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thanks guys :) means a lot to me. I sent out a couple copies of the first ~60 pages of the text which constitutes a very rough draft of what I have now.

for some reason (beyond the burning flesh and buzzards and shit) I can imagine the Portrait of a Paragraph somehow being adapted into black/death metal lyrics although the style it's written and typographically presented in is quite reactionary ;)
 
Yeah, i really admire this writing. It's hard to believe it's coming out of the 21st century honestly. Stream of consciousness is where it's at, really. I definitely relate pretty intensely to it as well, being from a similar background and all. Country to NYC, now in Florida. Soon to be elsewhere!
 
ugh dudes
subs taste disgusting. i wish i could get subutex. subutex doesnt taste nearly as bad
they take forever to dissolve for me too and im not sure if my 2nd strip evem got absorbed. im on 16 and i took the first one fine but when i went to take the 2nd one it stuck to my finger once i touched it to under my tongue and got wet ad i had to like scrape it off my finger on the edge of my gums.
at least the 2nd one always dissolves fast though but the first one takes forever.
 
I take the 21st century comment as a true complement. My favorite art and literature and hence probably a lot of my influences are from about ca. 1800-1950 (at the latest), I'm very into Modernist (ca. the end of the Great War to the mid-1930s) art and literature as well as some earlier, sort of reactionary literary tendencies, Romanticism, the pre-Raphaelites, etc., also bits and pieces of surrealism and Italian intra-war Futurism, stuff like that. Lots and lots of contemporary stuff doesn't do it for me and a lot of that which does is sort of "remodernist" like some of the Stuckists, even some of the work of the supposedly postmodern Pynchon and Eco; the occasional sort of transitional post-1945 figure like Vonnegut, but mainly I'm headed in the opposite direction, I'd say, than the mainstream literary novel in a lot of ways, that may mean I'm not very marketable, who knows, but that's what I'm into.
 
Man, i really think this is extremely marketable. You're really hitting 'new age' art with conviction. I want to read more, which is wild because I stopped reading years ago.
 
LSDMDMA&AMP said:
ugh dudes
subs taste disgusting. i wish i could get subutex. subutex doesnt taste nearly as bad
they take forever to dissolve for me too and im not sure if my 2nd strip evem got absorbed. im on 16 and i took the first one fine but when i went to take the 2nd one it stuck to my finger once i touched it to under my tongue and got wet ad i had to like scrape it off my finger on the edge of my gums.
at least the 2nd one always dissolves fast though but the first one takes forever.
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LOL a friend asked a question last week 'ugh do you get tired of the taste of sub?' as he had a couple mg in his mouth. I answered no because I associate the taste with soon feeling better a couple hours after I take it.
 
^I get the same thing from codeine. A CWE tastes utterly horrible, but I can 'enjoy' it and look forward to it, and the ensuing nausea, because of the incoming niceness. :) I used to be able to hold the liquid in my mouth and really breath with it, tasting all the disgusting binders and chemicals but knowing one component is about to change everything. Fuck I am a fucking drug addict. :D

I'm on day 3 of my no-weed tolerance break. I have barely slept, was very restless and sweaty and having all the great dreams. I feel quite lively, a bit anxious though, worried about how I will sleep tonight. The thing is, I've got some nice pot ATM and was given the day off work. I could make use of this time by getting productively stoned and writing inane bullshit on Bluelight, but I think I'll just continue with the latter and dream dream dream about smoking on Wednesday night. Should have a tolerance dip by then, hopefully I green out. :D

I should share one dream, and its one that I have a whole lot and I wonder what it means. Basically, in it I walk outside my house for some reason, I can hear what sounds like insects; I have a largish property surrounded by trees/forest/on a small mountain, and so insects are everywhere- but this noise seems excessive. It is always sunset (or sunrise) and the light is that eerie pink nuclear glow. Anyway, I enter my carport and there is billions of bees buzzing about around my car. They seem to be emerging from the underside. I imagine there is a nest there. I look under, there is no nest but there is a tall, thin man in a black suit and hat lying facedown, arms outstretched, mumbling crazy shit to himself. Something about this dream gets really terrifying at this point and I usually switch to another one or simply wake up. I cannot express how incredibly frightening this suited-man is. I wish I could hear what he saying! I wonder if I will see his face.
 
