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Jat are you physically dependant at all?

Roger dude you really shouldnt be so down on yourself. You are a smart guy regardless of what grades you get. Your brain is filled with knowledge and it seems you're always stuffing more in there. I wish i could be there and give you a nice big hug, and then grow a pair a beautiful tits, transform into your dream girl and give you a BJ. :)
Alright maybe i dont want to give you a BJ, but i do love who you are and hope you start feeling better. :)

Ive decided to cut down drastically on smoking weed. I am an all day smoker from when i wake to when i go to bed. But today is day two of saving the smoke till the evening. Yesterday i smoked 1 bowl and fell asleep till this morning. And today i just smoked my first bowl of the day and its 10pm. Im rather proud of myself. Just another step on my self improvement journey. Im really trying to cut out some bad habits and pick up some good ones.

Love to you all
you're all special, beautiful folks
<3:D
 
Yea Delsyd! self-improvement!
I have run the past two days in a row, and done yoga the past three
And continually cutting down my mairjuana intake

The up and up yeehaw
 
Delsyd said:
Roger dude you really shouldnt be so down on yourself. You are a smart guy regardless of what grades you get. Your brain is filled with knowledge and it seems you're always stuffing more in there. I wish i could be there and give you a nice big hug, and then grow a pair a beautiful tits, transform into your dream girl and give you a BJ. :)
Alright maybe i dont want to give you a BJ, but i do love who you are and hope you start feeling better. :)
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LoL. =D
 
This wait for my mxe is killing me; I wish it was here now. I am very excited to be trying a new drug. I am sure I will like it concidering how much I loved ketamine which is such a lovely molecule. How good for introspection is mxe compared to ketamine?
 
Its good stuff. dont compare it to ketamine and go in with an open mind. Its pretty damn awesome. I love it. I love it alot. Im excited about mine coming too, but that wont be for another week or two as im taking a small break from it right now and havent ordered more.
Did i mention that its awesome?
 
Delsyd said:
Jat are you physically dependant at all?
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Yeah I am, sucks to say the least haha. Not to the extreme where I throw up when withdrawing but I do get cramps, horrible anxiety, muscle soreness, yawning, lethargy, restlessness and diarrhea. I went a pretty damn long time without physical dependance though somehow, I'm impressed lol.

Also I agree with you about MXE and not worrying about how it compares to ketamine. That's truly the best way to go about it.
 
Attention Socal PDers: http://soundwalk.org/
I just learned about this watching Huell Howser, October 1st in downtown Long Beach they have a collection of sound artists create installations throughout the area for people to come and appreciate. It looks pretty awesome. I'm definitely going to go (probably by myself, none of those junkie or tweaker folk I know would appreciate cool stuff like this).


And I wish there was something I could say Rog, but I think TAC put things rather well. Plus, you are certainly one of the brightest, warmest and well respected persons here.


In other news, will probably move in to my new place/abandoned building tomorrow. Got all my furniture set up, fridge, a 4 gallon jug of water w/dispenser, microwave, little electric pressure cooker. Just gotta bring up clothing and bedsheets and stuff. I may be able to get internet there but I'll have to get a wireless antenna thingy, so until I do I may only be online irregularly.
 
Rog almost all of your thought out posts make me actually vocalize something along the lines of "damn son..", so yeah, you're probably not stupid man haha. I prescribe you 20mg of shut-the-hell-up-you-make-me-look-like-a-mentally-handicapped-person-on-the-intelligence-front-whenever-you-speak-iccilin.
 
This month is killing me. Too much work and stress and not enough money. Everytime I feel like things are getting better, two more big, stressful things get dropped on me. Fuck.
 
Yeah man, I had one of those "WTF I am dooin?" moments recently when I saw this video on one of my favorite musicians:

http://warp.net/records/squarepusher/watch-new-documentary-creators-project

Now like, I'm never going to be able to play bass like that. But is there any sense trying to out-do someone this advanced in their field? Will I ever have every single connection in my custom-made library of wild effect patches wired directly to my neurons, on top of virtuoso-level bass skillz? Probably not. Doesn't mean I can't make an interesting and valid contribution to the world of music. But I also wouldn't even get there if I spent all my time trying to out-shred every player on the planet. It's times when negativity seems to be at it's peak that are the perfect time to re-evaluate what you are doing, accept the negativity for what it is, and try and overcome it. Stay strong man!
 
