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Had a PET scan last week to see how my tumors are doing before my upcoming high dose chemotherapy. Got the results today. My doctor was pleasantly surprised to see that my tumors were showing no uptake of the fluoroglucose that they use for radioimaging. Meaning that while they're still there, they appear to be inactive. The "maintainence" regular dose chemotherapy they were giving me while we waited on Medicaid to approve the high dose stuff must have worked a lot better than we expected. Really good news, and a good sign that this coming treatment might finally get me back to good.
 
pharmakos said:
Had a PET scan last week to see how my tumors are doing before my upcoming high dose chemotherapy. Got the results today. My doctor was pleasantly surprised to see that my tumors were showing no uptake of the fluoroglucose that they use for radioimaging. Meaning that while they're still there, they appear to be inactive. The "maintainence" regular dose chemotherapy they were giving me while we waited on Medicaid to approve the high dose stuff must have worked a lot better than we expected. Really good news, and a good sign that this coming treatment might finally get me back to good.
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That's amazing man, I'm really glad to hear it. :)
 
Vortech, I can sympathize with your living situation. About five years or so ago my girlfriend and I got into a lease with some folks that looked great at the outset but devolved pretty quickly into a hellish situation. Fortunately, we only had to put up with it for a year before moving. I hope you're able to make some positive changes soon! Sounds like work might be the thing to tackle first?

Pharmakos, that is good news, indeed! A spoonful of sugar, etc. :D

KneelB4Doom said:
Mad excited to hit the gym. Squats and deads son!
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^ *feigns enthusiasm* =D=D

I get the importance of "leg day," but does anybody really enjoy walking around on jellyfish tentacles the rest of the afternoon? :\
 
Actually yeah, when I was into the routine of working out I really would get excited to go, and I loved the feeling afterwards. I got really into it after I did ibogaine and got off opiates, for a couple of years. I really need to get back into it, I've devolved greatly in terms of being in shape. I hurt my shoulder and then my elbow (not from working out) and got out of the habit and now it feels hard to do it again.
 
So ive been up since monday right, and yesterday i made sure i made food and ate a few times right, i actually ate a decent amount of food-not healthy but its better than not eating.
My dad this morning saw me and said those eyes arent right (theyre not even dilated, i dont look bad, when i looked wrecked monday night he didnt notice..hes dumb)
i countered with the fact that i ate and drank yesterday and he initially said YOU CANT PROVE YOU ATE and i said how i ate pork you made last night and i was microwavin stuff and then he chilled out when he kinda realized that with (what he knows about me on meth...he never caught me looking fucked up from shard more than 2 or 3 times at best..one of the most hilarious fights between my dad and me happened cause i was "making noise" trying to find a lighter, and i had my speed that was maybe a quarter gram of shake and idr whaf else and i was a few steps away from the table they were on so i ran over grabbed everything i thought and put it in the front pouch of the sweater i had on, i refused to show him what i had in my pocket and i go out to smoke a cigarette and at this point i think my mom woke up and came down and my dad locks the door when i try to open it and holds up my shit and says WHATS THIS WHITE POWDER HUH
I screamed YOU TELL ME YOUD KNOW ALL ABOUT WHITE POWDER BITCH and then my mom ended up taking my side.
Idk man the night before i went to the nut ward i decided that i was gonna essentially be super loud and go in cause i was still mad she supposedly told people that if i kept doing yamz shed get her son to "teach me a lesson", but obviously this was never said to me.
Idk essentially for whatever reason shard specifically makes me feel a certain way sometimes where i just come up with the absolute funniest smart shit to say like I GOT A WARRANT FOR POSSESSION WITH INTENT TO DISTRIBUTE DEM YAMZ ALL OVER AISLE 7.
Maybe tonight ill try to see if i can do funnier ones. It sounds dumb but this chick got super mad one night when i said GET DEM YAMZ loud in this kermit like voice i can do so i started doing it every night. I got in trouble for it once but ive done it since then and honestly idc id be happy if i got fired so i could get back to normal sleep schedule and all that.
Im going to see how i can do tonight, i have to feel this particular way that i cant necessarily describe and then i go from not controlling my words to somehow speaking without knowing how i came up with what i did.
 
Man I can say with certainty that when you're using meth for any length of time continuously, everyone can fucking tell. It makes your face and eyes look different. My best friend from childhood started doing it a while back, I don't see him often but I saw him over Christmas and I could immediately tell what was going on when I first saw him, in that very first moment. My whole family could tell too. He didn't think anyone could tell but everyone could.

Your parents are just worried about you man. Take care of yourself. <3
 
vortech said:
Welp, I find myself in a prison of my own creation, and I've lost my keys (or perhaps it is the map that I need...)
Better than one not of my creation, but the fact still stands.
In other words I need an out of this live/work situation I am in, and I have no idea how to go about that. Obviously I need to make some money in some way because that is the only thing literally stopping me from removing myself from the situation because as it is I am sacrificing far too much of my energy and sanity just for room and board, and with that amount of responsibility its not even possible for me to take on a job that actually pays me. The whole situation is increasingly bullshit in so many ways that it would be comical if it wasn't so wrong.
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I feel you, Vortech. Even if I'm satisfied with my professional life as I got a job that I enjoy and find it contributes to my growth as an individual, balancing my career/monetary needs with my non-professional passions and interests have been one of the hardest challenges of my adult life.

