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[xammy]

I never got injured in my life. Talk about luck! (Knocking on wood)

The Greek girl I was talking about earlier will come back to my city. I'm excited :D

 

[Cream Gravy?]

I had a concussion in 3rd grade. I fell in a YMCA gym when chasing a ball, fell flat on my noggin. Of course, my folks took me to the doctor, they got me all sorted out... but they made me wear a freaking helmet when I was in gym class for the rest of the year. I looked like a stereotypical handicapped kid, and to an 8 year old that can be very traumatizing. I doubt anyone actually remembers me looking as such, but God was I embarrassed and ashamed at the time.

Going to the science museum today with my SO. We always have fun, I'm quite excited haven't decided if I wana try n' sneak my vape pen in with me; they do a "Dark Side of the Moon" light show in the planetarium each day

 

[Xorkoth]

Sorry for the double post but this got me wanting to rant;

I'm sure some of you guys have had concussions and what-not but I can't stress how bad they can be for you. For some reason I always ended up falling on my head when I got injured. When I was about 13-14 I started a 4 year span where I just constantly kept having major blows to my noggin', I had one where I fell on concrete while standing. The dumbest thing I ever did was not go to the hospital that night even though I had fluid building up under my scalp. I watched an alarm clock in triple vision for a few days, slurred my words for months, and pretty much taught myself how to talk correctly and socially interact again. By the time I had healed up I wasn't even the same person anymore and had lost a ton of my memories from before the accident. People that I grew up with and was good friends with might as well not even existed because I don't remember them, don't know them, and have to fake my way through a conversation with them whenever I see them. I know everyone has that happen from time to time but for me it's with everyone aside from the few close friends I had around the time when I got injured.

It really fucking sucks but lately I've been remembering more from my child hood. Most of those memories center around family though. It's odd because otherwise my mind is a steel trap (it always was), if I hear something or learn something for the first time it sticks with me forever and I have impeccable recall. I don't know if I have a photographic memory or whatever they call it now but I've always knew I was a little better at doing these things than most of the general population. So even though I'm a lot dumber than before I damaged my brain I'm still above average in that department. The main thing I've never been able to really recover is begin social. I can not read faces or tone anymore to save my life, unless you spell something out in detail to me I will not get the emotional tone of it. My own emotions became very blunted too; Things rarely make me laugh and when they do it hurts (back of my head feels like an ice pick). Extreme anger is about the only emotion I feel strongly anymore but that's very rare. When I do go off people know it's best to stay out of my way because it takes a while before I calm back down.

Wow man, that's intense. Sorry you have to deal with that. Concussions are fucked up, definitely. Sounds like you had a really, really severe one. My girlfriend has a friend who had a series of bad concussions years back... each one got worse and the doctor told her that another could kill her. She has long-term deficits in brain function too.

I've had 2 or 3 really minor concussions... the worst was when I was diving into my friend's 4 foot deep pool. I'm a good swimmer/diver so shallow diving is easy for me, but I was doing it repeatedly throughout the day, and we were getting more and more drunk. Finally I misjudged and clunked my head on the bottom. It was so hard that my friends heard it loudly from outside the pool. I came up and felt dazed. The rest of the day I felt like I was in a cloud, I barely talked and every time they asked if I was okay, I for some reason I was adamantly opposed to saying I wasn't fine. I was fine the next day.

 

[Img_9999]

I'm convinced that a good 50% of health problems are merely the result of hypochondria, stress, and / or other psychological factors. A healthy mind = a healthy body.

I agree with that, but I'll add that the opposite is also true, a healthy body is essential for a healthy mind. Good diet and regular exercise really help keeping your mind clear and anxieties low. Well, it's an already old truth, "mens sana in corpore sana".

I really do believe as well that many health problems are definitely anxiety/hypochondria related. I see it in my girlfriend, there was a time she was dealing with a lot of stress and anxiety and during that period she kept getting all sort of weird medical incidents. Now she's doing a lot better.

