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I met my first and only love and ex- girlfriend yesterday. I hadn't seen her for over a year and this visit ended me getting her to the hospital.

It hurts me deeply to see that once such a beautiful, young girl has got the worst cards one could imagine in this life. Firstly, she has spinal disc herniation, it's so severe that her back is permanently fucked. She have been paralyzed temporarily etc but can now walk fortunately. She had a major surgery a few months ago which was supposed to go very well but now she was in constant pain again. That's why I had to get her to hospital, I just hope it's not anything more serious.

Secondly, she has schizoaffective disorder. I can't even imagine how horrible that is. All these neuroleptics come with huge side effects, god knows what they do.

Thirdly, she is a drug addict and has overdosed a number of times. Now after 6 month detoxification/rehab she should be clean but I don't know how much permanent damage she has from all that shit, IV heroin, speed, coke whatever. Add super dysfunctional family on top of that shit. Who knows what kind of abuse there has been going on. Her sister is a drug addict too.

When we broke up when we were teens I hated her for everything (cheating and shit) but I never hoped she would have to suffer like that.

She fell asleep on my bed and when she woke up she was really fucked up, talking gibberish and shit. I don't know was that the schizoaffective disorder stuff, some drugs, pain, everything combined. But it was fucking scary.

I just wish things had gone differently. Almost 10 years ago I fall in love with her instantly and no one has gave me anything even remotely similar feelings again.

It's such an agony.
 
HeadphonesandLSD said:
Hope everyone had a good Christmas/whatever you celebrate. I'm riding out to Asheville for New Years to see The Mantras with a friend. We're going to have a blast :D
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I was going to do the same but decided instead to stick around my house with friends and psychedelics and a bon fire. Id rather not be doing any driving on NYE. I hope you have fun though, those guys know how to put on a good show.
Last time i saw them their opening band was Moon Hooch and a good friend of mine is their tour manager so i got to go see them for free, then Moon Hooch ended up crashing at my place for a couple days.

I hope everyone in PDLand has a lovely New Year.
 
Delsyd said:
I was going to do the same but decided instead to stick around my house with friends and psychedelics and a bon fire. Id rather not be doing any driving on NYE. I hope you have fun though, those guys know how to put on a good show.
Last time i saw them their opening band was Moon Hooch and a good friend of mine is their tour manager so i got to go see them for free, then Moon Hooch ended up crashing at my place for a couple days.

I hope everyone in PDLand has a lovely New Year.
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We're hosting a party at my house tonight that I was going to bartend but I got asked to go to this at the last minute. Buddy needed a driver and I'm the only one he trusts with his car. Probably going to have more fun going to this show....when I bartend our parties It's too much like work plus I can't drink/take anything because I stay so busy and have to keep up with how much everyone is drinking. Only had to cut two people off thus far (out of 5 or 6 parties) but the last one was a real dick, ended up having to ask him to leave which turned into a problem so I ended up having to make him leave. After dealing with that last Sunday I think skipping bartending duties might be a good idea....shame though because I usually make good money in tips and I can always use more of that.
 
Happy New Year to all of you :)

I haven't been posting here for ages...The last couple of years I've just used too much ketamine and alcohol. This NYE I'm actually alone...Just drinking a few beers, smoking a few cigs (I have stopped smoking years ago, I just felt like I "deserve" it" today).

The last 5 months I've made a complete shift in my whole lifestyle. I've lost 28 kg, I do heavy cardio (mostly running) 3-4 times a week, I eat healthy and have started doing strength training again because I lost a lot of muscle during my diet.

I won't stop using K altogether, and I just love beer, but today I celebrate the gains I've done the last year. I'm still addicted to benzos but otherwise I feel better than ever. So being a bit drunk today won't hurt too much ;) Have fun this night fellow BL'ers and keep safe. Not too safe, just safe enough ;)
 
HeadphonesandLSD said:
We're hosting a party at my house tonight that I was going to bartend but I got asked to go to this at the last minute. Buddy needed a driver and I'm the only one he trusts with his car. Probably going to have more fun going to this show....when I bartend our parties It's too much like work plus I can't drink/take anything because I stay so busy and have to keep up with how much everyone is drinking. Only had to cut two people off thus far (out of 5 or 6 parties) but the last one was a real dick, ended up having to ask him to leave which turned into a problem so I ended up having to make him leave. After dealing with that last Sunday I think skipping bartending duties might be a good idea....shame though because I usually make good money in tips and I can always use more of that.
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Man, turns out I am in town, but I'm going to chill at Delsyd's rather than see a show. Have a great time man, The mantras are a sick band. :)

Looking forward to watching the psychedelic sun come up on 2016. :)
 
In baltimore at a show. I just got 3 hits of L and this chick from my work is here and shes got MDA for me.
Im set.
Already dropped the L a min ago
 
Xorkoth said:
Man, turns out I am in town, but I'm going to chill at Delsyd's rather than see a show. Have a great time man, The mantras are a sick band. :)

Looking forward to watching the psychedelic sun come up on 2016. :)
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The show was awesome man! :)

I love Asheville so happy I rode out here. :D

Happy New Year PD hope all y'all had a good'un!
 
