yucatanboy2
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Man, I applied for a bunch of jobs today... took a ton of time, but i was getting faster at it towards the end. Time to go to bed. Gotta get up early again tomorrow. Lame.
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Leftley
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Why yes, yes it is. Spliff PoliticsLSDMDMA&10011439 said:
Kryptic Minds - Can't Sleep ft. Alys Be - some good dubstep here.. hate commercial dub..
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swilow
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Oh yeah, Carbon Based Lifeforms are so good. I love the track Set Theory. Blissful...
"Ontologically, it became Time And Space"- a song title by a really cool black metal band from Texas known as Absu.
"Ontologically, it became Time And Space"- a song title by a really cool black metal band from Texas known as Absu.
PepperSocks
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LOL, great video, I love the bottle of maple syrup on the alarm clock
Definitely not made by our government though. It's obviously a parody taking a jab at our super-lax immigration policy. The URL they show is a government website with the real facts on it though (I'm not what is sais, but .gc.ca is definitely government). Anyways, yeah, highest immigration per capita in the world. Lots of Americans even take refuge in Canada if they're on the run for war desertion or medical marijuana use.
I can't remember what the case was but I remember seeing a documentary for someone on the lam in the US for something that wasn't illegal in Canada. He was crossing at Niagara Falls and felt so free once he crossed the line, saying something along the lines of "Ah, I'm in the land of the free".
On the other hand our immigration is a tad out of control. One of the losers in the last election was calling for taxpayer subsidy of immigrant workers. It's one thing to be well meaning and let people in from shitty situations but oh no, we'll do one better, now we'll give employers money to hire them instead of the already unemployed citizens.
There's a balance to be struck and IMO we've gone a tad too lefty. We should make the hole in the fence a little smaller, or at the ridiculously very least give people who are already citizens an equal opportunity at employment. Talk about shooting ourselves in the foot with our own conscience.
OMG, friend of mine just shared this on fb, had to repost given the convo here. LMA, in response to wake up Canadian video:
:D
Okay, so upon searching I find this is a joke and not entirely true. There's a version of it on youtube involving an Irish lighthouse. Good humour nonetheless :D
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This is ridiculous, my anticipation for taking aMT tomorrow is giving me time-travel contact high amphetamine dick. WTF
Also, I got rejected for a job opening as a drug testing project assistant even though I got through to the final 2 candidates, which really sucks in a huge way. I am hoping the psychedelic therapy tomorrow will assist in processing and integrating the changes going on right now. I am pretty much committed to getting a shrink on top of my normal psychologist and discussing a mood stabilizer. My psychologist suggested something like lithium but I think not! Creeps me out in a major way. Not sure if it's only the LSD contradiction or if I got a point here, my best friend was also appalled by first reaction. When I go on meds a change of career is also in place, not sure yet how that will turn out (of course).
Did two days of pencak silat (Indo martial arts) training now and I am seriously starting to learn the basics. Also I do not want to fall into a depressed hole because of the job rejection and mismatch of my current job, instead I want to keep looking ahead. I was more and more relieved in the course of the day after being bummed out by the news about the job. Now I am infinitely more relieved by a few beers and a few cigarettes.
As for the puzzling kind of high I am getting now... I do get enthousiastic from alcohol, especially after having deprived myself from GABAergics since I want to come off them, mainly benzo's. Phenibut could only slightly bridge gaps, I have a day's worth of Lyrica for w/d as well (though my benzo doses are low and thus it should not be too bumpy). Coincidentally but perhaps not coincidentally enough I am leaning towards Lyrica as a mood stabilizer. I guess we'll see.
What I do know is that tomorrow I will be listening to at least the track Turn! Turn! Turn! by the Byrds and perhaps "The times they are a'changin'" by Dylan. And also the track ? (Question Mark) by Twenty Knives which I want to remix for sure. Holy vocal chorus crap, yes.
I'm with you there, the place is flooded with it which inevitably means that a lot of it is just random wobble-grinding and unwitting 2-step patterns. The core elements of a genre do not amount to a worthy specimen of the genre....
