I'm falling deeper and deeper in love with Ms. NotDeja. Every day that we spend together we bond closer and closer. It is the most beautiful experience of my life. More beautiful than any drug trip ever was.
Thats so good to hear

Love is probably the closest state to true bliss a human can reach; its boundless and completely ego-demolishing. Hmm, you could call it samadhi even.
Me and Miss Willow are on good terms again; we've been chatting, and I;ve started making some moves to gain her trust back. Which involves me showing her that I completely trust her.
Though last night, I dreamt that we had our baby; bittersweet, a dream I did not want to leave....
So I drank Ayahuasca last night with Chaliponga. Apparently DMT is a hyper-dimensional community of beings called the Zanarians who have mastered time and space, they mentioned something about Equinox, a term I didn't know about, I assumed it was their home. So after a quick google, I'm gonna drink Aya at the next equinox. All taken with a pinch of salt of course.
Awesome. I fucking love how DMT provides a kind off gods-eye-view; I mean, if the effects were purely mediated by an artificial/fake/drug, why would we emerge with such ideas, with actual depth to them?
Say hello to the Zanarians.
How's going friends
Yay 6k posts
Hello Swerlz- I am very good, and how are you?
Hmm. I'm thinking; I really have no desire for any drugs anymore; besides medications, the last thing I took was a bit of methamp last week- and I didn't enjoy. I didn't NOT enjoy it, I just felt wrong. I really think that its time to quit. Life is so much better without a constant existential panic spurring on every movement. Its a panic that can never quite be met unless one is clear headed, and these days, my head is almost empty! (sounded weird...

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I seem to exist well on 2mg of suboxone; I have found I can easily skip a day as well, so maybe I can just stop...? And only 14mg's of diazepam now. I cazn see TEH LIGHT




