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☮ Social ☮ PD Social: swirling into homeostasis

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psood0nym said:
^2/10/2010 'eh? So no drugs until last February? Indeed, the first step towards success is setting your sights low.
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nearjat said:
...oops lol.
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Ha, I had a giggle...You should really teach me how to use this time machine, NearJ ;) :D

Okay- a sob story of sorts; please listen though- I mentioned that I was on 14mg's of diazepam, as of last tuesday I think- feeling cruisy too, very relieved. Until yesterday- I had an epic series of seizures, like none I've experienced before (and, to be honest, the last one of the series was actually 'pleasant'). I had no idea why this was happening, as a 2mg drop is essentially nothing; so I dig around in my bag trying to find my diazepam, with a sinking suspicion soon proved correct; I had been scripted 5mg tabs instead of 2mg, and had blithely taken them for over a week- I take 7 x 2mg a day, but was taking 35mg's instead, until sunday....So- thanks a lot stupid pharmacist- I may have lost my new job because of this; that said, I should have known as the pills look completely different, but you sort of assume that a pharmacist is going to read the prescription I gave him, yeah?? :X

Anyhow, alls well now, I have had my dose upped for the next three days; 20mg's, then 18mg' then 16mgs, and after that back to 14mg. I'm not all that angry, because I am mates with the pharmacist, but I feel pretty pissed off- if I lose my job (I was able to leave before the fits began, and have pleaded the flu) I will be angry though.

If upsets me to hear of people fucking around with diazepam; seriously, benzo's are the most dangerous substance I can imagine. Please take care, and if my own suferring can help, then read what I wrote and take it seriously.

Meh.

Peace <3
 
Ben So Furry said:
Right definitely don't punch him then =D, the only thing I can suggest is try talking to him about it, sorry you feel like that. The way I look at it is this: A job is a job whatever it is you do. Never feel ashamed (not saying you are) but I used to work as a dishwasher and I hated telling people and I felt like crap because it seemed a low pecking order job, now I realise that a lot of my friends that mocked or turned an eyebrow up at me didn't have jobs or also hated there own. Not sure where I'm going with this fella, sorry, just trying to cheer you up without being patronising. I wish you all the best of luck, and keep your chin up sir, <3<3<3 more love coming your way.

Yep love Gorrilaz seriously if we met, musically we'd get on like a house on fire.
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don't get me wrong, it's not a horrible job. just a lot of physical labor, and it's starting to catch up. OTC pain meds don't help at all, i need to get to a doc and get some legit pain meds.
 
That sucks willow man, what about simply being honest with your employer about the pharmacy screw up? That leaves no blame on you and you don't have to lie about it. It may even help build a rapport with your employer, being honest and all.

willow11 said:
If upsets me to hear of people fucking around with diazepam; seriously, benzo's are the most dangerous substance I can imagine. Please take care, and if my own suferring can help, then read what I wrote and take it seriously.
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I'm not sure if that was directed at me or not. I do take benzos very seriously. I never use them days in a row. It's just a single dose, deal with the rebound, and then leave it for a while.

It's just that to me diazepam is a wonderfully pleasurable drug. Temporary solace from all tensions. 4mg of diazepam once a week or so can't be that bad for someone.

A while back I tried using on a daily basis for anxiety and I found it completely sucked the life out of me, even though my doses were low. I didn't have much anxiety but I also wasn't happy at all; no natural excitement or stimulation to be had. I also got really sluggish and dull headed. It wasn't fun. I stopped taking it, got crappy rebound anxiety for a bit and left it.

Nowadays I only use sporadically, and it's much more pleasurable that way.
 
Assphace said:
don't get me wrong, it's not a horrible job. just a lot of physical labor, and it's starting to catch up. OTC pain meds don't help at all, i need to get to a doc and get some legit pain meds.
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Having done hard manual labor in a variety of settings for the last few years, I have to advise against using pain meds unless you only plan on taking them for acute flare-ups in the short term. Visiting a physical therapist would be a much healthier and more effective choice in the long run, or even just doing some stretches both before and after work, perhaps even yoga on your off days.

If you're feeling pain from working hard, covering it up with pain meds will only make it worse for you once they wear off.
 
^Agreed. Narcotics would be a very bad idea in that situation.

Swilow, that's very odd. Diazepam has such a long half-life that it rarely causes seizures, even with abrupt cessation. Were you taking anything else that lowers your seizure threshold...caffeine, amps, buproprion, opiates? Any history of epilepsy? And have you talked to you doctor about this? ...just sounds odd to me.

Please be careful and take it slow.

