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Today I'm coming clean, what a better way than to say my actual name. Cliff Winton on facebook, you found me, lets make it a sick digital psychedelic orgy of truth manifesting.
 
The extraterrestrial kind, probably. They have contacted me a few times, usually while out of my mind dissociated, primed to receive their extresensory transmission. Don't worry, they are quote benevolent, actually they are us in future manfestations, when we grow our time travel and increase our brain capacity, becomeing cyborgs, we'll figure out how to travel the wires from any time and space. Right now is hot because we are first realizing the potential of storing humanity's coscnious on solid-state hard drives. The software to drive it will take some more time, but when we get there, say goodbye to our organic calories, like Kyle Reese from the Terminator movies.

Remeber, Genysis is Skynet.
 
I forget the experience or only remember some bits and I want to make it perfect so I don't write it at all :D someone said writing notes during the trip helps but I don't even trip that often nowadays

I can't even remember my last psychedelic trip lol, maybe I'll take DOC this week

oh it was 5-meo-mipt not so long ago. rofl
 
Proving your point. :)

I never write trip reports, Ive tried but it ends up seeming like fiction. I try to impose a narrative and use inadequate words. The experience is enough.

I never read trip reports except for epic ones like Xorkoths ibogaine saga.
 
I like writing reports because it helps me to solidify the experience and be able to sort of relive it much later. I love going back and reading my old trip reports, because it allows me to remember a lot that I would have otherwise forgotten... I get to revisit what it was like at least a little bit. Also, I just enjoy writing and sharing my thoughts.

For the ibogaine experience it was incredibly important for me to write it, since the experience consisted of such a confusing series of dreams and semi-lucidity. If I hadn't written copious notes as soon as I came down enough and spent 3 weeks writing it in detail, I don't know if it would have been as impactful for me.

That's just how my brain works though. I've always been like that. Putting an experience to words helps it to feel less ephemeral to me. Details tend to get lost in my memory and only the essence remains, and I like to remember details. I actually do have trips I have never attempted to communicate and will not, as well. Sometimes you can't put something into words, or it's too personal. But I enjoy the challenge of trying to put the psychedelic experience into words. :) My objective is to pull some of it back into a format that others can absorb.

Notes help, I used to spend my trip taking notes and then my trips would become about my observations of the drug's effects. These days, I don't take notes except in special cases (trialing new compounds for example, like I did with DOPr and DOET). But my experiences with writing notes and recording experiences in the past have made it easier for me to remember experiences I have (and dreams also) because I think my brain has gotten used to making "reference markers", or basically memory hooks into things, by itself. Also my trips reports these days more resemble short stories, I try to be factual but use words to evoke certain impressions and feelings, so it takes on an artistic tone. I got accused in my ibogaine trip report thread by someone of making it up and trying to sell ibogaine. :p He didn't believe it was really like that. I said, this is my best approximation of what it was like, using language to convey the drama of it that I felt. Of course the experience wasn't the same as your experience of reading about my experience. And my own process of reliving it in my mind probably changed my own perception of the trip slightly too, especially since it consisted of dreams which are by nature quite ephemeral. But I like to think that delving into my mind a little is more valuable/interesting than a series of time stamps and observations. The story I wrote is the coalescing of the what the experience was to me upon its completion.

Ultimately, I primarily write trip reports for myself, as part of my process of integrating experiences. But it's cool that others can read them too, and I hope they're enjoyed. :)
 
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I remember writing about your ibogaine stuff on one of my essays a year or two ago. I also remember u posting here some gibberish something totally out of your mind. Must've been a totally transformational experience.

I miss dissos. One of these days I will tell you the whole story what happened with that 3-MeO-PCP breakdown if I only could put it to words. Total miracle I snapped out of it without medical help, I was really out there.
 
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I remember writing about your ibogaine stuff on one of my essays a year or two ago. I also remember u posting here some gibberish something totally out of your mind. Must've been a totally transformational experience.

I miss dissos. One of these days I will tell you the whole story what happened with that 3-MeO-PCP breakdown if I only could put it to words. Total miracle I snapped out of it without medical help, I was really out there.
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I'd like to hear that whenever you're ready. :)

And yeah, I recall that gibberish post of Xorkoths. The only time I've seen him write like that, I was both amused and concerned. I love the fact that I appeared as a vision to him :D <3

I sorta binged on pregabalin over the last week, its such a perfect drug. I'll have a few week break again, yesterday I took 450mg and got very little from it and experienced a fair biy of neuropathic pain. I want it to retain its efficacy.

Little bit of dexamp today, I'm feeling very thorough.
 
I'm still not sure what really caused it, I guess I was under so much stress that my mind couldn't handle it all after dosing 3-meo-pcp everyday for weeks, I lost count at some point so it could have been over a month I took it everyday and it escalated to eyeballing. Well I eyeballed it fine and still could but I guess I just wanted to get dissociated with it and escape my problems and that is what went wrong. It's pretty blurry but after stopping I was so paranoid that I felt like living in a Truman show, not fun at all. I remember thinking that "I will be eternally grateful if I ever get through these times" and here I am, so feels good man... It involved so many "weird episodes of life" I can't really explain that I have thought may have caused it. Somehow I feel like I could have used it even longer recklessly if I didn't have those irl problems that caused the stress in my life. But who knows, its 3-MeO-PCP. I ended up flushing about half a gram of it because I didn't see another way out of the situation. I don't know what to say, many people here helped me to get through those difficult weeks it took to recover, thank you. I lost everything and nothing.
 
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I'd like to hear that whenever you're ready. :)

And yeah, I recall that gibberish post of Xorkoths. The only time I've seen him write like that, I was both amused and concerned. I love the fact that I appeared as a vision to him :D <3

I sorta binged on pregabalin over the last week, its such a perfect drug. I'll have a few week break again, yesterday I took 450mg and got very little from it and experienced a fair biy of neuropathic pain. I want it to retain its efficacy.

Little bit of dexamp today, I'm feeling very thorough.
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I just switched over from gabapentin to pregabalin today. Taking it for neuropathy caused by my chemotherapy. Was pretty stoked my Medicaid agreed to cover it, often it is hard to get them to agree to the switch.
 
@Xammy

But did other people at your home end up accidentally taking LSD? I remember you mentioned something like that. Or was it just part of the paranoid delusions?
 
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I just switched over from gabapentin to pregabalin today. Taking it for neuropathy caused by my chemotherapy. Was pretty stoked my Medicaid agreed to cover it, often it is hard to get them to agree to the switch.
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Yeah, I hear pregabalin is very expensive in the US so that's good. It helps my sciatica immensely, and also everything else :). Its still expensive but is worth it. Its really pleasant but high doses can give me anxiety weirdly enough. I think 450 is about the highest I'll.

What dose are you prescribed? I'm on 300 but not taking it daily.
 
@Xorkoth, yeah dribbling words is always good as the saliva dribbles off the tongue in a drier time, without druqs....but there is a delicate balance, something about the quantum observation effect, affecting the collapse of the quantum wave function....I'm just theorizing Xammy, but like quote myself from a recent iteration, 'sometimes it's best to stay blessed and say less'...
 
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