Ego loss through meditation would possibly freak me out a bit. What if it doesn't wear off?? At least a psychedelic has a half life

Not convinced egolessness is especially desirable or useful. We are human, we have a 'thing' we label ego, it is inherent to the human condition. Some human religions seem to think ego is bad, almost sinful. I don't buy it, it's part of being human. So much of religion seems to make our nature and attributes negative but I don't want to go around thinking there's a bad part of me that needs taming or killing. It seems like self hatred. Self hatred possibly broadens in scope.
That is if the ego is even real. I've yet to read consistent or coherent descriptions of what it even is. What if its you? Or nothing? What if enlightenment is a delusion? Perhaps strengthening the ego is better, strengthening it so its powerful enough to not be an asshole? That seems better than opting out into self absorption.
That said, I experienced considerable ego loss today on DMT :D

We had three smokes over a few hours, shared about 300mg all up. First one was wild for both, very humorous as twas my mate's first go. He was amazed and humbled and euphoric, me too. Next was mild for me, but strong for him, he was fixated on objects and highly amused by his walls.
The third smoke, the most material used (we were sharing a pipe, he wanted to trip together- highly recommended method, on tobacco and passed back and forth, communal and comforting) was utterly insane for both, but especially for me. I was utterly gone into a fractal universe of insects and alien shapes (very Giger), very strong vivid sense of prescence and forceful communication. Was told to tell everyone but not what I should be telling them
It was beautiful and terrifying, my name changed or morphed, the Me was abstract and confusing, I laughed and even sort of tearlessly cried, and wondered if I'd wet my pants (I hadn't!)
Rejuvenating. I focused a bit on my drug use, felt freed from some burdens.
My best mate really enjoyed it, too. He's older than me and an intriguing dude. He's large and intense, very alpha in a good way, always concerned about others. He was very protector like today, ensuring all was well, extending a comforting hand... I'm so pleased I came with him on his first sojourn into Insect World.
With my semi-rant about ego above, I just don't think there's a magic bullet or mental trick which will liberate you. Its all choices. So many choices.
Be well, my smiley, swirling companions in this momentous, spiralling, ever-changing elephant ride to eternity