Edit: I guess I was wrong...even with a half-life of 36-200 hours, it seems that withdrawal syndrome is still very possible if the dose is decreased too quickly. Still, the fact that it happened so soon after the dose reduction is strange.
 
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ikkyu said:
Having done hard manual labor in a variety of settings for the last few years, I have to advise against using pain meds unless you only plan on taking them for acute flare-ups in the short term. Visiting a physical therapist would be a much healthier and more effective choice in the long run, or even just doing some stretches both before and after work, perhaps even yoga on your off days.

If you're feeling pain from working hard, covering it up with pain meds will only make it worse for you once they wear off.
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i only want them while i'm working out of town, after this job is over I can get to proper care, chiropractor and whatnot.
 
I'm feeling pretty good about life all of the sudden. But I'm scared that my huge mood/motivation increase is directly related to a certain female showing affection...yeah it's cool and all but I'm seeing an old pattern there...to much leverage.
 
It probably didn't help that diazepam is a particularly potent anticonvulsant...I second the notion that benzos are some of the most dangerous drugs out there. I've never been through any opiate withdrawals that could touch the severity of benzo withdrawal.
 
I was doing construction a few years ago and was using roxis during that time. I would usually take 15-30mg towards the end of my 12+ hour shift. Granted, I only did this for a short period of time and I wasnt usually the saw man or anything dangerous that required focus.
 
Dondante said:
^Agreed. Narcotics would be a very bad idea in that situation.

Swilow, that's very odd. Diazepam has such a long half-life that it rarely causes seizures, even with abrupt cessation. Were you taking anything else that lowers your seizure threshold...caffeine, amps, buproprion, opiates? Any history of epilepsy? And have you talked to you doctor about this? ...just sounds odd to me.

Please be careful and take it slow.

Edit: I guess I was wrong...even with a half-life of 36-200 hours, it seems that withdrawal syndrome is still very possible if the dose is decreased too quickly. Still, the fact that it happened so soon after the dose reduction is strange.
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Well, I do have a history of epilepsy; I had mild seizures and abscence/catatonic phases when I was young (ie. around 12 they stopped). Its recently started again, first as dissociation, then absence seizures, then black-outs, and then big bad seizures. That said, I am in a fairly safe place; my uncle is looking after my mother at the moment, and I am living there, and he's very calm, is a non-practising doctor (GP) and able to administer phenobarbital when needed. It appears that my seizure threshold has been dramatically lowered due to the diaz reduction- even small reductions provoke really odd behaviour, which has scared the fuck out of my loved ones....

The only thing that doctors can put it down to is the benzo's having altered that threshold, perhaps only until I'm off them (fingers crossed). At this stage, I'm very wary about driving, and don't think its very safe; but I've come to recognise the preceeding symptoms and don't generally just drop; it builds up like a storm- the actual seizure doesn't feel bad so to speak, I just get unbearably groggy afterwards.

It actually reminds me a bit of salvia- weird.

I am taking buprenorphine 2mg daily; it doesn't appear to be contraindicated with epilepsy/benzo-withdrawal. I don't really drink coffee anymore, just black tea, and besides that, I haven't taken any drugs, even pot, for about a month.

It defintely is odd though, but seriously, you should try it ;) Ego death...

Hmm.
 
Reading through this thread & viewing the ups & downs of everyone I hope & know you all can receive the good vibes I'm sending out to anyone reading this. :) It's not because of any sort of special occasion, no more than boredom meets free-time and reading. I think you all ought to be able to pick em up ;) <3
 
What the hell, I'm a pretty girl who likes drugs who'd LOVE to stare into a someones eyes for a half hour. (not on e though, I can't handle the come down, dammed serotonin failing brain).

I wish drugs were legal, above all reasons, so we could all get together and have a peace and love fest. :)
 
^ Prop. 19 didn't pass in California... as expected. :( Prompted me to think about the whole issue a little more. Really, what the fuck IS it with the idea that it's the GOVERNMENT's job to enforce some sort of standard role-model good-boy good-girl lifestyle for all citizens?!

zebigmonst3r said:
Hey guys. So, I had a bit of an incident. I took too much LSD on Halloween and tripped a nut, don't remember any of the trip, but wound up in the hospital.
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Aw man, sorry to hear that! How much acid did you take? Were you in a comfortable set/setting? From everything I've read, and experienced, LSD is pretty stable unless you're taking ridiculous thumbprint type doses...

willow11 said:
I had been scripted 5mg tabs instead of 2mg
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Jesus. That's a pretty large margin of error. Hope you can put this epileptic B.S. behind you as soon as possible -- it sounds like such a drag.
 
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