 

[HeadphonesandLSD]

Wow man, that's intense. Sorry you have to deal with that. Concussions are fucked up, definitely. Sounds like you had a really, really severe one. My girlfriend has a friend who had a series of bad concussions years back... each one got worse and the doctor told her that another could kill her. She has long-term deficits in brain function too.

I really hate to hear that, I know exactly what she is going through. It's an invisible disability too, it isn't like having a bum leg or something other people can see. You don't get cut any slack with a brain injury unless it's _very_ obvious that you're totally out of your mind. When I was recovering from the last one and slurring words people just assumed I was drunk all of the time. It was even worse because I was still in high school, it eventually caused me to leave because I just couldn't handle begin around loud places and all those people for a few months. I couldn't think at all either, doing any type of school work was useless, before the fall everything was easy.

Next time you see that person give them a hug for me.

I've had 2 or 3 really minor concussions... the worst was when I was diving into my friend's 4 foot deep pool. I'm a good swimmer/diver so shallow diving is easy for me, but I was doing it repeatedly throughout the day, and we were getting more and more drunk. Finally I misjudged and clunked my head on the bottom. It was so hard that my friends heard it loudly from outside the pool. I came up and felt dazed. The rest of the day I felt like I was in a cloud, I barely talked and every time they asked if I was okay, I for some reason I was adamantly opposed to saying I wasn't fine. I was fine the next day.

You might have felt fine but you probably weren't for some time. I was told any minor blow even a year later would be worse due to the previous one. It takes your brain a long time to recover and I don't think it ever does 100%. I've felt fine the day after minor ones too and even gotten them and continued playing/riding but they all added up eventually. I've had three major ones that I know of, two riding motorcross and the other from the fall. The fall was the worse of the bunch because I wasn't wearing a helmet. The first one I had was pretty bad also because I was going about 60mph when I hung a tree and got thrown off my quad, I landed head first and my head bounced a few times before I finally came to a full stop. I remember yelling "I'm okay" and undoing the straps on my helmet and trying to stand up. Everything after that is a blank, aside from one memory of begin in the waiting room at the ER with my helmet in my lap. I looked around the room and everyone in it was staring at me and I didn't know why, they all looked very concerned.

That was the day my Dad stopped riding and refused to even ride casually with just me from then on, it was a sad day just because that. We had 90+ acres of trails we'd made ourselves on his Uncle's land. I used to ride them as fast as I could every day (training) and he'd join me on weekends and sometimes after work in the summer time. He always had a little bit of an edge on me but by the time of that concussion I had pulled even in everything but holeshots.

I really do believe as well that many health problems are definitely anxiety/hypochondria related. I see it in my girlfriend, there was a time she was dealing with a lot of stress and anxiety and during that period she kept getting all sort of weird medical incidents. Now she's doing a lot better.

I think that too, when I'm down/depressed I'm always having some type of pain somewhere. When I'm doing new things that I enjoy or have things going my way little things don't seem to be as big as a problem. I guess you have other stuff to focus on so you don't dwell on the fact that something is hurting and could be serious. If you go to a lot of doctors they'll tell you anything to keep you coming back or to get you on some pill. That's why I generally avoid them but when I have to go I make sure to go to one I trust.

 

[solistus]

So, last night I got a healthy reminder of the importance of careful labeling of physically nondescript white powders

I had weighed out a gelcap of MDMA and a gelcap of 2C-B on separate occasions, and at some point I lost track of which was which. In fact, I totally forgot the 2C-B pill was still floating around in my drug collection. You can probably see where this one is going - I took a gelcap that I thought was a moderate dose of molly, then found another gelcap and realized that the one I had taken was actually a rather high dose of 2C-B. Oops!* I briefly considered trying to make myself vomit, but I decided to go with the proverbial flow.