Sounds quite nice, this track ^ Not disgustingly typical at all, but not special either. My personal suggestion if you want evolving cross-breeded sounds though is check the album Hecq - Avenger. That is some next level audio.
Also, I got rejected for a job opening as a drug testing project assistant even though I got through to the final 2 candidates, which really sucks in a huge way. I am hoping the psychedelic therapy tomorrow will assist in processing and integrating the changes going on right now. I am pretty much committed to getting a shrink on top of my normal psychologist and discussing a mood stabilizer. My psychologist suggested something like lithium but I think not! Creeps me out in a major way. Not sure if it's only the LSD contradiction or if I got a point here, my best friend was also appalled by first reaction. When I go on meds a change of career is also in place, not sure yet how that will turn out (of course).
Did two days of pencak silat (Indo martial arts) training now and I am seriously starting to learn the basics. Also I do not want to fall into a depressed hole because of the job rejection and mismatch of my current job, instead I want to keep looking ahead. I was more and more relieved in the course of the day after being bummed out by the news about the job. Now I am infinitely more relieved by a few beers and a few cigarettes.
As for the puzzling kind of high I am getting now... I do get enthousiastic from alcohol, especially after having deprived myself from GABAergics since I want to come off them, mainly benzo's. Phenibut could only slightly bridge gaps, I have a day's worth of Lyrica for w/d as well (though my benzo doses are low and thus it should not be too bumpy). Coincidentally but perhaps not coincidentally enough I am leaning towards Lyrica as a mood stabilizer. I guess we'll see.
What I do know is that tomorrow I will be listening to at least the track Turn! Turn! Turn! by the Byrds and perhaps "The times they are a'changin'" by Dylan. And also the track ? (Question Mark) by Twenty Knives which I want to remix for sure. Holy vocal chorus crap, yes.
I'm with you there, the place is flooded with it which inevitably means that a lot of it is just random wobble-grinding and unwitting 2-step patterns. The core elements of a genre do not amount to a worthy specimen of the genre....
Sounds quite nice, this track ^ Not disgustingly typical at all, but not special either. My personal suggestion if you want evolving cross-breeded sounds though is check the album Hecq - Avenger. That is some next level audio.
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Leftley
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edit : pc should not be switched on when fucked.
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Leftley
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Sounds like a blast man.. wow, you're in for a good time, keep the positive thoughts, its all just another dimension, we'll back to earth soon.. don't forget it. :DJust took a gram of mushrooms about 15 mins ago, planning on smoking some syrian rue seeds and the last little smidgen of DMT I have to make it a worthwhile experience. I call it, the Mckenna threesome
Thorns Have Roses
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Some nice music selections TAC.
Err, I meant to come in here to be all positive and cancel out some of my recent negative posting...but 'twas not meant to be (I'll try again tomorrow):
It seems I'm gonna run out of money tomorrow. <$10 of my "make it through November/living on fund" remains, and I am not the least bit surprised. Hahaha, I may have to quit my living on my own thing for lack food, but the not eating thing doesn't bother me so much as the horrifying thought of sober nights ahead of me. I dunno, I thought it would be nicer being like this, but I'm still not trying to fix things at all (why not?! I'm not sure), and and now all the energy I spent avoiding the folks and being dissatisfied with my living conditions have no where to be directed but at myself...why exactly didn't I take the opportunity earlier this weak to get wasted and shoot up all my H at once when I had it? It would have been so much easier.
I wish I were enterprising/criminal enough to afford a habit at least. Anything to make all this self-loathing and crushing hopelessness stop. Now I'm gonna watch some comedic television and then go home and drink myself unconscious. Awaaaay~
Err, I meant to come in here to be all positive and cancel out some of my recent negative posting...but 'twas not meant to be (I'll try again tomorrow):
It seems I'm gonna run out of money tomorrow. <$10 of my "make it through November/living on fund" remains, and I am not the least bit surprised. Hahaha, I may have to quit my living on my own thing for lack food, but the not eating thing doesn't bother me so much as the horrifying thought of sober nights ahead of me. I dunno, I thought it would be nicer being like this, but I'm still not trying to fix things at all (why not?! I'm not sure), and and now all the energy I spent avoiding the folks and being dissatisfied with my living conditions have no where to be directed but at myself...why exactly didn't I take the opportunity earlier this weak to get wasted and shoot up all my H at once when I had it? It would have been so much easier.
