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🌟🌟 Social 🌟🌟 PD Social Thread 2022-2025 v. Year of the Phenethylamine

Excited for my looming weekend psychedelic voyage. 4-HO-DPT and ketamine are the substances of choice, and maybe some good old DMT to massage the neurons a bit more. Have the house to myself so gonna get messier than normal 😀
 
I forgot how fucking high 3-meo-PCP gets me. I had a tiny bump last night, I reckon 4mg or so and was just so stimulated and vibing. Does not feel safe though, I could feel a strange sort of not unpleasant recklessness bubbling up from within. Fortunately I've only got about 40mg or so of it. It's great but it fucked me up badly in the past and I behaved terribly on it (lost a treasured job). Such a fun feeling although kinda empty and nihilistic. Much caution required with this stuff...
 
I forgot how fucking high 3-meo-PCP gets me. I had a tiny bump last night, I reckon 4mg or so and was just so stimulated and vibing. Does not feel safe though, I could feel a strange sort of not unpleasant recklessness bubbling up from within. Fortunately I've only got about 40mg or so of it. It's great but it fucked me up badly in the past and I behaved terribly on it (lost a treasured job). Such a fun feeling although kinda empty and nihilistic. Much caution required with this stuff...

Its one of my favorite dissos, it makes me feel so happy it almost seems unreal. Everything i do seems like just the best thing ever, id get so much out of music and would just walk around NYC with my headphones on fucking loving it. Beautiful visuals like flowing water and the world was so vibrant like a 4K movie or something. Found it super difficult not to use it daily and id go for weeks at a time at pretty high daily dose like maybe 40mgs or so. Id be happy as fuck if i got my hands on some again one day.

Just got my 10 grams of Memantine today which im pretty happy about what a fun drug that is. Im probably gonna take 100mgs orally and plug 250mgs of FXE like 4hrs in a few weeks from now. Then redose the FXE again after awhile when i feel the need. That combo is fucking wild it takes you all the way out there and the duration is insane. Deff not something i would suggest for someone that isnt a heavy dissos user. But for me, its divine.
 
^I think we've all been there 😀

My trip today has been so powerful. Had to lie down for a lot of it just hammered by such strong visuals and time dilation. I haven't had much experience elwith 4-ho-DPT but theres something Something very mechanical feeling about it. Digital even. Futuristic visuals of robotic elephants and endless gear wheels. I ended up taking small bumps of ketamine, maybe 100mg all up and smoked about the same amount of DMT over 3-4 sessions. And now some quaffing of kava and attempts to make music although my concentration is utterly shot. Nice stuff.
 
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7 grams of Penis Envy Mushrooms i just got, ive never in my life seen shrooms so big. Put a quarter next to them for reference. That one big stem is very dense and makes up the majority of the weight. From what ive read they are twice the potency of regular Mushrooms.

They look like they are quality right. Im gonna give this bag to my ex-fiance cuz she has been bugging me for Shrooms the last month and i wanna help her out. Im gonna get some more from the dude, like an ounce to put in the cut.
 
Me and my ex-fiance always slept in seperate beds for years, well i slept on the couch. But same concept, my girl now will not have that and we have to be in the same bed together. Mean its okay, only issues are she complains about me having the TV on sometimes. I love sleeping with podcasts on it helps me relax. And she snores pretty heavy sometimes but i wake her ass up and tell her to roll over, lol.

I sleep in a separate bed. It was a sore spot with my partner for a while, but now we wouldn't have it any other way. I'm a night owl and insomniac, so trying to sleep in the same room just led to years of poor sleep. It turns out that I'm a happier, healthier person all around when I get my rest. We just make sure to set aside time for cuddling on the couch instead.

Once my missus understood that it wasn't that I didn't love her or desire her or anything but something purely practical, and once she tasted the sweet freedom of not having a hairy primate sweating, mumbling and twitching next to her, she was on board. I now actually find it really strange that sharing a bed is such a common practise. No one can give me a convincing reason why I should want it. Why is spending 7hrs unconscious within a half metre of another unconscious person meaningful?

But dont you have sex, the bewildered sheeple ask?

