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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread: Firly Swolks Discussing Mitillating Tatters Fithout Wilters

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Morninggloryseed said:
Im just hanging on. Have a happy friday everyone and a great weekend to follow. Might do some dissociative saturday so maybe see yall in hyperspace.
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Sent you a PM bro. i think hyperspace connected us. Read it and get back to me. The more fucked I am and the more people help me.... What else can I do but "pay it forward". You good man. KEEP FLYING, LIFE JUST ISNT ABOUT NOT WANTING TO DIE! (stole it from a banf shirt i rock religiously.
 
yepyepwoah said:
I am about 120pages into the third Malazan book "Memories of Ice"... FINALLY we get back to some characters from book one. First Mazan book thats a page turner from page one. Fuck yeah....

Thanks for thd vibes yall. If anyones goinv through some shit and broke, talkong helps. Look intk the link I posted earlier, $50 counseling sessions with no insurance in the US...well you people know ots $150-$300 regular so....

I allready made a secoond apointment for Tues. This dude knew what RC'S were when I named them specificallh ... knowledgabke as fuck. I need the help for personal and other reasons so yah...
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I'll just say they get better as they go. The third and fifth books were my least favorite of them (I'm on book 9). But they're all great.
 
Yo xork... I know legaly owning a firearm in cali is a bitch. Cant imagine the hoops an outA stater would jump thru. Then again whay she is doin is grey/black market. Why not get her on a gun range where yall are and have her get comfortable shootin rounds. Then have her set up to get a personal easily concealble/fast holster pull in cali. Whether its for the cougar (im ignorant, a pistol might just piss them off), or.if some.MFERS raid the grow op which, as you say, happens on Cali... Most likely she will be left alone and they just take the shit. BUT if she gets the feeling shes about to get put under, those 500+ times practice quick draw from an ankle/hip holster etc might be the dif. between life and death. It might not be about even shooting, just having the brass balls crazy look that says she values her life and has a pistol pointed at you MR AK 47 Jackerman.... Might make em back down. If not have her ready to shoot to kill. Clean the weapon (obv should be a burner anyway.


If she aint ready to do thay maybe this lil poclet change grow season $$$$$ aint worth it....

I mean how much moneu is it. Can she substitute another hustle? Does she do ot because she NEEDS it, or its just habit. If shes your girl like Ive seen yall groe the past year and a half... if you are that worried and can supplent her incomr so she doesnt have to tbink aboit that.

Otherwise, after what you just said. Id prolly havr a few round ankle gun, a small ~10shot easy carry/conceal hip/back pistol. Posssibly a rifle if SHTF. A month ago I wouldnt talk like this but havin guns laid on you changes a motherfucker. Now the guns would be useless unless she is very comfortable drawing and firing them. It all comes down to..is it fucking worth it????!

My answer...its not. Ive always shied away from violence cuz I never was a "lets box" kinda guy. Almost always I will be the smaller opppnemt... So my instinct in a fight is "youre bigger im smaller. How can i put you down fast and keep you down".... Then i start thinkin if i got my ass beat id want revenge. So fuck ot of imma fight it should only be because someone needs to die. Then who will want revenge so lemme preempt that and light every single person this dude i put down knows....


This is why i took insults and punches in younger years and walked away. Fuck. I am a kind loving dude but there is an ugly beast inside me who would revel in bloodshed.

Getting swatted by a punk bitch with me laid out with 5-8 assault rifles and pistoles on my body while being told "get down, dont move, get doen dont move ill fucking kill you blahblah" mptherfucking 8 guns touching my body bc some bitch wanted to revenge me.... Ill never be the same. Im fucked as al hell and im seein a counselor 2x a week just to maintain.....

Motherfuckers manifacture these situations so theh can call people like me crazy now. Fuk fuck fuck
 
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I liked this vid about what the latest MRI scans of people on LSD suggest: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kvalFfavNpU

Had 200 µg of ALD today and it was a pleasant trip but none too intense. And adds to my - granted limited - experience telling me that IME the difference between 1P, ALD and LSD is not really meaningful. If anything, it just felt a bit weak for the dosage. Still have some regular cid but not really an idea yet if it's much potently dosed... it's supposed to be an upgrade from my previous ones which frankly required too many for a sweet and full trip.
 
Pharmakaos ;-) you allready got it. You are to TRILL a motherfucker to be denied. My opinions on our gov are staying out of this. All I have is mad love and respect for you. Keep fighting til they smash your head in. And if it gets smashed in... I know youvr been in the dark on disso trips. Whats life, whats death existence continues til God figures out who the fuck created it.


Stay up dude. Stay the fuck up
 
pharmakos said:
still waiting on Medicaid to approve my high-dose chemotherapy. they're going to approve it, just taking their time... feels like i'm in limbo.
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Hey man, Im sorry you are having the run around. Do you know how they make decisions about this? Are treatments approved if the oncologist recommends it or does nedicaid just approve patients based on the prognosis? Damn. I think you will be approved.

