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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Distancing Talk Thread: Swirly Congregation That's 100% Pandemic-Proof

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Yeah it was life-changing for sure. Highly recommended. I have literally never seriously craved an opiate again, even now in this time of extreme stress that is the most anxiety I've ever felt for an extended period, opiates are not even an option for me and there is no struggle to stop myself. Almost 5 years later, too.
 
I wish you the best, muddy! I haven't taken ibogaine (yet) and hope I will never need it... did kick opioids but occasionally do get some kratom. Not much at all though, I just order a little and don't get any more for quite a while so I don't feel hooked like I have been on numerous things before..for me big diffferences are the ceiling effect and I start to feel pretty sick after about a week of taking it too much so it is unusually self-limiting for me. Not recommended.

I think you are best off not considering that stuff either (i regret mentioning it but you are undoubtedly aware of it) unless it is a last resort like people who find it absolutely impossible to stop smoking switch to e-cigs, which are also not good for you but the lesser of two evils. My brother does this although I think he occasionally switches back to cigarettes anyway.. i really hope the guy doesn't get a heart attack with his lifestyle.
In any case it should take a LOT of struggling to really say that something is really futile though. Not to be harsh, but especially not to spoil the rod and spare the child.. you don't want to be condemning yourself unless you have to.

It's a great achievement that you were able to taper (this was implied right?) and stopped.

In other news, I played a church organ for the first time (it was brilliant) and the OLED screen in my plant grower is flatlining in the most literal way

anyway good luck <3
 
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Well my ex and her mom came today. What a clusterfuck. :| It was really awkward as I expected. Two of my best friends came and spent the whole day with me to keep me company and have witnesses there. I had moved all the boxes of stuff THAT MY EX PACKED HERSELF 5 years ago, downstairs into my living room. My house looked like a hoarder's dream but it's just because of that, she has a shit ton of crap here. They got here at 1 and started slowly going through everything... claimed they needed to unpack everything and categorize it and repack. They rented a storage space in town so they could put the stuff that wouldn't fit in the van (they didn't rent a U-Haul because I refused to pay for one so I guess they just figured they'd drive half the stuff 700 miles back and then come back to the storage locker and get the rest sometime :\). Around 4:30, my friends and I helped them load up a bunch of heavy furniture to put in the storage space. I figured hey, cool, we're making progress. But NOPE, they got back and spent the next 5 and a half hours unpacking everything and painstakingly categorizing it and wrapping every little thing in bubble wrap and repacking it. They just left... my house looks like a hoarder's stash exploded in it. It's WAY worse than when they started, there is shit everywhere and they moved all my shit around too. Nothing else has left the house yet and only half the fucking boxes are even unpacked! They're saying it might take more than one more day! If so I'll have to skip my alcohol treatment course tomorrow which sucks because I only get 2 skips before I get penalized and I have 14 more of them to do. It's like, dude, why do you need to sort this shit? Just load it all up and take it away! Sort it when you get home! :| So fucking annoying I could scream! And they're making little digs at me about my house being in bad shape... because it's musty and kinda moldy upstairs, but bitch, it wouldn't be if you'd just fucking approve the mortgage refinance and let me stop my leaky roof! When water gets in through the ceiling, it gets moldy! Plus it only looks like this because your shit exploded all over, normally it's clean and organized.

The only positive thing that is coming from this so far is that the last time I saw her the wounds were fresh and I was terrified of her... I was really scared to see her which was causing me a lot of stress, but now that I've seen her again, I'm not scared at all, just (really) annoyed. So I think ultimately it's therapeutic, I have a lot less anxiety, now it's more frustration. Plus, if she signs the papers before heading out of town like she said she would, it'll all be worth it... but damn it, if they don't finish tomorrow I won't be able to see my girl til Wednesday because she doesn't want to be here and it would be a bad idea for her to be here, would just make things worse, and she works Tuesday. I miss my baby!

I want to just give them an ultimatum to be done tomorrow, but it's complicated because she technically still owns the house, too, so I can't kick her out. And boy is she acting like it... :| I'm sure this is why she refused the sign the papers ahead of time, so I couldn't kick her out. No idea why they're being so inefficient though, I could have packed my whole house up in the time they've spent so far, and they're only like half done.

