with euphoria" way, but in a "everything just feels perfect and I have full confidence" sort of way.

Then my girl and I drove home (she drove actually, she didn't take anything but a little weed) and had a really deep conversation about our exes and how that ended... I got pretty deep into telling her about the emotional abuse and the weird shit my ex did, and about how I appreciate her so much because now that I have learned important lessons about healthy relationships, here she is, being super healthy about it. And she told me about hers, nothing bad like mine, but it was good to hear about it in detail anyway, because it was something I didn't know about her. Then we got home and kept talking for a while and went upstairs and started having sex... and let me just say, I think this is the best sex drug combo I've ever done. The overall feeling of it reminds me of cocaine except only the good parts and way longer lasting, but coke makes it hard to get it up... in this case, it was basically impossible to get it down. After just over 2 hours, we finally finished... best sex I've ever had, it was awesome. Then we were snuggling and saying sweet things to each other and I just realized I had to say it... I told her, "I'm really thankful you decided to find me on OkCupid, because now I love you". She just squeezed me really tight and I think cried slightly (but I couldn't see because our faces were pressed together) and then said "me too". And I said I know, I could tell, and she said, "me too". And I told her I'd been wanting to tell her for a while now but that I was just scared to for some reason, and she said it was the same for her, she almost said it a bunch of times and so did I.

So now I'm eating some peanut butter toast and drinking a couple of beers to get a little more relaxed so I can get some sleep... I didn't get much sleep last night, staying up talking intensely about emotional and exciting things last night too with my friend, on the same combo (very productive band direction/planning talk actually). And tomorrow is river hike day so I need to recover energy.

I'm really glad I found this combo because honestly it's one of the most emotionally opening things I've taken, partly because it's in a really sober way. And it's weird because when I take it by itself it makes me feel closed off and uncomfortable and kinda jonsey, but with etizolam it's like the perfect stimulant, therapeutic even, and very surprisingly long-lasting for me. I used the last of my only gram tonight (I shared quite a bit too - plus it is definitely kind of compulsive this way), and I shan't be ordering more for a while, but I'll have to revisit. But requiring a benzo adds an extra level of concern. I tried the combo twice in 2 days and each time it consistently provided a beautiful, emotionally opening energetic euphoria. Gotta be careful when you know such a thing is available, and not overuse it.

On the other hand, I was able to connect emotionally with the person I love in some deeper ways than ever before because my fear was lifted, and I got the courage to take that step and tell her how I feel, and that's a beautiful thing that I was having trouble breaking through to. So, I'm glad I did it.

 

[Tralen]

That's awesome Xorkoth. Especially that you finally told
yor girl you love her. I've been with my girl for almost two years now, and our connection just keeps getting deeper. I knew from the first time we hung out that I loved her, but it still took me a while to actually tell her. Had to wait for the right time. We've been living together for about a year now, and I newvr get tired of coming home and seeing her here waiting for me.

 

[Xorkoth]

I still don't want to live with her, but I could see it someday. She doesn't want to live with me either though, she comes over a lot but she likes to have her own space and so do I. I'm not ready to merge my life that much with someone.

I'm also extremely cautious about codependence though because my last relationship was terribly codependent and I am keenly aware of how damaging that was for me, and would be for me again. One of the things I love about this girl is that she's really independent without being at all distant or exclusionary of me.

I'm trying to take all the steps slowly because in my last relationship we moved way too fast, especially with living together... from the very, very beginning we spent basically of our time together, and like 2 months in I moved into her dorm room because her roommate changed rooms.

 

[Just A Guy]

I still don't want to live with her, but I could see it someday. She doesn't want to live with me either though, she comes over a lot but she likes to have her own space and so do I. I'm not ready to merge my life that much with someone.

That resonates very much with me.

 

[TheAppleCore]

Yeah, I don't think I'd want a relationship without some breathing room.

Apparently I was taking too long to figure out how to get the ticket machine to accept my train ticket and let me through the turnstall at the station today, and the guy behind me literally shoved me aside to get in front of me. Some other guy angrily yells, "Come on!" I shouldn't let it, but shit like that really spoils my mood. I can't help the fact that I'm too retarded to figure out the machine. Sheesh.

 

[pharmakos]

with the world we live in i understand the impatience (maybe their boss was waiting on them, maybe their kids needed to get picked up, etc etc).... but they probably should have helped you instead of just shoving you aside.

 

[jammin83]

Dang. How is there so much residue in an otherwise empty bag? MXE'd.

 

[TheAppleCore]

Rinsing out an "empty" bag or vial seems to give a lot of people more than they bargained for... be careful.

 

[jammin83]

Too late. I'm no beginner tho. but dang.

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

Between my apartments and the ones next to me, we have lantana, geranium, roses, hibuscus, plumeria, japanese maple, indian hawthorne, elephant ear, coelus tricolor, sea lavender, and lily of the nile, plus a couple I can't name. It's so very lovely.

What kinda neighbor will provide you with half a dozen smokes, 8~9 drinks, and some herb gratis? I have a fortunate living situation.

 

[swilow]

^You know, I've always admired how deftly you speak of flowers. I know about 4.