Cream Gravy?
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Bipolar is a bitch, I'm sorry to hear you're going through that I have pretty bad moodswings myself and at times have had psychiatrists tell me my mania has been symptomatic of Bipolar disorders but I always just walk away from the drugs they offer. If SSRIs, SNRIs, TCAs, any of those actually had scientific fact backing their use as anxiety/mental disorder treatment, I'd be willing to give up tripping for stability... but fact of the matter is my wife can't stand when I'm on any of those types of medications. I lose my libido, I'll get easily angry and snap at her, etc.I went for moodswings (probably bipolar II, maybe I), and by now it has gotten so that I’m never really ‘normal’ again. The main problem is that the extremes get more extreme and last longer with time, so who knows what happens in like a year after I just go about my business. She also saw me just after I just blanked a night so I was obviously a manic mess, but I’m much more calmed down now.
Incredibly shitty situation, I’d honestly hate to have to give up tripping on top of everything, it’s the only time where I can get a true look into my behaviour.
I dunno man, do what you feel is right. You can always try out a treatment and if the side-effects are too much, taper off and drop whatever they put you on. I tried everything the doctors threw at me for my IBS disorder (they all thought I was just anxious) and my God were the side-effects bad from mental-meds... When I finally got put on alprazolam my life got a little normality. Not saying that's your answer, but rather that I can empathize with that difficult decision: at what point do the side-effects outweigh the relief?