We actually have more sex now. We have radically different sleeping habits anyway and unless I was going to be a wild optimist and wake her up at 1am when I lay down after she's been asleep for 3 hrs, it wasn't happening. Nowadays we just kinda say, hey, let's have sex and we go and do it 😀 I do miss the fuzzy headed, sleepy morning copulation but that's basically just one particular sexual context that is off the books out of a myriad others that have opened up.

I'm glad you guys replied because I sometimes feel like we're weird for sleeping in separate beds! My siblings and mom, and almost all of my friends, are like whaaaaaaaaaaat?? That's so weird! We could never do that! But I feel exactly how you guys just described! We have vastly different sleeping schedules... for example, I'm awake at 2:22am, and plan to be awake for a little while longer. And I sleep in longer. She goes to bed at 9:30 or 10 at the latest, and wakes up at 5:30 or 6 for work, and just always does it every day, now. If we sleep in the same bed, I wake her up without fail when I come to bed. Plus, my routine is to read in bed, if I don't, I can't shut my brain off and I have insomnia. I literally have to read until my eyelids start drooping and then reach over without getting up to shut the lamp off. But if I even have a headlamp or something, she can't sleep. Plus, apparently I snore.

I also miss snuggling to sleep, as well as morning sex when you just wake up, but hey, small price to pay.

Although recently we've been sleeping in the same bed occasionally, for the snuggling. See my next post for more about that... :)

omg after I don't know how many years of reading BL threads, I just noticed it's @fastandbulbous not fastandFABULOUS lol.

Haha, I had that moment many years ago but it was a couple of years into being here, at least

^I think we've all been there 😀

Indeed!
 
So I posted this in another place, but I'm gonna cross-post it, because I wanted to share how I'm feeling right now with my PD fam, too. <3

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Just wanted to express something... and that is that my girlfriend and I had sex 3 times this past week! :love: Not only is my libido back now that my testosterone is getting back to normal levels, but hers is, too! A few years ago now, when her physical troubles started to really come on strongly, her pain was largely coming from her uterus and surrounding areas... so sex started to hurt her, a lot. It was really difficult for me to deal with that at first, especially since the first half of our relationship had an amazing sexual component, in fact that was the first way we really connected strongly. She would always say that never in her life could she imagine going a week without sex... we didn't even go a day without it, almost ever, for years. And I still had my libido back then, so it was rough. Serious, chronic sexual frustration is extremely unpleasant. She cried about it a lot, and she would try to throw me a bone once in a while, but it was blatantly obvious that it was unpleasant and painful for her, she'd be in serious pain for days afterwards and during it she would be wincing and basically just be like "can you hurry up please?" Which obviously made me feel like a piece of shit, though she was trying not to make me feel bad.

But eventually I accepted it, and then suboxone and grief combined to destroy my sex drive, too. So I have just been existing in this weird place where we just don't ever have sex, and it had been so long that it was awkward. I had stopped really wanting to even cuddle or show affection, and it started feeling like we were just friends/roommates, and I started feeling more and more disconnected and discontent with the relationship. I was frequently fantasizing about breaking up with her, and wishing we'd never met because I still care about her and no matter what happens, I always will. But something was wrong and I missed the connection we had so much. I couldn't even recall when the last time I'd told her I love her was. :\ I was seriously starting to fully believe that it was just a fond memory that was in the past and I might never have that again with anyone if I stayed with her. It gave me a confusing and depressing and sad feeling that was always there in the back or the forefront of my mind. I was also starting to feel sad and even somewhat angry (with myself, with the situation, with life) when I would hear or read about other people who still have that.

Well, when I got home from Flow Jam, I had been a week on testosterone and festivals always make me feel more like my ideal self, and I was happy to see her, and got in bed to snuggle her, and made my first attempt to initiate something with her that I've made in way too long (until then, it had been at least 6 months since we'd had sex, likely longer... we hadn't even flirted with each other or really expressed physical affection in almost that long, either), and much to my surprise, it worked. And she was into it, too. At the risk of TMI, there was more than enough, ah, moisture going on for things to go smoothly without adding any foreign moisture from a bottle, and she was wanting to do different positions and stuff. I didn't quite get her off because I was out of practice, but the very next day she jumped me and pulled me into her room and it was as good as it's ever been at the peak of our honeymoon phase. I think she hadn't had an orgasm in a long time and we were watching a show a few days before about orgasms/sex as anxiety reduction. And it worked, she had been in a bad bout of anxiety and the rest of the day she was on top of the world.