I wish I were enterprising/criminal enough to afford a habit at least. Anything to make all this self-loathing and crushing hopelessness stop. Now I'm gonna watch some comedic television and then go home and drink myself unconscious. Awaaaay~
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^ Glad you enjoyed them. You might like Kaya Project, Never. They've got lots of material... here's something nice.
Thanks for the recommendation man. Not my favorite genre of music though.
Thanks. Particularly liked the Nosaj Thing track! And now I'm sitting here grooving to some more of his music on YouTube. %)
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Thanks for the recommendation man. Not my favorite genre of music though.
Thanks. Particularly liked the Nosaj Thing track! And now I'm sitting here grooving to some more of his music on YouTube. %)
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I know this sounds somewhat ridiculous, but I was underwhelmed lol-I smoked those rue seeds until a full 1/8th a teaspoon was gone, than smoked the last of my DMT weed, could taste the DMT even though it was probably only a few mg. Still should have had more of an effect than it seemed to with all that MAOI plus shrooms earlier in the night. I dunno, it was spiritual, interesting, took me someplace I probably wouldn't have otherwise gone... Maybe I'm just already there, and the substance can't really show anything. It feels like it's just re-enforcing a spiritual drift that happened in me recently, it's beautiful as my sober life is now as rich as coloured as I can imagine on psychedelics, but at the same time difficult. I dunno it's just, neutrality. Expanding a vision of nothingness and neutrality into every facet of life is seemingly all drugs have left to show me.
helium-4
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I got to try methadone for the first time yesterday. I love long acting opiates, granted I've only had bupe before methadone, but I guess tramadols ~7 hour high almost puts it in that area as well. Wasn't 100% sure on how much to dose, but I did use a fair bit of kratom within the past 2 weeks (handful of ozs) as well as two 8mg suboxone (7mg first day, 7mg second day, 3mg third day) a few days ago. Oh yeah, and 1000mg of tramadol taken over a few days as well. A little bit of opioid past few weeks, but with working 40+ hours a week, it feels good. Anyway, I started out with 10mg taken with only 2 hours left of work, I left work and took another 10mg (+2h), then took another 10mg (+3h) right as I started to get a really bad migraine from not eating much that day. I fell asleep but woke up from a nap and took another 10mg for a total of 40mg (+5h). At first it didn't seem very strong, and made me wish I had another 10mg, but with the addition of Hyoscyamine I had a nice nod going on with a bit of added euphoria. The Hyoscyamine just makes my mouth, eyes, skin, etc. dry which is kinda annoying, but with plenty of water it was legit with the methadone. I really like methadone I must say. I'm close to saying its my favorite opiate I've tried, but I'd like to give it another go or too before I actually produce that statement. I like the full agonist feeling that bupe doesn't have, with a long duration similar bupe. I did feel 40mg was kinda empty in some aspects though, but it may initially have been because of the drawn out dosing. Once the 40mg all was in play with the hyoscyamine I was in a noddy fun land.
Interestingly I find that with methadone or bupe I don't crave the drugs unless I have it sitting around the house. If I run out, I feel fine and just go on with my day, week, etc.
I'm hoping to pick up a handful more methadone, just waiting to hear back from the guy. Sounds promising, but shouldn't get my hopes to high up. I'm glad I found methadone now rather than earlier in my opioid use. I'm not as worried with ODing with tolerance I have with opioids. Still not gonna push it. I'm wade into what I feel is the right dose for me, but i think 55-60mg with no other additives would be perfect. Something close to 60-70 oxy sustained for a whole day.
