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Got drunk and high like every weekend, I really have to find a hobby man.
 
My weekend was pretty chill. I rode up to Virginia and picked up a friend, we sat around my house Friday night and had some dabs/craft beer. Saturday night/Sunday morning I treated myself to some MDMA mainly just to test the batch I was gifted. Sunday I just slept all day...missed the football games but meh at least both my teams won.

Ready for the holidays to get here and be over with. As much as I enjoy family this time of year is usually very stressful for me. Plus, I'm planning on having a lot of fun come New Years so I'm looking forward to that.
 
I'm looking forward to Christmas with my family... I'm gonna get to see some old friends and stuff too, including my best friend who is a professional musician and I can't wait to talk to him about music a whole bunch. But at the same time, I can't wait til after it either, so I can come back and finally get to see my girlfriend. And New Year's in going to be fun, my friends and I are going to take methylone and have a great night. Maybe my girl will join, that would be cool. Even if she doesn't she's always cool to chill with while I'm tripping/rolling. :)
 
Xorkoth said:
I'm looking forward to Christmas with my family... I'm gonna get to see some old friends and stuff too, including my best friend who is a professional musician and I can't wait to talk to him about music a whole bunch. But at the same time, I can't wait til after it either, so I can come back and finally get to see my girlfriend. And New Year's in going to be fun, my friends and I are going to take methylone and have a great night. Maybe my girl will join, that would be cool. Even if she doesn't she's always cool to chill with while I'm tripping/rolling. :)
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I hear you man, I love seeing the family but it drags on. My Mom's side of the family doesn't like me much anymore...can't say that I blame them after showing up fucked up for all those years in a row. I never got trashed around them but I was buzzed enough that I let some things slip out that I normally wouldn't. They can't handle the honesty. :)

I'm looking forward to New Years too, going to spend it with good friends. We're all going to eat some LSD and I'll probably top up with some MDMA on the peak of it. Normally I wouldn't roll two times in a row so close together but I'm excited to finally try my first candy flip after all these years. It just seems like the right time for it. I know I won't have any MDMA for some time afterwards so taking it again won't be an issue. Considering I've only taken it about 6 times in 15+ years I don't think I'll be over doing it much.

I've gotten through my first Thanksgiving in a decade without the help of an opioid and it'll be a similar story come Christmas. Feels good to finally be able to enjoy this time of year without worrying about my opioid stock running low. Typically I'd be in a foul mood this time of year.

I was hoping to make it out of town over New Years but money doesn't look right at the moment. Hopefully after Christmas I'll be able to save up a little and do some roaming around. Can't wait for summer, already sick of the cold. :p
 
Me too man... looking forward to Spring really hard. The only reason I like Winter is because it allows Spring to exist, and there's something about Spring, the rebirth of the world, that really gets me in a special place.
 
life piled up on me really hard last wednesday, between this kidney stone, being behind in school, winter blues, and getting in a huge fight with my sister. almost jumped in front of a train. just spent four days in a psych ward. feeling better now... was actually feeling better before i even got there, but since i was petitioned i had no choice but to go. i have to take antidepressants for the next 90 days or i will have to go back there. which sucks, because i think antidepressants are evil. but oh well, i'd rather be on meds and out of the hospital than off meds and in the hospital.

talked to all my teachers. i'll still be able to pass all of my classes except chemistry. sigh.
 
Wow man, sorry to hear things have been so rough. :( I'm really glad you didn't jump in front of a train, I would have been crushed to hear it. <3

Keep your head up, everything gets better if you remain open to the possibility.

Anyone heard from Thorns recently? Seems like it's been a little while since I've seen him post. Though I could just be scattered, well, I am scattered due to massive work overload for the past couple of weeks and still this week. At least I am on vacation for the rest of the year starting next Tuesday.
 
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I think I might have pneumonia or something, I've been putting off making a Dr.'s appointment though. Also, toilet overflow shit-water bathroom disaster. Bleh, what a day, I tell you.

