Don't worry, guys. Trozzle is just mentally broken, so to speak. And yes, it's okay I said that, I'm his girlfriend. Haha. So I'm new to this scene, so forgive me if I word any of this wrong etc. :D
While out, he accidently have me a cap of the MXE instead of my redose of MDMA.
While in the club, i stopped feeling like I wanted to dance, and started to feel more like sitting down and having giant D'n'm's (deep and meaningful convos) with everyone. I quite literally went from feeling hypo as hell, to mentally feeling alot more calmer, just with some of the physical effects i get from mdma(jaw clenching/shaking etc).
And while Standing in the club on the damcefloor, in front of the speakers, like my skin felt energised. With every line of the bass from the speakers where we were standing felt like it was resonating inside of me. I felt so alost connected to the music. The hairs on my arms were standing up and everything. Like it was such a weird feeling..
Then While walking to the convenience store for my friend to buy smokes, the fairy lights and lights along the way looked cool, like the same but they looked like tiny fireworks with the colours etc. Yes, i know I sound mental cause I'm not sure what effects to expect while mixing these two. Haha.
But while sober and taking the MXE, i didn't like the effects, i felt slow and sluggish and just super drunk. Not my thing I guess. Haha.
Then when we got home, smoked a cone, and all the lights were off, the magic begun for me! Laying on the bed for a bit, it didn't quite feel like I was laying on a bed. It felt like I was kinda floating above it a bit, if that makes sense. Like not quite touching it, but I knew it was there.
And attempting to find the bathroom door was sooooo hard to do hah.
So that was such a struggle, then finding my way back to bed was a mission and a half! Hahaha.
It's kinda hard to describe how I was feeling, because I don't have much to compare it too. But the easiest way I could describe it, is i felt alive. For like the first time in my life I was aware of myself. If that makes sense. Hahaha. I was oddly energised, but at the same time very relaxed. I felt very sponge-like. Like I was taking in all that was around me.
But overall, i loved the feeling the MXE gave me this time.