Do you believed there is more here than what we are led to believe? That is because there is. The entire Universe is composed of and by an underlying Energy Source. This Energy is present within all of space. What religions refer to as God or the eternal, is this Energy Source. This Source however, is much more than a conceptualization of the eternal. It is the actuality and potentiality of all, and much much more than can be spoken with words, or conceived of in the mind. In this book I shall begin to dissolve the cultural conditioning of the mind, body, society interaction, and lead the reader to the actual experience of the Power We Are.
My name is T. I was born in Sault Ste. Marie, Ontario, Canada. My mother is a Canadian citizen, my father an American. I remember my mother and father fighting for much of my childhood. After my mother reached a certain point she would take me and flee to Canada. After a while of my father pleading with her to come back, she did. So for about 8 years this cycle repeated. Sometimes my mother would leave without me. In this course of events my parents had another child, my brother Z. I remember many a night myself and my brother being terrified by the things we heard and saw. There were instances when I wanted to do something to stop the fighting. To lash out and destroy the pain that was afflicting me so greatly. I vowed to myself then to never treat another human being or anything in a violent manner. I remember wanting to help my parents because I understood their suffering and saw how it affected them and our entire family beyond the immediate.
After my parents separated for good. My mother returned to Canada and was married soon later. My father has yet to find a steady partner, yet has had two more children. I remained in the U.S. to finish school and live with my dad. My first conscious experience with another culture was in visiting my mother in Canada. Meeting new people from another country was a strange new world for me. I saw how differently I was treated by some, just because I lived somewhere else. At times I was treated very unjustly and often criticized for being American. America is not highly favored by the average citizen in other countries from my experience. Being mistreated for a social technicality gave me a great amount of empathy for those discriminated against for any cause.
This inspired me to look for fulfillment in areas outside the general social populous. I began smoking Cannabis when I was thirteen years of age. Mainly because I was curious to what all the legal and social hype was about. The first time was with a friend, it took no effect. Still intrigued I ventured another go and in my bathroom I smoked an entire joint which I know now for a first timer is a lot. At first when I finished, I thought, I had been rooked again. So I went to watch my favorite television show. That 70's show. The show was just starting and I was very happy about this, and was just telling myself I would not try this again, it just doesn't work for me. Suddenly as the part of the show that implies the actors are smoking marijuana appeared, I experienced a feeling so powerfully blissful, I thought for sure everybody in the room would feel it emanating out of me. It was not my body but something within that I had the ability to experience. More powerful than anything I had experienced until that point.
In the course of growing up I went to live with my mother when I was 16 years of age. Living there was a totally new experience. I had more freedom than I ever did with my father, and more things to do with that freedom. I experimented with other drugs in this time, but after several experiences soon vowed to do nothing that didn't grow in the ground. I soon stumbled upon Psilocybin Mushrooms, or magic mushrooms, which I had heard about prior. I had an experience in a park while in the presence of the mushroom. I was with several friends. I had just ingested a small dose of cannabis and was enjoying the beautiful sunny day. One of the friends was a hard drug user and was very stressed out because he wanted to leave and do harder drugs. I was not up for this. I began to feel extremely nauseous and disoriented the more he spoke. He was very upset and stressing everyone to their limits. I had a sensation of vibration so strong I thought for sure I would explode. This is exactly what happened. As I made eye contact with this person, suddenly I could no longer see. I felt a part of me that was not my body or mind, completely launched out of the top of my head. I felt as though I was pure energy breaking through different barriers. Unstoppable as I made my way to a predetermined destination. As I continued the barriers became less and less dense, until finally I found myself in what I describe as an Ocean of pure potential self aware energy. I felt as though I experienced everything that was possible. I was this entire energy field, and this field is what gives everything life. I felt that I lived in this awareness for ages, lifetimes rather. I had a very distant sensation within this awareness. The people I had left at the park were screaming at me and shaking me trying to wake up my body which had fallen lifelessly limp on the bench. I saw this was causing them great pain and suffering. I wanted to reach out to them to tell them everything is okay, better than okay I felt like I knew why I was alive, to purely experience life with this knowing. As soon as I wanted to go to them and reassure them, I felt myself returning through the dimensions of barriers, and reconstitute body consciousness or awareness of being in the body. I sat for a few second with my body and smiled to myself inside I knew everything would be okay for the rest of my time here.