I'm sure you'll find a way out of it, though. Keep your vibrational momentum rolling !



Also, Pharmakos, I'm genuinely happy for your good news. Take care, man <3
 
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Welp, I said my peace in the face of fear, I spoke my truth, and it hath set me free. A huge weight has been lifted off my throat chakra. Anxiety gone poof. Space for new doors to open and all that metaphorical jazz. Next 5 days are gonna be real interesting.
 
Cream Gravy? said:
^Lame. Twin Peaks is literally my favorite show of all time. Nothing else comes close.
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I did enjoy the first season, but then I felt like the second one lost lot's of momentum. I did like the experimenting with different directors thing they did, but it felt mostly filler to me in some regards.
May I ask what you liked so much about it (: ? No irony, just curious about your opinion.

Sometimes I think I miss some dimension of the show for not being american. Can't exactly explain what, I mean I'm sure that's not a pre-requisite for enjoying the show, but there´s the "iconic" nature of Twin Peaks as a town, I feel there's something almost archetypical in some regards that I may miss some hues of for not being raised and educated in the north american culture. But maybe just a false idea I'm entertaining.
 
I think that's most likely a factor, Img, the archetypes at play.

For me the first season and first 7-9 episodes of S02 are just perfect. An atmosphere or ambiance unparalleled to anything else I've ever seen, dialogue and character progression that's out of this world good, amazing acting, soundtrack to make you cry your eyes out, etc.

I couldn't make it past the second season lull though. I'd heard it got bad but I figured it couldn't be that bad, and c'mon, I love the show so much! No matter how bad I love this canon! But no.... Jesus....... One episode I realized, huh, this isn't as good as everything before it. Then the next, wow this is getting bad. Then the next, holy mother of god this blows. Then the episode where they're all in the house after the second funeral, :p Absolute shit. I stopped it 15 minutes in and never watched another second of that season.


Vortech: go you!

Pharmakos: you got this brother :)
 
hey pharmakos, i'm glad to hear you got some encouraging results.
i hope you're coping alright with the sickness and the treatment.
 
iamthetalker said:
^ *feigns enthusiasm* =D=D

I get the importance of "leg day," but does anybody really enjoy walking around on jellyfish tentacles the rest of the afternoon? :\
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Hell yeah! That's just what growth feels like. I've been growing since I was a baby. Growing is my shit:)
 
psy997 said:
For me the first season and first 7-9 episodes of S02 are just perfect. An atmosphere or ambiance unparalleled to anything else I've ever seen, dialogue and character progression that's out of this world good, amazing acting, soundtrack to make you cry your eyes out, etc.

I couldn't make it past the second season lull though.
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Okay, I agree with all you said.
Glad I'm not the only one then :P. It's got quite a cult status, even outside of the US, but I never loved it as much as everyone else seems to.
 
Unless i was heari g things i am goin to jail. Pretty sure i heard a woman telling my dad that i wasdbeing charged with something methamphetamine and unless what i thought was a delusion with somepne trying to get me to give him meth actually was real it has something to do with them alleging they can prove i committed additional offenses when i would have purchased it.
This could be just a hallucination but im pretty sure its real
 
I didnt even bpther flushing what i had cause if they are hitting me for PWID or somehow i broke laws on top of the shard being illegal.
Idk though felonies i dont think i wouldnt go to trial. I can do a year or two anyway.
 
vortech said:
Welp, I find myself in a prison of my own creation, and I've lost my keys (or perhaps it is the map that I need...)
Better than one not of my creation, but the fact still stands.
In other words I need an out of this live/work situation I am in, and I have no idea how to go about that. Obviously I need to make some money in some way because that is the only thing literally stopping me from removing myself from the situation because as it is I am sacrificing far too much of my energy and sanity just for room and board, and with that amount of responsibility its not even possible for me to take on a job that actually pays me. The whole situation is increasingly bullshit in so many ways that it would be comical if it wasn't so wrong. I'm not going in to details because I have to actively not think about it to save my sanity, but it is clear as day I am being taken advantage of for as long as I allow it. They do not have my interests in mind and there is so room for growth, This sentiment has been bubbling up for a week or two, but the last few days the line is officially crossed. I just have to hold my card long enough to execute an exit plan.
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<3


pharmakos said:
Had a PET scan last week to see how my tumors are doing before my upcoming high dose chemotherapy. Got the results today. My doctor was pleasantly surprised to see that my tumors were showing no uptake of the fluoroglucose that they use for radioimaging. Meaning that while they're still there, they appear to be inactive. The "maintainence" regular dose chemotherapy they were giving me while we waited on Medicaid to approve the high dose stuff must have worked a lot better than we expected. Really good news, and a good sign that this coming treatment might finally get me back to good.
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That's good news mate, I'm fucking pleased!! :)<3
 
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