Pfafffed
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The dilemma of tripping I know a high dose shroom trip would alleviate this bout of depression that cropped up over the past two months and give some relief for a temporary time. But also the possibility of shattering my mind and making it harder to land back on earth eventually.
Been thinking about trying to achieve sobriety and going to do a grad cert in science to relearn chemistry again and try achieve the grades required for a masters NZ loan system is still good but going into debt 50k + is a put off and if im capable after all these years of hard drug abuse to even achieve first class pass. It was one of my biggest regrets in life never going into grad school as soon i graduated and getting lost in drug addiction. If i could prove to myself and manage to achieve it i guess its never to late to give up on life long dreams i would be fulfilled.
Maybe sink your teeth into some dedicated formal meditation practice to help stabilize in lieue of a heavy dose of psychs, or to maximize the benefit of a lighter dose? That can sometimes be a beneficial adjunct when dealing with recurring depression.
Are there any teaching/research assistant positions available that would give you a tuition waiver and stipend? I knew somebody from Iran that was doing that at a school in NZ