Anyhow, as it is December, I'm now a poinsettia. In the language of the flowers, the poinsettia means celebration, success, or good cheer.
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his last post. perhaps he's in the hospital?

i've also been worried about Help?!?!. hope they're both okay.
 
^Ha, all the relationship talk in PD these days depresses me, so I'm not posting as often. Anyway, I'm numbing the lung pain with booze.

xork said:
Anyone heard from Thorns recently?
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I'm kinda touched that you thought to ask about me.

TNW said:
i've also been worried about Help?!?!. hope they're both okay.
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Something tells me that he is okay, I dunno, just my impression of him is that he'll live for a while longer.

tnw said:
just spent four days in a psych ward
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I spent five last year, and it was the most fun I'd had since 2010, you can't pass it off with just that sentence. How were things inside? Or is psych-ward Michigan (I think that's your state?) just less interesting than psych-ward, Chinatown, Los Angeles?
 
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well, at least i realized i'm pretty sane compared to a lot of people. met a few people that i think i will maintain friendship with now that we're out. including an awesome 82 year old dude named Bill who has such a knack for telling stories he could make the phone book sound interesting. super wise too. i think i'm going to go to church with him and his wife Emma this sunday.
 
he used to work for GM, and helped set up one of the first power steering assembly lines ever. he said that back in the day sometimes power steering varied from plant to plant, based on what they could do.... some plants had it geared so that you had to turn the steering wheel 2 full rotations to get your tires to their maximum turn angle, and other plants did 3 full rotations. they came up with a clever way to do 2.5 rotations that was easier than either of the other ways, and it went on to become the standard for power steering in america.

he had a lot of stories. i almost could write his biography lol.
 
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well, at least i realized i'm pretty sane compared to a lot of people. met a few people that i think i will maintain friendship with now that we're out. including an awesome 82 year old dude named Bill who has such a knack for telling stories he could make the phone book sound interesting. super wise too. i think i'm going to go to church with him and his wife Emma this sunday
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So my first day in the loony bin, there was this girl named Kayla (she and like 1/3 plus of the inmates were disproportionately African-American), she was also bipolar, I dunno, life circumstance wise, we had nothing in common, but as soon as I saw her, I felt like she was like me, which was the first time I have ever felt that, and I was really proactive about getting to know her and supporting her that one day that we knew each other, there were a bunch of hugs initiated by me when she was transferred to a lower security unit at the end of the day. The rest of the weekend I got in with some girl named Ivrielle who I met at the end of that first day, she was a barrel full of sunshine (also in for attempted suicide, she ate a bottle of acetominophen) and very supportive towards everyone, we were practically inseparable, and played a lot of dominoes together (she was slightly better than I was, and the best person there at the time, she'd grin ear to ear and dance in her seat whenever she was winning.. Anyway, after she left things were quieter, and I did one of the few things in my life that I am proud of, there was this old black dude in his sixties or seventies who would only appear at meals and spend the rest of his time in his room, but for 5 or 10 minutes each night he'd sit out in the common room. Well, one night he did that happened to be a time that I finally got in control of the radio (which was normally set to hip-hop or EDM), and I had it on the jazz station, it was Miles Davis, John Coltrane, and Billie Holiday back to back that night, so I was totally rocking out to it not paying attention to anything, and he noticed, so when that was done he and I got to talking about jazz. We had a good talk, and after that I convinced him to join our dominoes group, and he was crazy good, knew everything in my hand through sheer probability and devoted himself to preventing me from winning (I was the best player there at the time, and he was wildly successful at this). And I remember, when his wife and kids came to visit one night, they were just glowing to see him interacting with other people, and that made me feel like I was a good person for bringing that about.

