hi I'm newly registered but been reading it for ages. Briefly I was abstinent of drugs and drink for a long time then in January had an accident which left me with a painful injury. Eventually because of the pain I was persuaded to take oxycontin twice a day. I like the feeling and it all came flooding back. I was being visited daily by nurses to administer antibiotics and they left loads of needs and syringes in my home once they had finished. One day I thought digging wouldn't hurt just once ( diseased head kicked in with the obsession) so one day a few months ago I crushed one up because they are slow release 12 hour release tablets incase anybody doesn't know. I crushed it between 2 boiled spoons used some water for injections they had left and injected it boom! I was back...I did it again and again. Also taking the shot with a handful of pregabalin. Well the syringes ran out. I started to not give a dam and now day in day out I inject with the same dirty needle just use water out the cold tap which I know is better than bottled water and can't seem to stop. I do filter the crushed liquidised tabs through a fag filter but what kind of damage am I doing to my body. There must be all sort of shit deposited in my liver and god knows where else. I have crap viens and only use two in my arm and they look terrible. