LSDMDMA&9996550 said:
are you coming down atm?
cause from my experience, a rant like that=coming down.
i should roll up to canada and show ya how to go ham on dem ampz
Rant like that is just me expressing what I'm feeling. Whether it's a drug comedown or just tired and grumped up.
My last amphetamine was Wednesday afternoon, so no I wasn't coming down. I was actually using caffeine the last couple days to help me out a bit. To be honest I find coming down off stimulants to be easy once I decide to do it. It's getting the gusto to put my foot down and say "No, I am not taking any today." once I make it through a day of not taking any I'm good to go. The fear of the lethargy I'm going to feel and the draw to feel good can make that hard sometimes but once the commitment has been made I'm fine.
And yeah I know how to do amps, my weekend camping binges are a jolly good time without much reprecussion. The problem comes when I use it on a daily basis as a way to cope with everyday life. The constant rush after time catches up with me and my anxiety levels steadily climbs and on a physical level you can see it in my face. I get a bit more drawn out, my eyes look tired, break outs, etc. Not a good slope to slide down.
Using amphetamine as a crutch regularly is my only problem with it, having fun doses every once in a while is my favorite way to use it, also the best way to keep the magic.
^Taking a look at your life isn't only something which occurrs during comedown.
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Ya, isn't that the truth. W/D, comedown is very much like a psychedelic experience. The problems you've tried medicating yourself out of come flooding back and you feel everything again. It's interesting because to me the come-up of psychedelics feels very much like a hard withdrawal. The chills, the tension, the weight of your thoughts coming crashing down on you.. very much like it but I find it's more intense when induced by a psychedelic.
I'm glad to hear you thiinking that way PSox. You're a great guy with a lot to offer, a keen intelligence, and you deserve to feel content. Peace
Thanks man. My recent grades reflect otherwise though
Going back has been rough, I'm not doing as good as I thought I would, so far C's on average and I'm working my ass off. I know I'm good at this stuff, I've just forgotten the format of how to do the shit. Uni's are very anal retentive when it comes to format.
The easy going attitude that psychelics bought me made me more susceptible to addiction, but also more inclined to jump into a painful withdrawal state with a minimum of fear.
Totally. I feel exactly the same. I'm more willing to dive into a drug, but also, when the time comes I'm more willing to take the plunge, make the commitment and deal with withdrawal.
Where you going on Tuesday?
I think you just go through different periods where drugs have their uses and those when you ought to stop. I can definitely see a time in the near future where I pick up the vaporizer again.
Yup, phases. Sometimes I have stimulant runs, sometimes I have benzo or opiate runs. It's all cycles. I start the run as a necessity to deal with something, and then stop as a necessity to deal with the growing side effects. It really is all necessity driven though. There are times when I think it's more harmful to not take any drugs, that the effect I seek is required the make it through something. At some point though, I have to lose the crutch, and an off-cycle starts.
I'm at home right now for Thanksgiving weekend. My mind's been stressed to the nines with school and all the rest of it,
I think I'm going to have a therapeutic line of K and climb into bed soon.
Scratch that, too tired, sleep will do just fine