There have been 2 more times since then, with the same results. It feels like this huge, awkward cloud hanging between us has just vanished suddenly and it feels like it used to between us. When I look at her now, instead of feeling a mixture of apathy, sadness, frustration, and fatigue, I feel love and gratitude and fondness. I pinch her lovely perfect butt sometimes when I walk by and she pretends to be offended and then gives me a cute little smile. I act like a hungry beast and pretend to takes bites out of her and tell her that she's so tasty and beasts need to eat, it's the circle of life. The silliness and goofiness that I love that we have with each other is totally back, where a few weeks ago, it was smothered by awkward, unspoken pain, and I was wondering how it would even be possible to get it back because I felt like I had forgotten how to be that way with her.

Best of all though, instead of feeling like I'd given her all of my empathy and was an exhausted, drained battery, I am full of empathy and support again and am able to, and want to, be there for her as she takes the next step in trying to get a grip on her mental and physical health. Instead of feeling like I wish we could have just never even met in the first place and trying to figure out how I could find the will to endure the rest of my life with her, I find myself feeling so grateful that I have someone who loves me so much, for me, as I am, faults and all, without ever trying to change me or restrict me, and without a single abusive word or action towards me, even once, in almost a decade. And I'm 100% sure that she never will, either. I find myself wondering how I could have gotten so lucky to find someone who is such a sweet soul and who is so easy to get along with and so supportive, on my second try at a long-term adult relationship, especially after my first try was, like, the exact karmic opposite of that. Instead of the problems, I can see the good again, and it's so much stronger than the bad. I find myself feeling so grateful to her that she stood by my side unfailingly through this last period of my life, even though I was being cold and distant (though I want to also make clear that I wasn't being cruel to her in any way, I just couldn't summon the will to return the outpouring of love she has always shown me, for the past while)... she didn't falter, and the whole time she was just worried about me because she could tell something was wrong. I'm so lucky. A lot of people never find someone like that, and most people seem to be incapable of being that selfless in relationships. <3

I just like... I can't believe we got through this. I seriously thought it was gone and our relationship was irrevocably altered and tarnished.

I don't quite understand how she rediscovered her ability to enjoy sex at the same time as I did. It's not hurting her anymore. It's been like 3 or even 4 years since I have seen her really get into sex. It feels like a miracle! And I really mean that in a literal sense. :dancingcat:

And lastly... I just wanted to thank those of you in here who encouraged me to go to a hormone doctor and get my testosterone checked. It's made such a big difference in my life already, and I don't even know if we've found the correct dose yet - my 1-month appointment is on Thursday. Seriously, thank you, thank you. It feels like a missing piece of my soul and/or life force have been returned to me. I had no idea how profoundly low T (and low estrogen, too) had been affecting me.

:group hug:

I finally feel like myself again!
 
Been over a week with no Dissos and im still going strong, not gonna lie tho i crave FXE so badly right now. Think about it all the time, and one of my vendors just put a bunch of S-isomer Ketamine on sale which im sorta fiending for. But i have that 25gs of FXE arriving soon, and i shouldnt blow anymore money.

Got the ten grams of Memantine yesterday so im probably just gonna take some of that in a couple weeks. Like a 100mgs early in the morning on my day off work. Gotta be strong tho and give it all a break because my tolerance is so bad right now.

With the last batch of Ket i was snorting a gram at a time, which is alot of powder and no easy task let me tell you, and i was still perfectly coherent. The FXE hits me way harder but even with that i needed 500mgs at a time to really get anywhere.

Found a vendor that im gonna get some Ephenedine from and some 3-MeO-PCP. Just a gram of the former and 6 grams of the 3-MeO Things are looking mighty fine on the Disso front but i have to be disiplined.
 
