Solistus, Socks, Bomboclot, General patton, dwayne, SEGA420 u fucker lol wherever you are ill miss you for sure you Scottish bastard lol! Phenethlyo, Llama, Roger, Swillow, Delysid, cosmic charlie Xorky! if u ever read this!, Tbird, Bardo, Jesusgreen, SKL, Spark I love you guys (and gal) and i'm gonna miss all of you also all of you new pd scoilites and I apologixe one of you just got ur doctreds i cant remember ur name >.< its on the tip of my tounge i love you guys! Im gonna miss you all. I only came into the pd scoial last summer a year ago right when i really was serious to get off opiates and jump off my nighltly klonipin dosage. Roger u especially guided me through that kpin taper and all went smooth. Would not have been so easy without you guys.
It all started with one really intense lsd dose which i hadnt done for a few years since i went to rehab first for opiates but was back on them. I actually just read my post from last summer it was also the first night I smoked pcp and just swallowed a dose didnt really know what I was in for holy shit that blew my mind. BAM like Emeril it just smacks me in the face and its always black and white, yes or no no middle or grey area to me when dosed. Its either ultimate discovery and ecstacy of knowledge or extreme terror from the realizations and buried memories that hit you in the face. Mind you this was also a solo trip I always benefit a lot more from them but they are less lulzy and recreational. Mine was terror I realized messing with pharm pills hydrocodone and the really shitty person you become when you get physically addicted was EXACTLY was I strived no to be when I was younger. So yeah I guess some would have considered it a bad trip , to me it was my best even though it was so terryfying and rough through the peak, if you just ride thorough those touch ones without a benzo or nothing its amazing how much you can learn.
I havent touched opiates and I really use my kpins i dont have sleep problems like from opiates and shit so I use them for anxiety. I wont lie though I been partying way too much lately though and fell a bit off track. I dont care what anyone says though I do have my adderal script but i dopnt daily dose them and after daily vyvanse for 2 years cold turkey I mean yeah I slept a lot more the first few years but nothing comes anywhere near the torture opiate withdrawals put me through. the 4mmc just caught me off guard but that shit is really just so nice the opiates tight grip you cus of feearing that horrible discomfort of physical wd and my kpin dose was so low that was no problem either. I feel so positive though and cleanoing up without the grip of opiates and even quitting smoking cigarettes and smoking blunts and rillo has felt good plus cigs way to expensive these days. Nothing compares to those sleeples opie wd break dancin in bed all night from restless legs makes me shudder thinking of it. I will always love my mary jane and have no problem sippin some nice hoppy beer on the weekend, which roger you also got me all into but I love it.
I used to never wanna buy cus they were so expensive buyt i remeber this victory 6 pack i got with my small alcy tolerance 2 of them had me almost fucked up so your gewttin your moneys worth and I love how hops are related to cannibis and through in not only taste but a cleaner alcohol bus to me.
I need a long break from bluelight. It's just been an added distraction to me staying focussed and getting my finacial aid and back to school. I need to sober up too and get things in check I might honestly check into rehab. I feel extremely positive though I cant remember if it was socks or you roger who just finished or almost did but I almost got my bachelors I have partied enough i'm ready to do this.
Bomboclot i'm sorry for being an asshole to you in tiny chat that night i rarely go into tinychat but sometimes i go in there when i wasted like drunk text style and just talk shit cus one of the loungers banned my cam >.< you are usualy not in there and are really cool swerz too but pharcyde which is cool too i like that dude just remind me of the fraternity brotherts of bluelight and somehow our ecstacy disscusion tinychat got merged with the lounge one lol. I just felt bad about that. Btw Bombo I still jam that tipper shambhala set you sent to this day, I can never get me enough downtempo these days.
Also what's up with the straight up Fascist State we live in these days. I read an artcile saying that like cops need a search warrant to check your facebook but facebook has been offering it to them without. Google+ and twitter I read will refuse them unless they specifically hve a warrant. Sucks opur privacy is like that these days and the internet is come to this this. Fucking George Orwell and 1984.
Im also so positive a lot of us finishing up school and we young. These old people it dont matter republican or democrat they are puppets and we have been knowing about all the dam smoke and mirrors. Its up to us to coesxist and make a change. Just focusing on us as one and helping each other through this lil thing called life. This country has truly changed a shitload especially since the inernet has come im excited for what their is to come as long as we can stop this Ridiculous Fascist shit and denial of State rights.
Namaste~ everyone I wish you all well on your journeys.