☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread: Firly Swolks Discussing Mitillating Tatters Fithout Wilters

[KneelB4Doom]

Whats drugs, my dealer?

Just picked up some vials of trippin nectar!

 

[solistus]

So, Sara just broke up with me. I haven't taken a breakup this hard since I was a teenager...

I'm kinda glad I don't have access to opioids right now, because that would probably make the depressive spiral I can already feel myself falling into worse and more destructive. But I also kinda wish I had opioids, because I really, really don't want to be feeling feels right now :/

 

[swilow]

^Hey mate, I'm so sorry to hear that Sara and you broke up I'm glad you don't have opioids too, they would make things worse.

May not help, but I promise you that time will heal your pain much better.

Feel free to vent

 

[solistus]

I wish I even knew how to vent about this. I've had messy, nasty, awful breakups before that really stung, but at least I had the luxury of transferring all that negative emotion into being angry at my ex instead of directing them all back into self-loathing. I've had civil, polite, 'no fault' breakups before, but I always at least sort of saw them coming and they never hurt this much. I'm an insecure mess in new relationships, and this was the first time in a LONG time that I felt like I had gotten over those early "I'm not sure if this person actually likes me or is just humoring me / waiting for someone better to come along" self doubts and start to feel comfortable and safe really opening up to someone. Then, out of the blue, bam - I get the "you're great and I like spending time with you, I just don't feel that spark and don't want to lead you on" talk. I picked up the phone an hour ago with a smile on my face, thinking we were going to make plans to see each other this weekend, and 15 minutes later I was sobbing into my pillow.

Part of me wants to be mad at her for not giving me more to go on - something I did that I shouldn't have, or didn't do that I should have, or some hint of cruelty or pettiness on her part so I could have the luxury of blaming her. Another, larger part of me is angry and disgusted at myself for even entertaining that thought. All of me is very sad.

Well, on the bright side - it looks like I got the hang of venting about this :/

 

[swilow]

I've had one break up, my first ever love. It was me that did it, I cheated on her (with miss swilow ) but that was so incredibly painful. I still sort of feel it. 13 years later.

Better to have loved and lost than to never have loved... Cliche but true.

What was her reason?

Anyway mate, all the best, I wish I could say more to ease your pain. But you will get better in time..

 

[Jabberwocky]

Hey Solistus,

I am very sorry to hear about your breakup.

I have always hated the words, "It's just not working out". I have had a couple women use it to break up with me, and one boss that used it to fire me. In all of those instances, I believed that everything was just fine up until that moment, and it hit me like a ton of bricks.

It just seems like a really poor (and meaningless) excuse. I have even spoken to my therapist about it, and he agrees that everybody should at least try to explain their reason(s) a bit better than that. I also understand that sometimes that's hard to do. Maybe they themselves don't really know what "it" is that isn't working out, but they should still make an attempt to talk it out.

I was on the other end of this situation once, and I didn't handle it very well. The young lady was a friend of mine who clearly wanted to be more, but I just didn't think of her that way. Well, when we first met I did, but then she became almost like a sister to me (from my perspective) and I didn't quite know how to explain it. I "handled" it by merely losing touch with her over time, not returning her calls and so forth. I feel terrible about it now, but this was years ago and I was not very good at expressing my feelings back then.

You've probably heard this a million times before, but it will get better with time. The end of any relationship sucks big fat hairy [insert your least favorite body part here], especially when it happens without any warning or reason. Hang in there my friend. As you already know, this website has some amazing and caring people on it, so you've chosen a good place to vent.

Peace, Love and Faith,
Dreamflyer

 

[Forever Jung]

^---^/ hello there, hope I didn't interrupt. I took 300ug like it was cool, look at me now ooposiedasies....solistus! I wish u all my blessings that is a name that goes way way back!! bluelight.ru status oldshchool

its the kind of pain that even future opiates couldn't come close to addressing

I wish you peace from Colorado, USA

 

[swilow]

^Awesome username dude

 

[tokezu]

So this morning I went on the internet to check the news and see how the protesting and rioting is going and what the general level of aggression looks like to decide whether I'm going to go to a protest against the G20 today. This was the first picture that I saw:

NSFW:

Yeah wow... somebody seems to have seen those cop/soldier hybrids at the Furguson protests and thought to themselves: That's exactly what we need here!

 

[tremours]

right now i think a abig hit of salvia will do me good

 

[Forever Jung]

^ howd that work out for ya?

Coming down from what was supposed to be a 300ug artwalk dose of some 1p, nothing to scoff at but should be able to handle my shit in public.

I knew something was up when the first alerts presented themselves within 15 minutes of putting the tabs on my cheek. Things progressed to the point where after an hour I was starting to lose touch with reality pretty regularly so I had my sober genius drive us home early :/ The rest of the night was colorful, deep, and mystical, even felt the presence of the divine at one point(i.e my deep deep subconscious), everything one would ever hope and want from a 700ug experience lol...here's what I think happened

I had gotten a sheet of the 1p a while back and noticed some of the tabs had a blue'ish tinge to them like the black ink had been exposed to solvent a bit longer than other spots on the sheet. So I saved these tabs for last just incase they were heavily dosed. Well about halfway thru the sheet and all the plain ole' white tabs had been eaten, so why not take 3 of the blue"ish" ones...WHEEEE!!!! I remember "pupnik" had said something about he had seen a similar sheet so I just wanted to give the heads up.