Bro... be really fucking careful with the 3-MeO. I remember when you were saying "but absolutely no PCP derivitives". And when you were going to be disciplined with the FXE, too. And 6 grams... well, just saying it's a disaster waiting to happen, but I truly hope it isn't a disaster. <3

No judgment, I'm not one to talk, there are some drugs I simply cannot be disciplined with if I have them, but at this point I don't pretend that I will next time anymore. if I get them, I know I am subconsciously (or consciously) planning to be irresponsible, and I get the amount that I want to be the limit of a binge, because if I have, say, 6 grams of it, that's how much I'll do before really giving it a rest (if it's one of the things that I can't control myself with). Or, I keep it somewhere where I can't get to it unless someone gives it to me, a time lock safe isn't good enough, sadly.

You're a grown man and it's not my place to tell you what to do, just saying, I think 6 grams of 3-MeO-PCP is a really bad idea. <3
 
Im gonna keep it in a metal gun safe with a time lock, so i will absolutely not be able to break into it. Then i will weigh out 100mg bags to have access to for the month, with my tolerance that is like four doses. Trust me im gonna be careful, ive got 300mgs of a PCPy analog in a case right next to me and i dont even use it.

And a gram of 3-F-PCP as well. Ive got no choice but to get that amount its a ten gram minimum, a friend wants a portion of it. Im gonna be fine, i appreciate the concern tho. I will not allow myself access to the main stash of 3-MeO once i have dosed any, can only take some out when im sober and then lock it up again. Thats when i move with my girl, until then she will just keep it out her house and i will weigh out some 100mg bags for her to bring me once in awhile.

Do any of you have experience with Kanna Extract, im getting 10 grams of a 100:1. Never tried the stuff before but it sounds intresting. Id added it to my order of 2.5g's Sildenafil Powder cuz im pretty distraught over losing my boner sometimes now, so embarrassing to even talk about. Maybe my testosterone is fucked too guys.

Should probably goto one of those TRT clinics. Since i spent hundred bucks i got a free item and choose a Tianeptine Solution, that will be a treat. Its weak tho 25mg per ml, and 30ml vial. Would not pay that much for it, but since its free sample fine. Contemplated getting DMAA powder as the sample but im concerned about cardiac side effects.
 
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I went through a phase of doing 3meopcp daily about 7 years ago and it really fucked me up. It wasn't huge doses and so often I just felt euphoric and high, but my behaviour was fucked and I got fired from a fantastic job as a result. It's a wonderful drug, don't get me wrong, but is really dangerous I think. After a point, it's hard to tell if you're acting weird or not.

Still, lowish doses are incredibly euphoric. Dissociative doses are plain scary in a good way. I used to get this feeling of incredible size, like I was this enormous being in a tiny low res world. I would just stride around feeling magnificent. It's the only dissociative that I've felt really compulsive with. Took it daily for about a year- great job, sober at the start of the year, at years end, unemployed and on opiates and having seizures constantly.
 
So I tried plugging 20mg of 2ce in 2ml earlier this evening

It definitely burned and I needed to vacate my bowels shortly there after.

If plugging is akin to nasal (and given my insensitivity to 2cs) I figured this would be a strong dose. But honestly it didn’t definitely didnt all absorb before ya know Lol

Would diluting it more sting less? And cause less of an issue?

Ive only got like 60mg left … oral doesn’t really do it for me and nasal is so unbearable. Id like to try plugging this again

Perhaps I’ll wait until I’ve got more experience plugging but any insight is appreciated
 
So I tried plugging 20mg of 2ce in 2ml earlier this evening

It definitely burned and I needed to vacate my bowels shortly there after.

If plugging is akin to nasal (and given my insensitivity to 2cs) I figured this would be a strong dose. But honestly it didn’t definitely didnt all absorb before ya know Lol

Would diluting it more sting less? And cause less of an issue?

Ive only got like 60mg left … oral doesn’t really do it for me and nasal is so unbearable. Id like to try plugging this again

Perhaps I’ll wait until I’ve got more experience plugging but any insight is appreciated

Yes diluting more will help with that, generally when i plug 2C-x i use a 5ml oral syringe and have it damn near full of water. Some might think this is overkill but its always worked for me and ive never felt a burn. And ive plugged 20mg 2C-E doses this way many times particularly.
 
