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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Distancing Talk Thread: Swirly Congregation That's 100% Pandemic-Proof

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Wuts up guys?

Missed you all the past weeks I fell off the deep end and ended up losing my woman. In a super dark place have been heavily abusing drugs, tried giving the sober thing a shot and she pretty told me it doesn't matter I'm done with you for good. So yeah, I'm not really the happy bright Charlie you all used to know and loved. Think about shooting up heroin/fentanyl pretty much all day now to escape this nightmare I've found myself trapped in. Really regret getting that Brorphine it straight up ruined my life had one really bad OD that I had to get Narcan to bring me back and another where I wake up 5 hours after the dose my hotel room torn apart and me in my underwear, no recollection of the whole night. Ended up flushing the rest it's just way too sketchy and doesnt have any rush to it and only was good when you mixed it with downers.

Was sober for some days but after finding out about my never possible redemption I started drinking and can honestly care less about what happens anymore. I've lost my job cause of this virus which I fucking had by the way and somehow survived drugging the whole time. People like me are pretty resilient, but yeah wanted to let you know I'm still alive and I think about you all often. But I'm so fucked in the head nowadays I have a hard time speaking about it. I spend most days in misery crying and dreaming of death, it's dark as fuck.
 
I love you Charlie, and you're in my thoughts every day. I don't know how to tell you to pull yourself up out of it... I'll just say I have seen you pull yourself up out of a lot of stuff over the years and find the joy in life again. I really hope you can do it man. I really do think getting sober is worth it, in my opinion. Lord knows I struggle, I want to be mostly sober too but have had a hell of a time with drugs and still am, currently trying to feel stable without phenibut/gabaergics, and it's hard enough even considering I have good things in my life. I just know that you're such a loving person with so much to offer. It hurts me to know you're in such pain and I wish the best for you. ❤
 
Try to take care of yourself brother. Binging on drugs is what got you to this low place, taking more is not going to help the problem. Maybe it’ll take the pain away momentarily but ultimately it will bring you further down. I’d recommend stopping all opioids except for your prescribed bupe. Come back down and deal with the pain, that’ll be the best way to move past it.
It’s clear you have a problem with controlling your drug use. You’re showing a lot of signs of an addict hitting rock bottom. I think you should try to get some treatment. Maybe go to a meeting and get a sponsor. I don’t think drugs are doing you any good anymore.
 
That sucks Charlie man, no getting away from that for sure. You know what they say though, the night is always darkest before the dawn, and all that... and who knows what the future might bring, no matter how final things seem now. It sounds like you've got the right attitude anyway, and that's the whole battle really, ultimately of greater importance than any external objective factors, no matter how devastating they might be... so for sure you are gonna be ok, as you say. Much love to you dude as always. 💚



Edit: can't help myself! Sorry! ;)
Cosmic Charlie said:
I really just use drugz
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*I really just use other drugz.

The "Drugs and Alcohol" distinction helps no-one but prohibitionists.
 
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Yeah, I feel ya about the women not knowing what they want. I almost drank myself to death because of one such trollop and that just made me hate her even more. When really, I was the one who almost killed myself in Cuba, of all places, like some sort of bootleg Hemingway.

Hope you sort it nicely and don't take yourself down any more. It won't be worth the drawn out pain, I reckon.
Take care.
 
My water (and the water in my whole neighborhood I found out) shut off sudden;y with no warning yesterday. I called and they said it would come back by 2am. Now it's 9:15am and no water. Found out from a neighbor that they have already revised it to 2pm, then 4pm. So who knows... I have a natural spring in my yard, and a water bottle that filters through a straw and is designed to drink any water and filter pathogens, I've used it a lot on hikes and camping. So I can drink water, but I can't wash my hands or take a shit or anything, well actually if I get a bucket of spring water I could flush the toilet. Sketchy...
 
So fortunate that you have a spring in your yard! That can be a huge help. At least you can flush! Pretty awesome that you have a water filter, too.
 
Damn Xorkoth that's crazy, hearing about stuff like that really makes me think how blase we've all become about legitimately miraculous technologies - truly heroic feats of engineering and organised, human genius - that have culminated in the fact that all of us just pretty much take for granted that we have these little spouts all over our dwelling places, that splurt out our most vital, life sustaining fluid, clean drinkable water... and it's so rare that we stop to consider just how much harder life would be without this, if we had to just go get water from the world like our distant ancestors did... 🤔 anyway hope it gets sorted out soon!