It was after the experience in the park that I began to search for proof of this spiritual dimension in everyday life. This became the main focus of my life. Whereas before this experience all I wanted to do was hang out with friends and get high, I now had a purpose in my life, to understand this dimension and share it with the world. Life quickly became beautiful in every sense of the word, or rather it always was beautiful I merely began to notice the beauty in detail in every aspect of life. I witnessed, with a shift in what I valued, my whole life begin to rearrange itself without immense effort on my part. I let go of old behavior patterns that were hindering my progression, and found new friends spontaneously who were on the same path.
I became very interested in the religions of the world. Having only been exposed to conventional Christianity previously, I began a search for a ideology that was grounded in the essence of the experience I had had. After looking at the major religions including shamanism, I came to the conclusion that the essence of all religion is for teaching moral guidelines to the people who follow those religions. Now I value morality very highly, but this was still a limited understanding of what I had experienced, and a limited understanding of what life is. Needless to say I was not fulfilled with what I found they had to offer. The search continued.
Durring my experimentation within the realm of religions, I came upon Energy Healing, namely Reki. With this I was immensely intrigued. This is what I had been looking for not only did it accurately describe the experience I had had, but it was also a practical application of the values I had incurred through the experience. I began to take classes through a woman named Sue, a Reki master. She taught me a wide variety of modalities of Energy Healing including: Healing Touch, Touch for Health, Yuen Method, and Matrix Energetics. I learned that I seemed to have an affinity with this subject. Soon after I began to take classes, I began to notice the existence of this realm within everyday consciousness. Superimposed into the physical world is a dimension of pure energy. Constantly changing, rearranging, and organizing life. Super intelligent communicating telepathically with it's self in everything. This was the dimension I experienced in the park, and now see everywhere in everything. To say the least, I was and am extremely fulfilled with this fact, because I had an immense consciousness altering experience, that was spiritually oriented, that gave meaning to my very being, who previously was completely devoid of meaningful experience.
The essence of which I speak is what we all are. Nothing could be without it. It is as though the person is a chess piece, and this essence is the mind that controls and moves the pieces. Constantly planing and proceeding at its will. This essence is not governed by time, space or ideologies, but creates all. When you align yourself with this essence directly, your life becomes very powerful and meaningful. In order to align yourself with this essence properly, you must embrace it as yourself fully. How? There are many methods, but all require honesty to self and persistence above all. Now I shall begin to offer exercises and insights that will bring the reader face to face with this dimension within their very being. This is what we are beyond our body, mind, or anything/thought we take ourselves to be.
Exercise #1: Feeling your inner body
Sit in a comfortable, relaxed, balanced position. Close your eyes and take a few nice deep and even breaths. As you continue to breath with eyes closed, ask yourself how you can know you have a hand without seeing it. It does not matter which hand you choose. Now your mind may immediately say you can't. Let that thought go giving it no attention, accept that to notice it. Focus upon the feeling of your hand, inside and out. Notice it and just sit with it. Allow the focus of feeling to move into your other hand as well. Now up your arms, into your shoulders, and through your chest. Continue to do so until you are aware of your entire body simultaneously. Any thoughts that appear during this exercise simply notice and allow to flow away as you focus your awareness upon feeling the inner body. This is a great exercise for releasing stress, coming to terms with your emotions, and sensing the energetic dimension of your being.
Why would on want to commit themselves to an exercise such as this one? Well just the initial portion of sitting comfortably, relaxed and balanced is a great way to reduce stress and show your self you have the power to over come any obstacle by simply surrendering to your own being. So right there not only are you reducing stress, but you are empowering your being and realizing the power you have. Closing your eyes and breathing deeply reduces stress also, while improving your focus and concentration. When you focus upon the feeling of your hand, you are saying without saying it, I completely accept what I am in this moment, a being that feels. By letting go of the limited patters of thought that only follow logic, you access another dimension of being, a limitless dimension of feeling. When you combine this with logic after the exercise, you realize this implies your very being is limitless. By noticing the feeling within, simply sitting with it and accepting it, you come to terms with your emotions. You learn to accept them, and other peoples. By accepting them you are more open to understanding more about how they occurred. When you do so you gain the power to act, instead of reacting, which is based solely upon past experience and instinct.