I got a kpin script the other day for my RLS, finally getting some good sleep with the RLS. I'd like a little higher dose (i'm at 1mg a day) so I can take .5mg in the morning and 1.5mg at night, but we'll see.
just random fyi, hyoscyamine It works good for coming off amphetamines I'm starting to find also. Stopped me from wanting to dose another little bit of amp, and actually gave me a mood lift.
Interestingly I find that with methadone or bupe I don't crave the drugs unless I have it sitting around the house. If I run out, I feel fine and just go on with my day, week, etc.
I'm hoping to pick up a handful more methadone, just waiting to hear back from the guy. Sounds promising, but shouldn't get my hopes to high up. I'm glad I found methadone now rather than earlier in my opioid use. I'm not as worried with ODing with tolerance I have with opioids. Still not gonna push it. I'm wade into what I feel is the right dose for me, but i think 55-60mg with no other additives would be perfect. Something close to 60-70 oxy sustained for a whole day.
I got a kpin script the other day for my RLS, finally getting some good sleep with the RLS. I'd like a little higher dose (i'm at 1mg a day) so I can take .5mg in the morning and 1.5mg at night, but we'll see.
just random fyi, hyoscyamine It works good for coming off amphetamines I'm starting to find also. Stopped me from wanting to dose another little bit of amp, and actually gave me a mood lift.
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Although after your recent psychedelic trial things may appear this way, I can assure you that this is definitely not the case, haha.
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Dudes who remembers beef n brokly?
I wonder how hes doing
I wonder how hes doing
Yeah I think the materials I was using were old and even the rue seeds couldn't potentiate them to any kind of a psychedelic state. Next time I'll take a stronger dose of fresh shrooms and deems and I'm sure I will get BLOWN the fuck away! OH, and this is also the first time I've tripped having smoked no weed that night or several days before, which might explain why it was sortof puzzling and uncharacteristic of trips for me.
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Leftley
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Wow I was off my face last night.. don't even remember posting
Thorns Have Roses
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That man was hilarious.
Anyway, I've been thinking, I'm gonna stop with the drugs and drink for a while. They're obviously not helping, and are probably making things worse. I need to try to shake things up a bit and move on with my life. I might feel better about this decision were I not all withdrawal-y today (wtf, I was only using in the evenings for a like a week and I just threw up. Laaaaaaaame).
yucatanboy2
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^sucks you are going through withdrawls, its definitely a good idea to take a break on the drinking and drugs.
Dear lord, I had a crazy night last night last night. Ive been up late working every day of this week and I was delerious at the beginning of the night. We went out drinking at a bar with techno djs and stayed to the end dancing and drinking. Werent many people, but had an awesome time, except for the random rolling douchebag hitting on my wife and not going away. I smoked a clove ciggarette (I never smoke tobacco really) while there, which was fun. It was 2am and that could have been the end of the night, but instead I ended up going back to my friends place and we went to her neighbors where we met this huge dude from jersey, drank a bunch more and I ended up doing coke (wtf, coke is also something i pretty much never do). I don't even want to know what time I got home this morning.
I just woke up.
Dear lord, I had a crazy night last night last night. Ive been up late working every day of this week and I was delerious at the beginning of the night. We went out drinking at a bar with techno djs and stayed to the end dancing and drinking. Werent many people, but had an awesome time, except for the random rolling douchebag hitting on my wife and not going away. I smoked a clove ciggarette (I never smoke tobacco really) while there, which was fun. It was 2am and that could have been the end of the night, but instead I ended up going back to my friends place and we went to her neighbors where we met this huge dude from jersey, drank a bunch more and I ended up doing coke (wtf, coke is also something i pretty much never do). I don't even want to know what time I got home this morning.
I just woke up.
omicamushroom
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I need advice fast... help would be appreciated. Friend is tripping strongly on a phen.... and has been drinking heavily. He is completely out of control. May be of harm... Is xanax an option? If so... how much. I want to chill his mind out... but I don't want him to be sick. Please Help... and Thanks!
LSDMDMA&
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xanax is a good option wouldnt it i htink?
i dunno cause he's been drinking, though
i dunno cause he's been drinking, though
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