I'm gonna try to remember what a miracle it is to live in an aeon where modern, water taps exist, every time I turn one on... 😄
 
Pfafffed said:
So fortunate that you have a spring in your yard! That can be a huge help. At least you can flush! Pretty awesome that you have a water filter, too.
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Yeah very fortunate, it constantly flows at about 2 or 3 gallons per minute and it comes out from the top of the driveway crystal clear and tastes great. :) Overall if everything crumbles, I will be in a decent position as I have a wood stove and tons of firewood, so I could cook and heat, and I have water, and I know about a variety of edible plants (though it wouldn't really be enough to sustain us for long, and I don't have enough full sun to grow any vegetables, which would be the biggest issue). I have been thinking about getting a gun for hunting and self-defense against other people with guns, in case everything ever does crumble... I would certainly deeply regret not doing so if it did.

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Those filter straws are so cool. I went camping a couple weeks ago and that thing was a life saver. We were able to fill our bottles with cold spring water instead of having to hike with gallons.
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Yeah I bring it on every hike and camping trip, where we are, as you know, has water everywhere, so you don't need to bring water if you have one.

Vastness said:
Damn Xorkoth that's crazy, hearing about stuff like that really makes me think how blase we've all become about legitimately miraculous technologies - truly heroic feats of engineering and organised, human genius - that have culminated in the fact that all of us just pretty much take for granted that we have these little spouts all over our dwelling places, that splurt out our most vital, life sustaining fluid, clean drinkable water... and it's so rare that we stop to consider just how much harder life would be without this, if we had to just go get water from the world like our distant ancestors did... 🤔 anyway hope it gets sorted out soon!

I'm gonna try to remember what a miracle it is to live in an aeon where modern, water taps exist, every time I turn one on... 😄
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Yeah we take so much for granted, it's crazy. It's at times like this when you start to realize that. Electricity, clean running water... showers... the ability to buy food. Heating, cooling, refrigerators, freezers... cars. The list goes on and on.
 
Yeah, I don't have enough sun to grow veggies, either. It's a bummer.

I've thought about getting a rifle to hunt with just in case, but I can just see the news reports now: "dangerous drug addict found with cache of weapons and THOUSANDS of doses of psychedelic amphetamines" :rolleyes:
 
What sort of watter bottle with filter are you guys using? Or do you just use the filter straw? How are those with flow?

I had a Katadyn one but it was an absolute chore pulling water through it. They recently came out with a better system and it's just a bladder with a cap that has a filter hanging off it.....flows way faster/easier.

Also have the Katadyn base camp bag which flows fine.

Though, to be honest, we've found that we can drink straight out of Georgian Bay (Lake Huron) and be fine. So far. 🙃
 
Buzz Lightbeer said:
THOUSANDS?
Nice :) that's sick, I have a first STP trip in mind soon
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Lol, no not really. I was trying to refer to how law enforcement press releases exaggerate. As in, when they say they found several pounds of marijuana, but they found a single plant and were weighing it with the rootball, dirt clods and all.

Psychedelic amphetamines can be really potent, though. I mean, I bought the smallest possible amount of DOC back in the day, and that was more than anybody needs in a lifetime.
 
SunriseChampion said:
What sort of watter bottle with filter are you guys using? Or do you just use the filter straw? How are those with flow?

I had a Katadyn one but it was an absolute chore pulling water through it. They recently came out with a better system and it's just a bladder with a cap that has a filter hanging off it.....flows way faster/easier.

Also have the Katadyn base camp bag which flows fine.

Though, to be honest, we've found that we can drink straight out of Georgian Bay (Lake Huron) and be fine. So far. 🙃
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I'm using the Sawyer one, it's a water bottle with a life straw inside. You just fill the bottle and drink through the straw. You have to suck kinda hard but it's what I always use on hikes and camping... the the past 2 days when my water was off because motherfuckers were fixing some shit. Water just came back on, what a relief. Good thing I have a natural spring at my house, I told all the neighbors to come use it.
 
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