P.S. This was the song that was on that night:
 
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yeah THR that psych ward does sound a lot more nuts than the one i was in. the one i went to only had 20 beds, and they weren't all full. mostly just attempted suicides in there, but also a handful of drug addicts and an organic dementia or two.

if anything, what i learned from my stay there was that i don't have it that bad. i was legitimately the most well off person there as far as my mental state and my life. i heard so many sad stories. =/
 
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yeah THR that psych ward does sound a lot more nuts than the one i was in. the one i went to only had 20 beds, and they weren't all full. mostly just attempted suicides in there, but also a handful of drug addicts and an organic dementia or two.

if anything, what i learned from my stay there was that i don't have it that bad. i was legitimately the most well off person there as far as my mental state and my life. i heard so many sad stories. =/
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In my medium security ward, it was mostly anxiety/depression/attempted suicides. My opinion is that craziness is a lie (I mean, there was one schizo/retarded person who was 0% in contact in reality, but other than that, the craziest person was this girl who walked up and down the halls while talking to herself, sometimes on her hands and knees. She patted me on the head and twice introduced herself to me, I took that as a strong sign of approval, honestly, I talk to myself like that a lil' when I'm really upset, so I could see why she was doing what she was, and don't think much was wrong with her (she randomly told her roommate "I see death in you.", her roomate being the only person more suicidal than me, we talked about how we have attempted it before and how we would do so in the future, she would also strangle herself during her panic attacks, she was transferred to the high security unit because of this). The third craziest person was the pregnant girl, who insisted that she shouldn't be there and there was nothing wrong with her, and um, she was really fucked up and at best ever half present (in a conversation she once responded not the content but to the fact that she hated the number sixteen too, and she insisted that this random geriatric native american from another state in a nat geo mag was in fact the father of some guy who raped her or something?).

The folks there were really easy to get along with though, lots of drug talk among the twenty-something crowd we had, what we would like to be on and how we'd sneak it in and what not, that and our problems, two subjects I had a lot to say about.
 
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there was one guy there who had word salad really bad. he would start sentences normal and then they'd just go off into left field. like "hey i was in the day room and walrus reflux paliperidone ballpark." but the guy must have been extremely capable and intelligent at some point in his life, because despite the word salad his vocabulary was pretty advanced. during one period of semicoherence he was attempting to explain to me the physics of hydraulics. wish i knew what happened to the guy, but i was afraid to ask anyone.

i tried to spend time talking to him, and i eventually was able to decipher him well enough to have small conversations. he looked pretty bummed the day i told him i was leaving.
 
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Anyway, after she left things were quieter, and I did one of the few things in my life that I am proud of, there was this old black dude in his sixties or seventies who would only appear at meals and spend the rest of his time in his room, but for 5 or 10 minutes each night he'd sit out in the common room. Well, one night he did that happened to be a time that I finally got in control of the radio (which was normally set to hip-hop or EDM), and I had it on the jazz station, it was Miles Davis, John Coltrane, and Billie Holiday back to back that night, so I was totally rocking out to it not paying attention to anything, and he noticed, so when that was done he and I got to talking about jazz. We had a good talk, and after that I convinced him to join our dominoes group, and he was crazy good, knew everything in my hand through sheer probability and devoted himself to preventing me from winning (I was the best player there at the time, and he was wildly successful at this). And I remember, when his wife and kids came to visit one night, they were just glowing to see him interacting with other people, and that made me feel like I was a good person for bringing that about.
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Gave me goosebumps, man. I love it.
 
Omg dudes
Im sick as all hell.
Ive had this cough ever since i came back from the halfway house and its gotten so much worse in the last few days
Im on the real sudafed, nyquil, zantac, and tessalon pearls and still sick as shit.
 
Good to see you around bro ^^^ but not in that shape :( I remember years ago I managed to pick up a chest infection while getting shitfaced every weekend (and occasionally Thursdays as well). Would NOT go away, but at least in my case it was definitely my own fault haha. Had the fucking phlegmy cough for months. Drove myself insane from constantly coughing.
 
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