I wonder what ever happened to the poster feelgoodhit. He was a really great contributor here, and a top guy to boot, but he dropped off.

He's one of many that I wonder about, but I saw his name at the top of a thread and got excited only to see it was posted 6 years ago.
 
one of the oddest and sometimes hardest and more troubling parts of being a part of this site as a real community is wondering what happened to people who just disappeared and dropped off; we can hope that they're doing well, but can't be sure. I know that during my absence there were a few people to say I was OK but there were some pretty crazy rumors going around :P and nowadays as part of the smod team we're at times tasked with figuring out whether someone is dead or alive; and erring in either direction but particularly the first is no fun for anyone; I wish that we had more reliable ways.

I have sealed envelopes with an attorney to be given to family members in case certain circumstances eventuate, they include funeral arrangements and such, but actually since a few sort of recent incidents made me think added to that a way of making a definitive notification of Bluelight of my status and locking my account (by nothing fancier than putting random gibberish as the password and not keeping it) but the content I've produced for a memory and I hope for it's own worth as well

gosh, that's morbid, but I'm also encouraging other people to do the same; on a what-if basis, feelgoodhit, though, if memory serves, was a healthy young guy, but getting into what we're ... well, maybe he got out, maybe he got deeper in, hopefully; someone will know. I think most of who spend some time on here have some level of IRL contact with each other at the very least in terms of off-channel communication (instant messenger, facebook, phone numbers) and hopefully someone here could give an answer
 
^If you go back a few years, I recall asking about you and certainly heard some interesting, albeit concerning possibilities. One was that you were indeed deceased. Fortuntately not true. Hey, what a compliment, I should have said that to you immediately- Hey SKL, glad you're not dead! ;) I think this may have been either off-site or maybe in staff fora.

Yep, FGH was a younger man, possibly a teenager? I imagine that he grew out of it- I hope that's whats happened. But, I do not think I will ever know.
 
Yeah I've been wondering about him too.

But seriously, that's some literature, you've got something man, grab on and use it. Beautiful shit...
 
I would seriously experience something like euphoria if B9 posted again. I heard something troubling a while back that appeared to be debunked. He was a fucking interesting chap.
 
I always knew that I wouldn't be ready to be a father in years but after visiting my girlfriend and seeing her children I'm not sure if I will ever be. I can't fathom the strength of being a parent, constant worrying about your child etc. The utmost respect to her and all good parents in the world. I appreciate my mother so much for raising 2 boys alone. And I appreciate my life being so easy so much more than before.
 
F&B too, although his work has taken him to some strange places
kind of very much in his own legend, I've regular old druggies (non-Bluelighters/net.drugs.kids)
talking about "that dude with one hand that invented ketamine"
(obviously not being square in their facts, but still)

swilow said:
I would seriously experience something like euphoria if B9 posted again. I heard something troubling a while back that appeared to be debunked. He was a fucking interesting chap.
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this; and a few others from that era that we don't know about
again hopefully they've all just moved on from their druggie ways
but with some longer time lifestylers you'd have to imagine there's only so many options
(and I guess having moved in their sense on is always two of them)
a lot of legends have passed on that's for sure IRL and OBL alike
the worst is the presumptively-passed person you knew well/IRL (I have a couple)
As far as I know most people while I was gone thought I was in the can tbh
searching for one's name after a long absence is often interesting
(and sometimes flattering, sometimes less so, very often amusing;
people I didn't or barely even knew where repeating a story somewhere I told once about some hardcore shit I did
that'd undergone a few permutations (there was only one needle, not one in each arm :p), but was basically true,
the funny part was that I myself had completely forgotten about the story; that gave me a good laugh.)
 