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Yeah man, I had one of those "WTF I am dooin?" moments recently when I saw this video on one of my favorite musicians:

http://warp.net/records/squarepusher/watch-new-documentary-creators-project

Now like, I'm never going to be able to play bass like that. But is there any sense trying to out-do someone this advanced in their field? Will I ever have every single connection in my custom-made library of wild effect patches wired directly to my neurons, on top of virtuoso-level bass skillz? Probably not. Doesn't mean I can't make an interesting and valid contribution to the world of music. But I also wouldn't even get there if I spent all my time trying to out-shred every player on the planet. It's times when negativity seems to be at it's peak that are the perfect time to re-evaluate what you are doing, accept the negativity for what it is, and try and overcome it. Stay strong man!
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That's some crazy-ass bass playing, sonny.

Also well put pick-me-up speech! Makes me kinda sad (well actually euphoric, but I blame the heroin for that) that I couldn't come up with something so well put to encourage Roger&Me. I can say that of all the people I used to know, the motivated, hard working types have gone the furthest. Us folk who coasted off of natural intelligence crashed and burned when put in a situation where hard work and time management were key, and in general make bad decisions (people always tell me I'm really smart though, go figure). Anyway my point is that in this life, outside of a few academic situations, so called intelligence doesn't amount to shit, and it's the qualities of perserverence, curiousity, good humor and good a heart that will lead a man to a fulfilling life, and you have what counts man.

Roger, don't give up just because the fucked up academic system is getting to you. Maybe you are right and you won't be able to compete in a field of research scientists or whatever the glamorous chemist position is, but you don't have to there are more careers in the field than that. You told us that chemistry is something you're passionate about, well if that's true I will PROMISE you that there is fulfilling career path in that field that YOU, that you will do well and enjoy. When a film lover matures he realizes that there's a 99.99999% that he won't be the next Kubrick or even ever get a shot to TRY, but because movies are his passion he finds out what he can do and enjoys, and you bet he's living his dream and you can find his name somewhere in the credits of that movie you just saw. If there's one piece of life advice I've heard that I'd repeat to anyone it's this: Live earnestly, and you will live well. So get that goddamned degree Rog, consider what you can do with it, go on further if you must, but get out there in the field, ask your professors or professionals about all the different job positions that are out there that your degree, your capabilities within the field, and personality qualify you for, then go after it! (and work your way up for a while, careers are hard and take time)

Man that was difficult to write. Gotta stop fighting the nod~:)
 
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Yeah I know, and the concepts he was talking about were mind-blowing. Like seeing music as numbers, events placed on a grid/timeline, and knowing every connection in a massive spider web-like collection of programmatic objects. I'm on nootropics now and I can barely grasp it, although it's helping. I'm going to be getting my own bass this weekend, even though I've been playing bass for 7-8 years now. All I intend to do is practice until I can play the things in my head reasonably well, but what he's doing is like re-inventing the wheel and going drag-racing with it.
 
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Attention Socal PDers: http://soundwalk.org/
I just learned about this watching Huell Howser, October 1st in downtown Long Beach they have a collection of sound artists create installations throughout the area for people to come and appreciate. It looks pretty awesome. I'm definitely going to go (probably by myself, none of those junkie or tweaker folk I know would appreciate cool stuff like this).
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Sweet! Give us the full report when you get back!

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Yeah I know, and the concepts he was talking about were mind-blowing. Like seeing music as numbers, events placed on a grid/timeline, and knowing every connection in a massive spider web-like collection of programmatic objects. I'm on nootropics now and I can barely grasp it, although it's helping. I'm going to be getting my own bass this weekend, even though I've been playing bass for 7-8 years now. All I intend to do is practice until I can play the things in my head reasonably well, but what he's doing is like re-inventing the wheel and going drag-racing with it.
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Yeah, that was an amazing interview! Thanks for sharing. Seeing people talk about advanced sound manipulation and audio programming tickles a certain spot for me -- although I can't say I'm anywhere near Squarepusher's level, I've programmed some pretty sweet patches in Reaktor, and I've spent a lot of time experimenting with various combinations of Reason's modules too. Twiddling knobs and pushing buttons in order to make cool digital sounds is one of the most fun things in the world. As is simply sitting at a piano and making it ooooze its rich, warm, complex, organic tonalities in the most soulful ways. :)
 
Someone else really should come to soundwalk though, but no one know where you live exactly (too far probably), and it'd be a two our drive for yucatan... Appreciating things with people is more fun, and who better than swirly folk to appreciate avant-gardre aural artistry?

Oh well, bed time, have a pleasant evening everyone. Gotta finish moving tomorrow so I need my rest.
 
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