I shall now introduce the concept to muscle testing. Muscle testing works under the premise of: your body doesn't lie. Your body shall always respond to stress in a way that is completely natural and true. Now the mind may add in it's own take on the situation based on the thoughts and feelings it is experiencing at the given moment, due to the perceptions created by the false sense of self in the past.
Muscle testing can be used to determine what foods are healthiest for the body, what ailments are afflicting the body, what types of stimuli are helpful or harmful to the body ex. types of media, it may be used to determine the best course of action to take in daily life or business ventures and the list continues. According to Power vs. Force muscle testing may also be calibrated to an exact integer on a corresponding consciousness scale. This scale determines the level of consciousness that said test subject resonates with. Ranging from 1 to 1000 with truly positive action beginning at the level of 200. Anything lower than 200 is a negative attractor. Being aligned with a negative attractor means all your efforts will use a great amount of energy and yield little result. Whereas being aligned with a positive attractor requires less energy and yields an abundance of positive results.
There are many effective ways to properly muscle test for information. You must always begin with a clearly defined intent. The most common practice being that using two people in which one tests the others arm by having the subject hold their arm out horizontally to the side. The tester then using a very light yet firm pressure, pushes downward on the subject's arm. If the arm remains in place this is referred to as a "strong response" or a "healthy response". If the arm moves beyond two inches with pressure this is referred to as a "weak response" or an"unhealthy response". A method referred to as self testing involves placing the thumb and forefinger together firmly, but not to firmly in the shape of a circle. The pressure should be able to stop the forward movement of the opposite index finger inserted into the circle and brought forward. If the circle holds the finger this is a strong response. If the finger passes between the finger and thumb when brought forward this is a weak response. There are many different variations of these testing procedures and I encourage the reader to explore these in depth finding exactly what works for you. Touch for Health is an excellent guide to these various procedures and can bring about a more in depth understanding of the subject as a whole.
Now why did I see this as an important subject to include? Because this is like your own built in truth detector. You can literally determine exactly what you want to do that you would be most fulfilled with, even if it's taking a nap or eating a ham sandwich. When this tool is used properly, for the purpose of divining exactly what is best for you, every action you align with it becomes immensely fulfilling. When you know you are doing exactly what is best for you in any given moment, you instantly gain high levels of peace and confidence.
The Dali Lama is very persistent with his belief that the purpose of our lives is to seek happiness. Now I agree with this to a certain extent, but aim to take it a step closer. It is my belief that the true purpose of our existence is that we are this energy field born into the form of a human being for the purpose of becoming self aware of our true nature and potential beyond the human experience. This is the only true path to happiness. For if you do not truly know yourself how can you ever truly understand what will make you happy.
Now I have said before that it is impossible to conceive this ultimate reality and it is. As soon as it is placed into the form of a concept you are experiencing the concept of said thing and not the thing in it's self. The knowing of this self as I speak of, comes from the actual experience of being yourself. Not from the conceptualizations of the mind. Which brings us to our next exercise.
Exercise #2: Awareness meditation
Close your eyes and allow your awareness to flow into your breath. Let the breath flow naturally, using no force it simply comes and goes. Begin to notice the space in between breaths. Allow your awareness to fill this space. As you do so, you begin to see this space as your natural state of being. Feeling the breath come and go through this space is a perfect metaphor for the flow of consciousness we perceive that is our daily life. Imagine yourself joining hands with the people you love most. As you do so, notice what allows you to do so is your own awareness concentrated by desire. Now with eyes closed, focus upon feeling your hands connected to theirs hands. Notice how each hand feels. Letting go of selective identification, merely feel what is. In this space we are one. Separation is the product of boundaries, our very being is boundless, pure awareness flowing into whatever may be perceived. As we return our awareness to the world at large, we bring with us a knowing that all things are transient, that only our being is true.