I'm not sure what the exact dose was, but IIRC it was well over 30mg, maybe more like 40-45. Not the most 2C-B I've ever taken, but the most I've taken as a standalone initial dose, as opposed to a redose or a combo with something that would produce cross-tolerance. Whatever the dose was, it was one of the most intense and enjoyable 2C trips I've ever had. At the peak, I was experiencing incredible OEV distortions (very colorful, as 2C visuals tend to be in my experience - but not just a little breathing walls here and patterning on the ceiling there, my whole room looked like a lightshow at a rave). I remember trying to walk to the bathroom (which is immediately next to my bedroom) and being so confused by visual and tactile distortions that I had to carefully backtrack and grab my iPad to light my way. I tried to feel my way to the bathroom lightswitch, but ended up grabbing onto a towel on the opposite wall, and couldn't work out a basic sense of direction to find the lightswitch from there without potentially making a huge mess. I was lucid enough to realize that I should avoid making a mess, and that light would help - the whole trip was remarkably lucid, given that it was intense enough to make walking in a straight line quite a challenge.

At some point I managed to make my way outside for a cigarette, and the road noises I could hear in the background sounded strange and otherworldly. The streetlights seemed impossibly bright and the trees in our front lawn danced in them. I'm glad it was 4 in the morning and not another soul was up and about on my street, because I was probably way too deep in hyperspace to play it off as being drunk - but again, I was lucid enough to realize that the odds of anyone being out on my street at 4am on a weekday were remote, and the odds that any such person would pay any attention to me, let alone try to talk to me or interact with me, were basically nil.

Somewhat surprisingly, it was very much a 'recreational' trip - not a lot of emotional or intellectual heavy lifting was asked of me, just a couple hour jaunt into a colorful, pleasantly bewildering psychedelic dreamscape. The stimulation wasn't even overly intense, as I would expect it to be with high doses of 2Cs - I definitely couldn't have fallen asleep during the peak, but I didn't feel overstimulated or jittery and I was able to sleep comfortably by ~t+6 or so. All in all, a very pleasant evening, albeit not one that went quite according to plan.

* - I don't mean to trivialize the importance of keeping track of this sort of thing - in different circumstances, a mistake like that could have had serious consequences - but I knew that I would be taking both gelcaps myself at some point as opposed to giving them to anyone else, and I knew that I had never capped a dose of either drug that was more than I could safely handle. And I was planning on a quiet night at home anyway, so being more obviously impaired than I intended to be wasn't a big problem. Fortunately this moment of stupidity resulted in nothing more than an interesting night and a funny story, but I'll definitely go back to my old ways of meticulously labeling all the things.

 

[kidklmx]

Heh, I once spilled an LSD dropper vial on a magazine. Taking that was a complete russian roulette since the paper was so unevenly saturated, though it never got out of hand. Too much of a hassle to take though, a lot of paper for an active dose, and I don't reckon the ink used for printing the magazine is very good for you (very bad taste in my mouth), so I eventually threw it away. I didn't spill everything luckily, so it wasn't that terrible, but those doses cost me a lot of money due to the loss. Even at a festival it's cheaper

I also have some dose of 4-HO-MET in a parachute. Been contemplating taking it, since I once redosed 5 minutes too soon and that accidental OD was bloody awesome.

But yeah, gambling with psychedelics isn't the best idea in terms of HR. I know that random dose isn't too insane, since I made it myself, but never just take a randome dose of something.

 

[Crashing]

Speaking of which, I was staying with a family that i met on craigslist (not recommended) for a while a few years back. Their younger daughter got into my unmarked stash and in hopes of scoring a bump of pentylone or methylone to keep her roll going that night, she accidentally dipped into the unmarked 5-meo-mipt a little too hard while i was working the night shift.

Needless to say I had a very irate mother to deal with upon arriving home. "WHAT THE HELL DID YOU GIVE MY DAUGHTER" "She stole it i swear!" It wasn't good. Apparently she was extremely paranoid and hostile and almost got a trip to the hospital before calming down - thankfully.