I went through a phase of doing 3meopcp daily about 7 years ago and it really fucked me up. It wasn't huge doses and so often I just felt euphoric and high, but my behaviour was fucked and I got fired from a fantastic job as a result. It's a wonderful drug, don't get me wrong, but is really dangerous I think. After a point, it's hard to tell if you're acting weird or not.

Still, lowish doses are incredibly euphoric. Dissociative doses are plain scary in a good way. I used to get this feeling of incredible size, like I was this enormous being in a tiny low res world. I would just stride around feeling magnificent. It's the only dissociative that I've felt really compulsive with. Took it daily for about a year- great job, sober at the start of the year, at years end, unemployed and on opiates and having seizures constantly.

My 3-MeO-PCP experience is similar to yours. About 7 years ago, used daily for a year or more. Got and lost a good job in that time span due to it. Not being able to tell how you're acting is a good way to put it.

I'll never forget how it felt. I really wish It was still available to me but its probably best that its not. One of my all time favorite drugs. It put me in such a confident headspace and made me feel like I could accomplish anything I put my mind to. Also insanely good drug for video game immersion.
 
I went through a phase of doing 3meopcp daily about 7 years ago and it really fucked me up. It wasn't huge doses and so often I just felt euphoric and high, but my behaviour was fucked and I got fired from a fantastic job as a result. It's a wonderful drug, don't get me wrong, but is really dangerous I think. After a point, it's hard to tell if you're acting weird or not.

Still, lowish doses are incredibly euphoric. Dissociative doses are plain scary in a good way. I used to get this feeling of incredible size, like I was this enormous being in a tiny low res world. I would just stride around feeling magnificent. It's the only dissociative that I've felt really compulsive with. Took it daily for about a year- great job, sober at the start of the year, at years end, unemployed and on opiates and having seizures constantly.

Yeah it get weird daily i did it for about a month one time and my ex got really sick of me after awhile. Mean i wasnt doing anything fucked up to her or anything, moreso just keeping very odd hours and sometimes leaving the apartment in the middle of the night to walk around the city, stuff like that. Having these sorta breakthru moments id try to get her to understand.

When id dose just the 3-MeO i could kinda keep it under wraps, but id mix it with psychedelics twice a week and be completely gone. Like when id take 30mgs of 4-AcO-DMT and 20mgs 3-MeO-PCP i would have a hardtime communicating during the peak, obviously. It was really good with ALD-52, 2C-B, 2C-C, DOC and 4-HO-MET went for alot of combos that month, such a blast
 
Yes diluting more will help with that, generally when i plug 2C-x i use a 5ml oral syringe and have it damn near full of water. Some might think this is overkill but its always worked for me and ive never felt a burn. And ive plugged 20mg 2C-E doses this way many times particularly.
Ive very limited experience with this Roa but I thought less liquid meant less… leakage?

Im all for it not stinging though lol… not near as bad as snorting it but definitely unpleasant.

Does plugging usually cause one to evacuate their bowels?

My only other experience with this roa (4 ho mipt) felt like it might cause this issue but never did. This time it was was <10mins lol (sorry if this is tmi) …. Almost How I remember puking with the drip from sniffing… if that makes sense lol
 
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Ive very limited experience with this Roa but I thought less liquid meant less… leakage?

Just stay laying on your stomach for ten mins, sometimes i lay there even longer and just fuck around on my phone. But i bet more than ten isnt really neccasary, ive never had an issue with anything leaking out personally. And sometimes when i contemplate did i get it right, two mins later it hits me like a ton of bricks. Some people say you can get up and walk around right away, but i dont ever do that. Ive shoved so much drugs up my ass over the years its ridiculous, probably boofed hundreds of times. When my girl would walk in the bedroom and i was laying with my ass out she knew what i was upto, and it wasnt sexual.
 
Ya i was up walking around both times.

I’ll trial this on other substances before revisiting my limited stash of 2CE. Thanks

I was thinking Mdma … have you plugged M? is the magic still there when compared to oral
 
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