I find this meditation extremely beneficial in waking up to alternative view points. Again the closing of the eyes and focus upon breath are great for stress release. The way in which it is worded allows the reader to see that strain on their part is unnecessary, all you must do is allow everything to happen. This combined with the overall effect of the meditation allows the reader to see that there is a natural flow to the universe and when aligned with it everything you truly want shall come without strain. Noticing the space in between breaths puts you in touch with the extremely subtle aspects of yourself. In a sense helping the reader to appreciate the profound power of the seemingly little things. Although this is an aspect of yourself you may not regularly take notice of, it is the part of you that allows everything to be. This inner space. With careful and honest examination by one's self, any person can realize this as completely true. Joining hands with the people you love most in this space even though you are physically separated, and having experience i.e. physical sensations, is proof of the connection to everything through this space. Letting go of selective identification is important because it allows you to let go of the mind made, body attached sense of self that has been cultivated since your body was born and since you had your first interaction with society. Why is it important to let go of this false perception? Because it allows you to see what is truly happening in this process we call living. It rids our minds of all assumptions and gives us actual facts that can be validated with direct experience. Separation is the product of boundaries. All the boundaries we perceive come only from what we see and what we think about what we see. All are self imposed or self accepted through some other imposing force. In reality there are no boundaries. It is just a mind game that seems real because we place the power of our belief within it's confines. I'm not saying that boundaries do not serve a meaningful purpose at times, but truly they are false, and only have as much validity as you give them, like any concept.
Many people spend their entire life struggling to find their life purpose. Having great stress and hardship because they do not understand what it is, but place immense importance on attaining it. Many people go through life being completely unfulfilled because they feel there is no purpose to being here. Because their life lacks meaningful interaction, they are unfulfilled. It seems to me there are two ways of applying the word purpose, inwardly and outwardly. Your inner purpose being, realizing your true being as this self aware, omnipotent energy source. When you are aligned with your inner purpose, your outer purpose being what you do on earth, will become the truest expression of what you as that energy source, in a particular form, truly want. So to recap, when you know yourself, everything you do will be fulfilling because it is exactly what you want to do.
Like the previous excersise implies, life needn't be a struggle with immense pressure placed upon the one struggling. Life can be the type of thing fairy tales are made of, after all where do fairy tales come from? The human mind. More specifically the imagination. The fact that there is folklore from every single culture around the world, and that that folklore has an immense effect on the way people percieve a specific culture, based on the perciever's own cultural take on the percieved culture, is proof that our imagination is one of the most powerful factors in human existence.
If you actually look at the subject in a non biased manner, you can soon realize that everything we do is based on the inspiration we recieve from our imagination, or at least was at some point. Can one really understand the implications of this? I think not. For to understand what that means in the fullest sense, you must understand what the imagination actually is. I do not believe there to be a single person who actually has a complete conceptualization that entails the entire landscape of the imagination. Yet again the reason being that the concept would not be the thing in it's self. So what are some implications of the fact that the imagination is our tool for creation. I am sure the reader may be able to come up with quite a few on their own, given they devote themselves wholeheartedly to the topic. Non the less I shall state a few. Anything you imagine you have the power to create! You're life can be anyway you imagine it! You have unlimited potential to access unlimited possibilities! These are not all by any means. I shall leave you the space to work on your own creative process. I included these particular examples because they corispond with the matierial in the book, and if applied in a person's life become powerful consciousness altering tools.
Why is it that so many people have no ideas about the subject matter introduced in this book? Because they have never been exsposed to content, or they have had experiences with the content but the experience was repressed or misunderstood in some way. The factor that is the leading cause of this repression and/or misunderstanding of this knowledge is the culteral interactions that a person is exposed to throughout their life and how they respond to those interactions. The late great Terrence Mckenna said this: "Culture is your operating system." I could not agree more in the sense that the determining factor in how a person interacts with others is based completely on their personal cultural experiences. Terrence also said: "Culture is not your friend." Yet again I find great truth in the words of this brave soul in the sense that, the purpose of culture is of it's own agenda. Fullfiling certain norms and traditional ways of acting. It leaves very little if any room for individual expression, creativity unless specified to a specific catagory. In other words culture is what is hindering the progression of the human race. It was usefull in the times when we needed fear animals and the environmental factors that plauged primitive peoples. It did act as a unifying force to create immense social revolution in the fields of agriculture, language, politics, acedemics, and cultural view points and traditions. Yet now that time has come and gone. It was very beautiful and has left us with priceless works of art and an extremely diverse global society, but it has also lead us to poverty, social disease, wars, discrimination, and a globalized industrial economy where the industry leaders take advantage to whom every they can, at whatever cost to whom it may concern, for their sole benifit. The true values of culture lie in preserving it's own self interest, disregarding any opposing view points no matter how valid.