Xxxxx xxxx mate
 
So fucking ridiculous they'd take their time approving something for a cancer patient... what the fuck. :|

yepyep: she goes to cali and trims because she makes over half her money for the year doing it (like ~$10k in a month and a half to 2 months), plus she gets to visit some old friends. She definitely won't get a gun, she isn't into guns. She's actually not worried, she's been doing it for years. It's me who's worried since I won't be there. Plus as I get older I am more and more of a worrier about people I love, my friend dying suddenly recently didn't help. I can't help it, I just worry.

My good friend's girlfriend just moved to town, and she has 2 kids (boys, ages 6 and 8 ). She was living with her babysitter for a few weeks, thought she had a sweet deal, paying (it turns out) the majority of the rent for her (like $700 for one room when the total rent for the house is $1200 and the rest is split between 2 people so only $250 each, but she didn't realize that at the time). She has very little money and she had a week where she didn't have a job, when switching jobs, and asked her babysitter if she could take a little less money for one week (she was also, of course, paying the babysitter, like $200 a week when this girl doesn't work, she and her housemate mostly survive by renting out their extra room and charging people the majority of the entire rent and then doing odd jobs), and the babysitter was like, hell no, and you need to get out, I can't believe you'd even ask that. This is one of those "I'm sooooo spiritual, liek, so much more spiritual than you, look at all my crystals, that's how you can tell" types. So she had to move really quickly. We've been helping her with the move, and she found a new babysitter, but today she had no one and it's her first day on her new job so she can't call out obviously. So.... being that I work at home, I volunteered to watch them at my house, from 8:30 to 4:30, while I work. My girl is here, which is helping. Mostly they're playing a Pokemon game on their computer, and telling me every thought (seemingly) that pops into their heads. I occasionally reply. Gonna make them lunch later. They're competing with each other to see who I think is the coolest, I think. They seem pretty starved for male attention (their dad is in jail). She brought them to the music festival I went to recently (she went too obviously), so I have spent time with them and know them somewhat. It's gonna be an interesting day. :D
 
I'd been thinking about it recently anyway, but everybody mentioning malazan has made me decide to start from the beginning.

Only thing is I lent what I had to a friend (first 4-5 books) and he says his parents threw them out when he moved out. I don't doubt it, and I'm not really bothered, but I've got no idea why they would throw a series of books in the bin.

Anyway, not to worry - point being I've just bought Gardens Of The Moon for £2.30 on ebay - bargain!
 
^ Some people just throw shit away without thinking. It's a shame, now those books will be cluttering a landfill instead of someone having them. it's like, damn, at least give it to a thrift store or something...

I spent some of the afternoon showing my friend's kids my natural spring and stream at the end of my driveway... we found a salamander, I named him Sal. 8( =D Also found out the oldest and I share a birthday. These kids are cool, smart too, glad I don't have any though.
 
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My good friend's girlfriend just moved to town, and she has 2 kids (boys, ages 6 and 8 ). She was living with her babysitter for a few weeks, thought she had a sweet deal, paying (it turns out) the majority of the rent for her (like $700 for one room when the total rent for the house is $1200 and the rest is split between 2 people so only $250 each, but she didn't realize that at the time). She has very little money and she had a week where she didn't have a job, when switching jobs, and asked her babysitter if she could take a little less money for one week (she was also, of course, paying the babysitter, like $200 a week when this girl doesn't work, she and her housemate mostly survive by renting out their extra room and charging people the majority of the entire rent and then doing odd jobs), and the babysitter was like, hell no, and you need to get out, I can't believe you'd even ask that. This is one of those "I'm sooooo spiritual, liek, so much more spiritual than you, look at all my crystals, that's how you can tell" types. So she had to move really quickly. We've been helping her with the move, and she found a new babysitter, but today she had no one and it's her first day on her new job so she can't call out obviously. So.... being that I work at home, I volunteered to watch them at my house, from 8:30 to 4:30, while I work. My girl is here, which is helping. Mostly they're playing a Pokemon game on their computer, and telling me every thought (seemingly) that pops into their heads. I occasionally reply. Gonna make them lunch later. They're competing with each other to see who I think is the coolest, I think. They seem pretty starved for male attention (their dad is in jail). She brought them to the music festival I went to recently (she went too obviously), so I have spent time with them and know them somewhat. It's gonna be an interesting day. :D
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That's a cute image xorkoth :D
 
:) My friend told me she'd give me some MDMA for my trouble. =D Funny trade for babysitting. I might take her up on it, she just moved to town and is really broke though so I think it'll just be a favor. Maybe next time we're out at a show I'll take her up on a dose.

It's been pretty fun actually. I was just teaching the older one a bit about piano. Hoping their mom gets here really soon though, she's running late and I gotta go to band practice in 15 minutes.
 