I would skip out on a concert of my favorite band with backstage passes to go to hang with Delsyd for a night in a heartbeat.
 
Finally made it home from Asheville, damn car trouble. Was expecting to leave out from there at like 2pm and we didn't hit the rode until 4pm or so. Oh well, at least we had a ball and everyone got home safe. :)
 
LAMA you weren't at an event called 'Resonance' in baltimore were you? Resonance is my jam, I have VJ'd it many months.
I would have been there if not for my 3-day heroin relapse that led me to a 6-day inpatient rehab program. Just got discharged yesterday. A month off of suboxone, I thought I was gonna do well, and my resolve was so strong the first few weeks. Alas, I had no dissociatives the last couple weeks, which is what I use to put down the cravings which work for a week or more at a time, even just a dose or two. So between that and receiving xmas money from the grandparents, well I realize now that extra money is my strongest trigger...
Now that I'm back in the real world I'm mostly excited for the future but still a little terrified. A psychiatrist prescribed me wellbutrin in hopes of it stopping me from needing dissociatives to self-medicate depression. I'll know in a few weeks if it works. The bonus with wellbutrin is it curbs tobacco use and can't be taken with alcohol. So it may be a 3-in-1 answer. Stay safe fellow 'nauts in the new year.
 
^^ Ah damn man, well, don't beat yourself up about it, at least you addressed it quickly.

HeadphonesandLSD said:
Finally made it home from Asheville, damn car trouble. Was expecting to leave out from there at like 2pm and we didn't hit the rode until 4pm or so. Oh well, at least we had a ball and everyone got home safe. :)
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Damn cars! Yeah I woke up just a little before 4pm that day. Wild night, late night... but great night. :)
 
LSDMDMA&13408695 said:
In baltimore at a show. I just got 3 hits of L and this chick from my work is here and shes got MDA for me.
Im set.
Already dropped the L a min ago
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How'd it go?
 
Will definitely have to have a listen through the day today. Finally committing to mushies on the golf course while I've got the day at home to myself :D
 
Bleh I think they've somehow degraded and lost a hefty amount of potency, as I'm feeling pretty sober considering the dose. Balls.

Realised I'm abusing the wrong goddamn thread too lol
 
trozzle said:
Realised I'm abusing the wrong goddamn thread too lol
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Was wondering when you'd figure it out hahah

It's stormy as hell down here on the Gulf coast tonight. Had a lazy night with the girlfriend watching a British murder mystery, handling and weighing my ball python (she's 392 grams now and counting) and drinking hard cider. Gonna hit up a local pub for some drinks with a friend of mine, next-to-perfect way to close my night (since the girlfriend ruled out sex for the closer :p).
 
damn a tryptamine experience that leaves a lot to be desired can be pretty frustrating. I hope some good mushrooms come your way my man, they're plentiful in the states haha.

two winters ago I bought a half pound of mushrooms and it was all in one huge vacuum seal bag and I got rid of most of it but I kept about ~15 grams of shake that accumulated at the bottom. I kept the shake in the fridge and it stayed good for a very long time. I took a gram of that shake on multiple occasions and had an awesome experience every time. I actually got minor visuals from 350mg of the mushroom shake in a combination with nootropics when I had to give a class presentation on a painting. Eventually it got stolen when I left the fridge at a very unreliable friend's house.

the point of me telling that story is that I wish everyone had an endless supply of good mushrooms. I wish there was a mushroom religion that could bypass law enforcement like with ayahuasca.

my dream is to one day have a burner theme camp caravan type thing that uses freedom of religion to bypass law enforcement kinda like timothy leary's "League of Spiritual Discovery"

anyone on here have snapchat? PM me if you do lol

I did 7 mg of 3meoPCP today nasally and mostly just worked out and took my dogs out for walks while I was on it. I feel healthy as an ox haha. I just had a super intense impromptu yoga session and stretched my legs more than I ever have in my life im pretty sure. It feels damn good.

I hopefully got a job depending on if I pass a background check. I'm not sure if my previously 'expunged' charges will come up or if they will matter if they do. I'm pretty positive I got the job, I also went to a few tattoo places and asked about apprenticeships but the only one that accepted apprentices already had one. next week i'll try for more though.

best of luck to ya vortech. I'm wearing my rehab alumni shirt right now lol

I wonder how lama's trip went.
 
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