Allowing culture to take hold of your being is much like substituting the concept of what could be right for what actually is right. One of the biggest factors culture plays a part in is the field of ethnicity. People believe they should be a certain way simply because of where they were born, or where their ancestors are from. Instead of finding out what they actually enjoy regardless of the concept of culture, they willingly substitute the concept of culture because it is simply there and that is what everybody tells them they are, because everybody is believing in this collective notion that is little more than an imposing view point. Think of all the social distress that comes with the subject of ethnicity. Take a moment there is a lot. All of that could be completely eliminated just by choosing not to endulge in this mind game. In the words of Nacy Ragan "just say no!" The same logic can be applied to gender issues, gay rights issues, the global "epidemic" that is the drug war, by letting people be themselves and make their own choices. The issues with politics could be completely disolved instantly. Why do people need other people to make rules for them to live their life by? THEY DON'T!!! If they did then how would we choose people to do so, if everybody needed this. The only way would be if some elite group of super enlightend beings walked our earth. This is what the government must trick themselves into thinking if they believe they are going to govern people. The other alternitive is that they know they are not any better than the rest of society so they are extremely greedy people whom wish to gain power by extorting other people. The only way this process is allowed to happen is that the people being governed give the government power. If people have this power to choose governence then why can they not govern them selves? They can, but this would mean there would be no need for the world governments we have and have had for so long. So how do these governments stay in power and why do they? Well they stay in power because they have an insatiable lust for power. That is the simple part. They want to have good lives and they believe that the only way for them to succeed is to have money or be in a position that grants them more importance than the rest of society. It is their own ego that lends them the greed to act this way.
How do they do so and keep everybody in the dark for the most part? Mind control through the media. The nightly news being the biggest contibutor to this mind scheme. The way it works is that people have unconscious needs and desires. The main one being survival. Now our media sources are constantly showing us how violent and destructive a place the world is. When people ingest this media without actually having the experience of understanding why something is happening the way it is, and solely relying on that media source to tell them what is going on it scares them. People start to believe that the world is actually a violent scary place so they look for some form of security, some assurence. Who better to offer that to you than your trusty government whom can offer you a job with finacial security, friends in a society, health care, education, and a military and police force to protect and serve you, all for the low cost of giving up your fearless ambitions and sucumbing to everything you are asked to do while unconsciously living in a state where all your actions are predetermined by fear instead of happiness. This is what is done and to certain extent how it is done.
So what can you do about this? Remember this all the time. This is the best safe gaurd of your wellbeing. Realize you are entitled to happiness and fullfilment all the time, and that you never need surrender those things to help someone else, that doing so is the exact opposite of help, and anyone who asks you isn't looking out for what is truly in your best interest or theirs for that matter. It is in the best interest of a diseased mindset that is the egoic cultural interaction to convice you other wise however. Hence "culture is not your friend." Remember only you can give meaning to your life.
Meaning is derived from the process of cause and effect. Having experiences and then thinking about these experiences. Anything that is affects everything that is. So therefor every experience you have affects you large or small. Taking this in mind you learn from every experience. The extent to which you learn and what you learn depend upon the content of the experience, the point of view from which you are looking at the experience, and the amount of conscious attention you are giving the experience. For example you are a child trying to learn 2+2=4. In this example what you learn is given, although at times you may choose what you will learn. If you are looking at it with the point of view that this is something new and exciting you will be more enthusiastic about the experience. If you are aware that you are giving this subject all your focus you will be more successful in learning it quickly.
Excercise #3: Conscious Learning Initiation.
This exercise is designed to be used in everyday life in any situation. Realize you are having an experience. Realize that you are going to learn something from this experience. Let go of controlling what you will learn and how you will learn it. Make the descision that you will be completely open and excited to this experience no matter what it offers, because you know that the wisdom offered will be truely beneficial. Give all your focus to this unfolding process that is learning through experience.
If you truly give all your focus to experience you will soon realize that all could be said to be as one facility of experience, constantly occuring, containing all experience. It is only a lack of attention that hides this from you. The purpose of this book is to bring the reader to this awareness so they may begin to dive into the question: what is it that gives way to this seemingly ceasless realm of experience and to actually experience that which does so.
But for once it doesn't involve me, although it has cemented some changes that I've been thinking about making as of late. I'll still be posting but likely won't be tripping & probably not even smoking weed for around 2-3 months. I love this place and all the wonderful people in it, it sounds lame but everyday I log on wondering what you're all up to & how you're doing. I don't feel like this about any other place on the internet, it's our little bond 