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Kids are awesome. My niece (sisters daughter) is a wild and very bossy 3 year old now, we have great fun. She knows that I am.on her level so gets really silly when I visit which is good, she was scared of me when she was a baby. And she loves Miss Swilow. Just watches her and wants to do things with her, like brush hair and have deep 'conversations'. Kids are so innocent. <3

My nephew (brothers son) is such a little boy, just always running and climbing and investigating stuff, always pointing out cars. He's mildly autistic and has trouble speaking but can make his wishes known. He hits a fair bit but is learning not to. I think life is a bit harder for him than my neice. :\ He gets in trouble a lot. But he's trying to be good, just doesn't know what that is yet. :)
 
Ha yeah I've got a niece and I can't believe how bossy and assertive she is for one and a half. She was also scared of me as a baby, but has totally warmed to me. I'm helping to look after her 2-3 times a week so it's kind of like having a little sister. A very canny little person.
 
^Nice. I think little people can find grown men a bit intimidating. Rightfully so, pretty much every threat in humanity comes from men. My niece didn't like my beard apparently, I reckon it made my face seem weirdly contrasting. Girls are very focused on faces.

When my dad shaved when I was a kid, I was scared of him, wouldn't talk to him, he looked like a different guy :D then again, my dad was terrifying.
 
I'm producing an event for the Fall Equinox (9/21-23) and am working on making some flyers and other promo images. The event is called "Earth Frequency Activation (The AZ joint)" and I specify AZ because the plan is to work with people all over to create a massive synchronized events all over the country and possibly world-wide. Its a lot to go into but let me know if anyone is interested in this endeavor...
Anyway the question is if anyone has some really awesome artwork I can riff off of for inspiration. Just googling "Earth frequency activation" unsurprisingly hits close to the kind of imagery I will integrate into the art.
Cheers PD fam
 
Bleurgh, I've got an appointment to see if I've had ADHD all my life in about nine hours. I should be in bed but have been up writing the brief summary of my symptoms which I've obviously been putting off. Anyway, should be interesting. I'm actually quite excited.
 
So ...

Malazalan... Xork how the fuck is book 3 one of your least faves? Granted I haven't finished the series yet, but sooooo many characters from book 1, that weren't in book 2, and I an only on page 174. I am thinkin I will finnish this. Ponder the after obooks (was at half price and saw some post series trilogy). Orrrr maybr finish all 10 Malazalan, read some random sci-fi space oriented shit....

Orrrrr re read the first two stormlight epics in preparation for the release of the third this NOV (fingers crossed, last I heard....)

FUCK I love reading. Puts me away from the here and now while I ponder what could and might be.

Chopped it up with one of my roomates. Was discussing all the b/s in my life til I said "Unless it is about a job IDGAF"

Ended up talking to dude for a few hours. He said "i've seen you working on your car, if you can do that you could fill blahblah lah position at my large industrial corp job.

Im like HELL YES, for so many reasons... Talked to dude for a few hours. Known him a few years. He basically assured me I could get the job, then its on me. Thats why I stayed up drinking with him for four more hours. Now his bitching about bosses while I want to read isn't annoying, it is possibly beneficial. Ive got my fingers crossef, but I an 95% sure he will at least get me an interview. Could end up making more $$$$$$ than I ever have ( not really materialistic so not that much), learning some new skills, saving up to get the FUCK outta america within a year ir so, and payin my lawyer. Positive thinking or 50mg fentanyl.... Choose or be Chosen.

Ps: Tranced..... Adhd... Really? I am in my 30s and thought I was that shit in my teens. Unless you are tryin to get some stims.... WTF a doctor gonna tell you thats worth shit? This world is fast paced abd demanding, some of us would prefer it low key and slow. Que adhd...

pps: Just saw Ghost In The Shell. Almost walked out 15 min in. Sensory overload. Their city layup is my worst nightmare. Like bullet to the dome (Or Im Major and lethal as fuck), cuz that type of life doesnt really seem worth living
 
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I just found it slower or something. I liked book 2 a whole lot. Actually the first half of book 2 I wasn't really into very much, but the chain of dogs was epic. The books have a tendency to ramp up in the second half. The books tend to jump around between character sets, there's more than one new character set coming up. In the later stages of the series, they all blend more within the same book.

Sounds great about the potential job. :) If you like working on cars, then it will probably improve the quality of your life a lot, because it makes such a difference when you don't hate your job, or even better, if you like it.

So I'm slowly getting off of phenibut... it's been harder than expected though, I'm firmly back to every third day but the second and third nights are very difficult to sleep, I've taken to taking mebroqualone for muscle relaxation on the second night and etizolam on the third. But just this morning I realized I had bought some fasoracetam a while back, because it's supposed to help upregulate GABA-B receptors (which is what phenibut works on). Just popped 15mg in sublingually, I'm hoping it helps. Trying to use a lot less GABA drugs. Phenibut is amazing, but I hate being physically dependent on anything, I never wanted to go there again.
 
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