 

[xammy]

holy shit, thats why i always keep my drugs locked. 5-meo-mipt overdose could be fatal huh? i've read at least some people having seizures when dosing high with it. I've never taken more than 10-15mg orally but once I vaporized over 50mg over the night I think. I also drank a lot of beer. My heart was pounding like hell when I got home and tried to sleep. I don't think I have taken it since, I don't remember anyway.

 

[kidklmx]

Meh 8mg is more than enough for me with 5-MeO-MiPT. Don't want to rail a 30mg line of that stuff for sure. A friend took too much from my baggie and experienced ego death, but he didn't seem in physical danger, and it wasn't more than 15mg I'm sure of it.

 

[xammy]

Yeah 8mg is a great dose, once I took that with a cannabis edible and it was incredible.

 

[HeadphonesandLSD]

Too much of a hassle to take though, a lot of paper for an active dose, and I don't reckon the ink used for printing the magazine is very good for you (very bad taste in my mouth), so I eventually threw it away.

The ink isn't good for you but ingesting a little probably wouldn't hurt you much depending on what type of ink it is. The real toxic stuff is what we use to treat the paper/ink/plates. My first job was in a printing shop, worked there from the time I was 7 on up until my late teens and eventually become the manager of the entire place. We had some chemicals we used that would kill you within minutes if you ingested even just a little bit of them. Any time I had a new hire I would take them around the shop and show them all the ways they could easily kill/hurt themselves. One chemical in particular (I forget what it was called now) was the main one I told them to never ever get near, if you got a little in your eyes/mouth you'd be dead before I could get you to the door.

Meh 8mg is more than enough for me with 5-MeO-MiPT. Don't want to rail a 30mg line of that stuff for sure. A friend took too much from my baggie and experienced ego death, but he didn't seem in physical danger, and it wasn't more than 15mg I'm sure of it.

I could tolerate high doses of moxy pretty well although a couple of times it was unpleasant. My sweet spot with it was 10-15mg (with tolerance) but I consumed 25mg or so one day and had a really good time on it. Another high dose at a festival destroyed me, it wasn't as much as the one I took at home but it was at least 20mg. Lesson learned, don't attempt to eye ball powerful things in a dark tent.

 

[kidklmx]

Yeah a friend of mine works at a chemical factory, some of the things he works with are extremely dangerous too, they take some extreme safety precautions. Crazy though that they'd let basically a kid work with chemicals like that. Not a comment on your qualities btw, but it's just weird any adult would think that's a good idea.

Though the ink wasn't the main reason anyways, mostly holding 5 pages of a 5cmx10cm piece in your mouth for 15 minutes is a sucky experience (or swallowing it)

 

[HeadphonesandLSD]

Yeah a friend of mine works at a chemical factory, some of the things he works with are extremely dangerous too, they take some extreme safety precautions. Crazy though that they'd let basically a kid work with chemicals like that. Not a comment on your qualities btw, but it's just weird any adult would think that's a good idea.

If it wasn't owned by family I would have never been allowed in the place at that age. I didn't start working with chemicals until I turned 12 but I did most everything else. It's a wonder I got out of there with all my fingers.

 

[HeadphonesandLSD]

Sorry for double post didn't want to clutter up my last one with this.

Been working on getting my work computer like I want it all morning. I've been so busy the last few months that I was still running a nearly default aero theme. Here's my Windows 7 partition/desktop, lemme know what y'all think and show me yours if you're so inclined. I always love seeing how other people have their stuff set-up. :D

Still need to get my other 2 monitors hooked back up...waiting on a day that I can get my old desk from the shop and move it in. The one I have right now is so small that I can only fit my two 27-inch monitors on it. Can't wait to get my 21-inch CRT and 32-inch 4K tv hooked back up. I'm ready to get my main monitor out of landscape and sitting vertical permanently, I miss having all that space for seeing text/code. Also need to modify the .dll that controls the start button so I can get rid of that ugly default icon in it. :D

<don't dox me bro >

 

[Xorkoth]

It's funny, I am a computer programmer for a living, but I don't actually care that much about computers and I know next to nothing about hardware and networking. I love programming though, it's an art form to me. I have a work computer, my last computer that was actually mine is really old and shitty now, not sure if it even still works. I get a new work computer (leased) every 3 years. Right now I have a laptop which is pretty good with a docking station, and a large monitor so I have a 2-monitor setup when it's docked and it's just like having a desktop. I could never go back to 1 monitor, the 2-monitor thing is so crucial, especially for work where I can have 2 things open and look at them simultaneously without having to switch between windows.

