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so seeing as it looks like my getting high days are coming to a close, for realz this time, imma pop me some ativan or ambien tonight and pass the fuck out.
i legitimately cant find that fucking key, i looked for like 20 minutes last night when i was high, nothing. I'm not gonna go look for it, its best i dont know where the key is so i cant just go through 3/4 of a bottle in 2 or 3 weeks. So, i iz actually quitting again?
 
LSDMDMA&9349127 said:
so seeing as it looks like my getting high days are coming to a close, for realz this time, imma pop me some ativan or ambien tonight and pass the fuck out.
i legitimately cant find that fucking key, i looked for like 20 minutes last night when i was high, nothing. I'm not gonna go look for it, its best i dont know where the key is so i cant just go through 3/4 of a bottle in 2 or 3 weeks. So, i iz actually quitting again?
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Best of luck to you brother <3

You can do this.

If you really want to, you simply will.
 
yeah. this time, i have no like...like i cant just go downstairs and get high, and thats always been the worst. whenever id think about amphet id want some and when its just a walk down a staircase its real hard to not try to satisfy that craving. I think i iz srs this time, cause now i seriously pretty much cant get high, and im not gonna pay out the ass for vyvanse or addys when id need a fuckton cause of tolerance. ive wanted to quit for a long time anyway, ive just never been able to really do it, other than i think that time in the summer...and come to think of it i am not sure i even quit completely then, i think i just cut WAY back and only got high like a total of 3 times over 2 months. i know whenever i was playin PB over the summer i was high..
so we'll see
 
Definitely want to echo in tBird's sentiments, best of luck man. <3



Gah, I do not want to do all the work I need to do tonight :\
I spent the last two days procrastinating and I guess this is the price I pay.

My head is nowhere near work mode, ive been so pre-occupied with my emotional bullshit as of late. I want to just leave the world for a bit, or at least leave myself. If I didnt have so much work i'd do a fat shot of ketamine, right in the leg. Today is just not my day :(
 
so badman, you shoot your ket IM right?
does shooting things IM hurt like a mofo? i thought injecting things into a muscle is painful, but i dont know anything about injecting things. i hate needles to begin with, i hate the piercing feeling when dey give you a shot.
lol badman, id make a suggestion but im sure you know what i'd suggest if you got work to do
come to think of it, damn near every time i got high to do work, i spent most of the time saying "fuck school i do what i want yeah yeah yeah amphetamines yeah" and then like bangin out a 6 page paper in 30 mins...
funny weird shit, but yeah. I didnt feel like complete garbage today (other than a bit of a cold, a teensy bit of residual stimulation and fatigue from being up all night, i felt pretty much fine today..which is probably good..probably means mah dopamines is coming back?
phet makes me such a sketchy jumpy motherfucker tho, makes me pick at myself like...involuntarily? thats the main downside to it in my mind,the fact that when i'm high ill occasionally be convinced i'm hearing things, like mofos walkin around, and it makes me a bit moar disgruntled. i iznt violent at all sober but i honestly had to resist a strong urge to literally choke a bitch once while high...
 
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^ Sounds like me when I was on Amps. When I was doing meth I was so scared that people were after me, I thought my friends, my family, anyone who I was close with (hell even people I never met) were really police informants. I refused to talk to people on the phone, and when I did i'd talk in code, even if it wasnt pertaining to anything illegal. It subsides eventually.

As for IMing, it doesnt hurt if you do it properly. If you push it all in too fast it'll hurt like hell, so you just have to go slow with it. Most of the shots you get at the doctor are through IM, so the "pain" can be compared to the pain of a shot at the doctor. At least IMO.
 
i never got THAT bad, ive seen shadow people before, ive been convinced mofos know whats up (because im real fucking surprised that it isnt BLATANTLY OBVIOUS that i do drugs of some sort to the kids ni my classes....).
i never got too bad into paranoia other than "OH SHIT THEYRE GONNA NOTICE" or "OH SHIT ITS 4AM AND THEYRE GONNA FIND ME HERE HIGH WITH FAT BEATS ABOUT DOING DRUGS ON LOUD". that did happen once tho, and the other day my dad is liek, you stay up till 5am some days. 5am is when id always retreat to my room the nights id get high, so yeah definitely fucking quitting. i get BAD picking at myself on ampz tho, like my scalp, and i chew my fingernails so bad on amphet. every TIME. i'm not worried about the paranoia, i dont want to get into doing ampz. When i've been up long enough to start seeing things ive always been able to halfway convince myself its just the speed/sleep deprivation and there arent actual men after me.
but seriously i have deleted shit on bluelight on amps while high because ive been like
OH SHIT PIGGIES IZ GON TRACK ME so i guess i have soemwhat of a paranoid streak going. not as bad as yours but certainly there
nom'd those ambiens, for the lulz, and cause i slept all day so i wont be able to sleep tonight without some sort of droogery. ampz fucked up my sleep cycle bad too...
 