I also miss B9 and F&B. I always thought of them (and a few others) as the BL elders. They had the knowledge and the wisdom and that cheeky European sense of humor. Shambles is still around but doesn't venture round these parts much anymore. F&B will forever be a legend.
I get a similar feeling of euphoria mixed with nostalgia when I see some of the regulars from 10 years ago pop in and say Hi.

I wonder about Youkai and Bluedolphin. I hope they're happy and safe.
What happened to Yaesutom? I remember him always being the first to try the DOx's as they came out. And if memory serves correct he was partly responsible for 4 aco dmt being synthed that first time many moons ago.

Things change and people change and some just put BL behind them and move on and grow up. I've tried to leave BL but always find myself coming back. These days more as a lurker than a contributor.

I'm not sure what I'm trying to say with this post. Too much 3 meo pcp these last few days/weeks is making it a little hard to organize my thoughts.
 
I miss B9 (I will forever think of him as zophen though) and F&B too. Really interesting dudes. I miss swirly Shambles too. We had some cool cats and some good times back in the day. Of course we have some cool cats here today too. :) It's just different.

xammy said:
I always knew that I wouldn't be ready to be a father in years but after visiting my girlfriend and seeing her children I'm not sure if I will ever be. I can't fathom the strength of being a parent, constant worrying about your child etc. The utmost respect to her and all good parents in the world. I appreciate my mother so much for raising 2 boys alone. And I appreciate my life being so easy so much more than before.
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Beautiful sentiment. <3
 
Delsyd said:
I also miss B9 and F&B. I always thought of them (and a few others) as the BL elders. They had the knowledge and the wisdom and that cheeky European sense of humor. Shambles is still around but doesn't venture round these parts much anymore. F&B will forever be a legend.
I get a similar feeling of euphoria mixed with nostalgia when I see some of the regulars from 10 years ago pop in and say Hi.

I wonder about Youkai and Bluedolphin. I hope they're happy and safe.
What happened to Yaesutom? I remember him always being the first to try the DOx's as they came out. And if memory serves correct he was partly responsible for 4 aco dmt being synthed that first time many moons ago.

Things change and people change and some just put BL behind them and move on and grow up. I've tried to leave BL but always find myself coming back. These days more as a lurker than a contributor.

I'm not sure what I'm trying to say with this post. Too much 3 meo pcp these last few days/weeks is making it a little hard to organize my thoughts.
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That is so nice to hear, I remember reading Bluedolphin's trip reports all the time...I feel exactly the same way man :) <3
 
SKL's post earlier made me realize that not a single person on here would know if I passed. Not plannin' on doin' that soon, but still... interesting thought.

So apparently Burns are a widespread thing and are pretty big here in my state. I had no idea; I was talking to a guy in my group at Renfest this weekend, he was telling me about his two times to BM in Nevada. He told me there's frequent burns here and I just need to look for them. Boy do I feel silly. Also, the guy had some gel tabs and was frying. I was feeling a bit queasy and sick, so I declined to try one, but I have never seen gel tabs before, so as you can imagine I was like "Lemme see them!" He seemed to have some good connections and I'm upset I didn't get his number. Hopefully if I start attending burns I'll be able to find my own connections anyways.

On another note, I don't think I can process booze any longer. All weekend I was queasy, even though I had maybe twelve beers over two nights max. I even gave away the last of my beer because I couldn't stomach even the thought of drinking it... and I was stone cold sober. I'm ready to go back to full blown stoner mode. Would have been fun to try a gel tab, and I missed out on that because of beer. In general, the whole weekend was like night/day in regards to my last Renfest weekend a month ago. Fewer people were there, the girls at naked jenga weren't as young and fetching, I was mostly sober the whole time. My girlfriend got drunker than I, and she barely drinks normally. Just a weird time... I'm feeling old more and more lately, yet I'm only 24.
 
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