 

[xammy]

I don't program but 2 monitors is a must. I also bought a new mechanical keyboard a while ago, it's amazing. I don't know how I didn't do it before. :D

I managed to stay sober yesterday and I'm looking to be sober today too.

 

[SKL]

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you give away a good deal about yourself with those two pictures. doxx yourself, even, if I bothered; but anyway mostly I like what I see so what up kid

 

[solistus]

My desktop is quite boring. I used to go all out with fancy rainmeter setups, but I never actually look at my desktop so I eventually gave up on it.

For some reason, I've never really warmed up to multi-monitor setups. I actually have a second monitor sitting on my desk, currently right behind the one I'm using, but I haven't bothered to clear space on my desk to line them up side by side and plug the second one in. Now that I killed my 970 and am back to using my 2GB 770, I'm even more wary of taxing my VRAM further by rendering another screen simultaneously. A single 21:9 display feels a little cramped trying to look at two windows side by side, but it's usually doable. I also make heavy use of an alwaysontop hotkey to float small windows above larger ones. The only time I really feel like I'd make good use of a second display is when I'm gaming - it would be nice to have a dedicated display for when I want to look something up on the game's wiki or control a playlist on Google Play Music - but that's also the situation where I can least afford to sacrifice any VRAM.

 

[HeadphonesandLSD]

It's funny, I am a computer programmer for a living, but I don't actually care that much about computers and I know next to nothing about hardware and networking. I love programming though, it's an art form to me. I have a work computer, my last computer that was actually mine is really old and shitty now, not sure if it even still works. I get a new work computer (leased) every 3 years. Right now I have a laptop which is pretty good with a docking station, and a large monitor so I have a 2-monitor setup when it's docked and it's just like having a desktop. I could never go back to 1 monitor, the 2-monitor thing is so crucial, especially for work where I can have 2 things open and look at them simultaneously without having to switch between windows.

No shit? What do you work on, if you can mention it without giving yourself away I'd love to hear. I've mostly done webdev stuff over the years but I'm more into embedded stuff now. I've dabbled in C/C++ for many years but I've never really done much with it. Trying to learn m68k assembly at the moment, well I've been doing that off and on for years just never have the time to really dive into it. My professional skills with computers fall more on the hardware/networking side but I do a little bit of everything with them.

you give away a good deal about yourself with those two pictures. doxx yourself, even, if I bothered; but anyway mostly I like what I see so what up kid

Yea I know man, I blocked most of the important stuff but you could probably track me down because I always miss something. I recently purged all my data from the social networks that I used so there isn't anything to see. Not really concerned about getting doxed anymore since I have bigger things to worry about. I'm too boring to end up as a lolcow and I'm on several watch lists already for this and that. Worse case you'd find some forum posts from 1998 or there about, I've always practiced opsec so it'd be hard to tie this account to any others I used over the years.

My desktop is quite boring. I used to go all out with fancy rainmeter setups, but I never actually look at my desktop so I eventually gave up on it.

For some reason, I've never really warmed up to multi-monitor setups.

I can't go back to just one monitor the second/third one is just so useful. I was like you until I finally made the jump to having more than one. I work with a lot of video so begin able to see results full screen as I edit/script saves a lot of time. Like Xor said it's good when you're programming too, when I still did a lot of webdev it was so helpful. When I'm playing games I use the second screen for communicating with people outside of the game. I'm constantly clicking over there to message people back or look stuff up.