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☮ Social ☮ PD Social: swirling into homeostasis

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^ Hello Sega! Haven't seen you around in a little while... 'sup?


I was up all night meticulously taking out and cleaning and re-lubricating every single key in my 88-key MIDI controller. And breaking my back carrying the thing from my desk to my workbench and back. Got the thing used and it needed some work. Now it plays like a Steinway D. =D (Not really, that'd be fucking awesome).

I've recently come to realize that eBay is a very good thing. There's so much great, used stuff that would otherwise go to waste.
 
I tried ketamine again today, only this time 250mg spread over 2 or 3 hours i think. The last dose put me into a khole :D I love it, i love it, i loooooove it <3

edit : straight from a lab in the netherlands i believe. 100% Purity, got it from my friend, it had just arrived at his house when we got there, grabbed the bag and went out again
 
TheAppleCore said:
Now it plays like a Steinway D. =D
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There's a Steinway Hall in walking distance of my house, I often vape a few bowls and then walk over and play the pianos. :D (They are actually so cool about it, I don't think they get more than 1 or 2 customers per week TBH)

The pianos sound so superior to other musical instruments, the sound is so rich and carries such a rounded weight to it-- the overtone architecture is flawless. If I had the money, I would buy one and spend the rest of my life playing it with black sunglasses on LOL.

Too bad they cost as much as a nice house! =D
 
^ That's so cool! I totally feel you on the rich tone of the piano, too... it's SO satisfying just to experiment with chord voicings on a piano, and listen to the way that the notes meld with each other.

Someday I'll have a grand piano of my own...


Actually, side note, related to pianos: I was just reading this forum thread where the OP asked what sort of "character" the forum members' pianos had -- one dude, in all seriousness, described his piano as having the character of a "grateful recovering addict". I could not stop laughing. :D
 
willow11 said:
I hope you keep feelin okay Xork :) <3 I think a lot of sensitive people who use drugs get really affected by the change from summer to winter (and vice versa, with an inverted effect).
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Ya winter's always been a downturn for me too. It's going to be really strange this year; being in a climate where for one year I'm entirely skipping the season of winter. It doesn't feel like a summer high but I'm also not getting the crushing low of nearly constant cloudy, cold, miserable darkness.

I wonder what it's going to feel like when spring comes and I head back north. I think it's going to be a weird feeling like not having the winter as my reference point.
 
TheAppleCore said:
^ Hello Sega! Haven't seen you around in a little while... 'sup?
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it came to me during that trip last night, that i am not ok with abortion.
i got a girl pregnant (90% most likely, doing tests tomorrow),
and the full gravity of the situation and everything it means hit me like a fucking freight train...

that's what's up...
 
hey Sega! been missing you mang

the OD crew left CD if you wanna come back to us :D
 
This show has had me dancing around in spiritual ecstasy this morning (particularly Eyes). Jerry is realllllyy on this night for serious. (the next night, 10/18 is less jangly and ecstatic but equally as diving IMO :))
 
i see what you mean AP.
took a half tab on thursday night, took one and a quarter tabs last night. got one and a half left. you guys reckon i could do the remaining ones and trip again (last night was more high than on thursday, despite tolerance)?
 
Emphatically, I would not drop if I were you.

You have a lot of thinking to do which requires a sober mindset, not a head full of drugs.
 
as i said, i took it as a sign from the universe that i was meant to dose last night,
when the indian sitar music played while i ate Ganesh print tabs.

i went into the trip with no expectations, but i asked the powers that be to look after me and guide me in my journey. (went in looking to get something out of it)
so perhaps it is fate that i realized im actually not ok with abortion. either way i am going to tell her my feelings on the matter when i see her tomorrow.
she seems as though she is undecided to be honest.

this is very very good acid. none of the clouded head confusion.
depending on how i feel in a few hours and how much pineapple i have to munch on i may drop my remaining tabs and go for a walk in the forest with my dog :)


SKL, may i ask, have you ever been in a similar situation?
I've not conversed with you much on here but from your posts you seem like a very wise individual.

no matter what happens, everything will be ok, and i have told her no matter what she decides i will stand by her 100% and support her.
 
Sega420 said:
it came to me during that trip last night, that i am not ok with abortion.
i got a girl pregnant (90% most likely, doing tests tomorrow),
and the full gravity of the situation and everything it means hit me like a fucking freight train...

that's what's up...
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Sounds like a sobering (no pun intended) situation, and certainly not anything I've been through. In any case, best wishes to you and everyone else involved!
 
Didn't you say she was cheating on you? How do you know it's yours and not another's? I hate to say it, but here's the harsh truth: if you're not sure it's yours get a DNA test. It wouldn't be the first time a woman cheated with another and had his baby but told the guy she cheated on it was his because she knows she can manipulate him into supporting her (or perhaps she genuinely believes it's yours, but more wants to believe it than knows it for certain).

Sorry. You've probably considered this already, but I thought it should be said in case you haven't. It would just be so tragic if it's not yours and this woman who you've been so heartbroken over is suddenly inviting you back into a life with her, not because she shares your feelings but because she needs you for practical purposes. That happened to a friend's brother of mine. They were both aware he wasn't the father but she was his first real love and she knew she could use him again and again and without reciprocation, all while getting more and more insane and white trashy.

I guess just make sure what the baby means to you and what your relationship with this girl means to you aren't confusing each other. Good luck.
 
Sega420 said:
it came to me during that trip last night, that i am not ok with abortion.
i got a girl pregnant (90% most likely, doing tests tomorrow),
and the full gravity of the situation and everything it means hit me like a fucking freight train...

that's what's up...
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hey bro, nice to see you pop in.

Im not going to lay on you a bunch of heavy shit about abortion right now.
Personally im not against it. In fact im all for it, and feel that some people NEED to get it. For instance there is a show on MTV called "Teenage moms." Those girlss needed abortions.

If you are in a position to support your baby mama and your baby than the little one should get to see the light of day.
If you are going to bring a child into this world who has to deal with some dysfunctional ass young parents then stop being selfish, think of the child and have an abortion. This isnt about YOU. You will be bringing in a new life who will depend on you. Are you willing to give up most of your life and devote the next 20 years to bringing up someone else?

I dont know if you're the heir to a thrown or a chimney sweep so i have no place to comment on your situation.

Just think of the child though.

(this is a little personal for me because i recently became good friends with a girl who is 5 months pregnant and working 2 minimum wage jobs while her baby daddy is living across the country, i guess he'll pay child support or somthing, but it truly saddens me, their whole situation.)
 
^Most of the people I know who have had kids clearly regret it. They know it isn't the kid's fault, and are decent parents, but so many of the things they say indirectly state their misery in being a parent.
 
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