paradox

i tend to want drink till i get to a point where i stop thinking about things. one of the things i want to stop thinking about is how much i drink

 

I feel I have been in the same position. Take a break from alcohol. Rethink your involvement with alcohol and what you may need to resolve or work on. I took a 6 month break when I had an inkling that I might be drinking too much for the wrong reasons and rationalizing my drinking. It really helped me. Now that I have allowed myself to have an alcoholic beverage I do it in moderation....real moderation.