Fuck. But hey, almost done :) <3
 
So this was the third day. I asked my ex's mom if it would be tomorrow too and she said "oh my gosh, yes". 8o I can't conceive of how inefficient they are at packing. It truly boggles my mind. A few pieces of furniture (that we packed the first day) and one large closet full of stuff should NOT take 4 days to pack! It's so weird.
 
Looks like they won't be showing up until around noon again today. God damn, how do these bitches make it in the world? I really want to see my girlfriend... I'm going to a festival this weekend, I might only get to see her once this whole week! :(
 
Welp... 2:15 and they still haven't arrived! :X Nor are they answering their phones. I'd think they maybe just skipped town, but my ex still has important documents here and various things I know she wants/needs.

I'm so over this!
 
That really sucks Xork. I've seen more speed and efficiency out of government agencies :|
 
She never showed at all today and won't answer any calls. Kinda wondering if they're even okay but much more likely that they're trying to fuck with me. I've been outrageously considerate and nice, and they're being unimaginably rude. Fuck it, if they don['t finish this tomorrow I'm locking them out and putting all the shit left inside out at the curb. I have a music festival to go to Friday and Saturday. I also have my treatment course for the DUI tomorrow evening and my court date Friday morning. My girlfriend will take my cats to her house for the weekend.
 
Llamas mom called me earlier today and she hasn't talked to me in a long time. She said on the voicemail that she has some very sad news about him. I'll update later, sadly sounds like he passed..... I just called her back but she didn't answer.
 
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Ah shit man... fuck. :( I hope it's less bad than that, that maybe he ended up in jail or something like he was constantly paranoid about. :\

Man my ex finally got back to me. She said "I'm fine. I'll let you know when I'll be back". Unacceptable. If she doesn't show up to finish getting her shit tomorrow, I'm going to put it all in my garage and tell her that I will be keeping my house locked and the alarm on (I don't have an alarm but whatever), and I'll see her in court for the divorce papers. Fucking bitch man. What a hassle. At least I am not stressed about her anymore though. I mean I'm annoyed, but not traumatized. What a crazy person. I shudder to think I ever wanted to be with her. The fucking nerve. I've been nicer to her than anyone would have been in my place. I hate being taken advantage of. :|
 
Ah shit man... fuck. :( I hope it's less bad than that, that maybe he ended up in jail or something like he was constantly paranoid about. :\

Man my ex finally got back to me. She said "I'm fine. I'll let you know when I'll be back". Unacceptable. If she doesn't show up to finish getting her shit tomorrow, I'm going to put it all in my garage and tell her that I will be keeping my house locked and the alarm on (I don't have an alarm but whatever), and I'll see her in court for the divorce papers. Fucking bitch man. What a hassle. At least I am not stressed about her anymore though. I mean I'm annoyed, but not traumatized. What a crazy person. I shudder to think I ever wanted to be with her. The fucking nerve. I've been nicer to her than anyone would have been in my place. I hate being taken advantage of. :|

She stopped calling me about issues like that awhile ago... so sadly, I think he passed. The voicemail definitely made me cry and I already feel it in my gut. I've known his mother since I was 18... so it doesn't sound too good. She's probably asleep and will call me tomorrow.

It's weird because I randomly logged on today and had a message from him... offering for me to call him if I needed to and then... this happens.

I have him blocked on fb so can't check there. :\
 
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Llamas mom called me earlier today and she hasn't talked to me in a long time. She said on the voicemail that she has some very sad news about him. I'll update later, sadly sounds like he passed..... I just called her back but she didn't answer.

Shit. Keep us posted mate :(
 
Man that's a shame. I could tell he had a good heart, he just got himself in too deep with the hard stuff.
 
Sad to hear this news... i posted in the shrine :(

@ xorkoth: sorry to hear that as well, I can't imagine how much that boggles and annoys you as well as what your ex and her family is struggling with to explain these delays... hope you can get past that without getting too low

not exactly sure what else has happened to PD social but you have my love, guys..
 
It's not getting me low anymore, I'm just indignant and frustrated. The emotional hold she had over me is entirely broken. I'm not afraid of her anymore. Actually I had been feeling a baseline level of moderate to severe anxiety for over a month because of this shit and it's finally more or less dissipated.
 
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