I remember my first, two-tab "sample" of the 1p was quite blue tinged, after taking 2 of those I knew I wanted a lifetime supply so who knows maybe the blue ones really are strong AF, further experimentation is required (and will be conducted!!)

I posted a (deleted by me) thread about this a while back when I first noticed the discoloration and have PM'd SoliPs hoping to get the thread un-deleted as there were some decent anon pictures I had posted there

 

[tremours]

pretty good realy

 

[tremours]

salvia is very strange but not recreitiongal at alll

 

[iamthetalker]

So this morning I went on the internet to check the news and see how the protesting and rioting is going and what the general level of aggression looks like to decide whether I'm going to go to a protest against the G20 today. This was the first picture that I saw:

NSFW:

Yeah wow... somebody seems to have seen those cop/soldier hybrids at the Furguson protests and thought to themselves: That's exactly what we need here!

Well when you've got a not-insignificant portion of the protesters inciting violence against police and setting cars on fire it's hard to argue the presence of riot police. The rifles seem a bit extreme, though...any chance they're non-lethal? Violent protesters are like children. Yes, you draw attention to yourself but it sure doesn't garner any sympathy. And you ruin protesting for the good folks who try to do it properly. Everyone should use the umbrella movement in Hong Kong a few years ago as an example of how to do it right: Gather thousands of like-minded people, protest peacefully for a couple of weeks largely without incident, garner international sympathy for your cause, and let your oppressive government continue to have its way with little to no change--which, let's face it, it was going to anyway--all while avoiding any unnecessary death, destruction of property, or arrests. (Well, a few arrests of the more vocal opposition are to be expected, but there's no need to exacerbate the number!)

 

[Kaden_Nite]

salvia is very strange but not recreitiongal at alll

After watching an episode of Hamilton's Pharmacopeia where he chews it instead of smoking, I would very much like to give that a try. Looked like he was in a really euphoric dissociative space. I agree that smoking it is strange and not much else, but chewing it actually seems really interesting. Unfortunately Salvia has been scheduled here in Australia, so it's a bit difficult to come by now.

 

[tokezu]

No I don't think those rifles are non-lethal.

Violent protesters are like children. Yes, you draw attention to yourself but it sure doesn't garner any sympathy.

IME a lot of them still are more or less children. And it's not about gaining sympathy obviously, I think it is about being taking serious for once at least. Not that I want to justify violence, but I understand very well the frustration with just holding up your sign, when it's clear that the people you are adressing just don't give a shit and instead wanting to do something "real" that just cannot be ignored.

But I think I mostly agree with you, non-violent protest is the way to go.

 

[KneelB4Doom]

adderall loud an adderall

 

[Cream Gravy?]

I'm sorry about your loss so to speak Solistus. I feel for you if there's one thing I've always hated about people in general, it's their inability to be blunt and honest. Would do everyone a little good if everyone would just say what they were thinking and think what they're saying.

The vast majority of people are not as fascinated by drugs as people who frequent Bluelight. You get to a point where you feel alright about trying pretty much anything. And some people really like opiates when they try them, and it leads to addiction.

I think you've gotten to the root of our problem here I used to be like, Oh I won't try this, won't try that. Now I have every kind of drug under the sun sitting behind me saying "take me take me!" Not that I dislike my variety, but if 18 year old pothead CG? knew what I was gonna end up like, he'd be like , "Dude, you're a druggie. I only take natural drugs like weed, cause it's sooooo natural." I'm glad I got past that phase quickly to be honest

 

[Jabberwocky]

After watching an episode of Hamilton's Pharmacopeia where he chews it instead of smoking, I would very much like to give that a try. Looked like he was in a really euphoric dissociative space. I agree that smoking it is strange and not much else, but chewing it actually seems really interesting. Unfortunately Salvia has been scheduled here in Australia, so it's a bit difficult to come by now.

Oh man, I love that show! He and Andrew Zimmern from "Bizarre Foods" have two of the most epic jobs ever.

Salvia just freaks me out waaay too much! (in my best "Crocodile hunter"​ impression) That whole, "Your whole life has been one big cosmic joke and everyone is in on it but YOU!" thing that so many people seem to experience just scares the living balls off of me! I have had similar experiences from night terrors, DXM and nitrous, but even they didn't seem to be as intense and convincing as what some people describe from Sally D.

Of course there is part of me that would want to know if that were the case, but no entheogenic experience that I have ever had seemed to confirm what "reality" is either way. Usually they just leave me with even more questions than answers, which is one of the reasons why I haven't touched anything too mind-bending in quite a while. I have great respect for all who dare to go there, and wish them all a safe and hopefully well-informed return!

Peace, Love and Faith,
Dreamflyer

 

[KneelB4Doom]

200ug im fooked