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As for IMing, it doesnt hurt if you do it properly. If you push it all in too fast it'll hurt like hell, so you just have to go slow with it. Most of the shots you get at the doctor are through IM, so the "pain" can be compared to the pain of a shot at the doctor. At least IMO.
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I wouldnt say IM hurts, but its not as comfortable as IV.
After an IM shot i feel sore like getting punched a couple times in the bicep or butt or thigh or wherever you IM'd. And ive had Ketamine IM'd by a nurse.

With IV, if done right, you dont feel anything but a pinch.
 
Are you being visited by the Ambien Walrus?

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nah man but i dont rmeember making that post.
right now im just mellow
i have no idea how many i nom'd but it wasnt that many i dont think
i cant remember what i was doing tho
but i am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo chill now man
whats up with you?
and should i troll the CD picture thread?

well, this post is a grand example of what happens when you do ambien. when you do too much and you wake up and find the bag of 2CT7 you had been cut into pieces and then placed into another bag, theres only one thing to do
put
fucking
drugs
in your nostril, like i am now
i am so fucking angry (at myself)
oh wait i still feel a little slow and retared
thats fine, ill throw another 20 in
 
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how ya doin never?
personally, ATM i think i might be a hardcore hooligan?
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Eh, I'm doing alright. And as it turns out, doing dishes on DXM (a paltry 360mg I consumed on a whim) is surprisingly enjoyable, the jwh and whiskey also helps of course. hehhehe. good night, tonight is food. eh?

More generally how I am doing, that is to say, what I would have said were I ssober: Things have been about the same as usual. Well, recently I've been having these flashes where I'm looking at something and I'm suddenly struck by a sense of awe and go into normal person thinking/regain the plot for a few hours, but then I switch back to my normal state of nihilistic solipsism. It's been happening several times a day lately, rather disorientating, believe you me.

And youse on anmbien? and what else?
 
i was on ambien, who knows how much
blacked out, came to and the T7 i just fucking got, the bag it was in was cut into pieces and put into another bag. Now there is a SLIGHT chance ill still be able to trip off that and thats if it didnt dry out much so most of it would stick to the side of the bags.
im a bit scatterbrain right now, just had a nice puke sesh. snorting amphetamine (well crushin em, itll be a minute).
id love to talk to ya in about 4 minutes so stick around plz
 
whats up never, i couldnt snort all that, or any of it because of my nose, so i made this big ass parachute, i nearly puked swallowing it.
although ambien legitimately makes me more nauseous than anything. the puke sesh i had was terrible because i could barely puke cause i ate nothing yesterday, and today will be no different.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IStlBOX9F4o
i havent been this angry for a long time
pure fucking RAGE at myself. ill just sit here for a while, nasty ambien hangover gives me a weird feeling i dont liek.
already startin to feel the phet. or it could just be me being disgruntled.
 
What's up? Eh, ya'know, dissociated, drunk, and blazed, gonna stay the latter two even if the first one wears off (I'm fairly impaired for a 2nd plateau experience, I'm guessing the alcohol is majorly contributing to keeping this interesting).

And nice Cash choice man. you can have this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J2l3FY6K2IE

I would like to dedicate that song to GBL.
 
so you know how tonight was supposed to be me quitting amphet?
well i broke that about 20 mins ago, but it WILL be the last time i take ambien/any benzo kinda deal other than stim comedowns.
tonight...ehh lets call what i jsut did a fluke
fucking.....i have a nasty case of the nasties right now too from that SHIT. im gonna go lay the fuck down and watch TV or something...
oh yeah and another thing that happens when i do ambien, and afterwards, things dont taste as good and also damn near anything will make me puke.
Cigarettes, water, coke all have made me puke after doing ambien
im REAL FUCKIN DISGRUNTLED right now. especially because i can blame nobody but myself
 
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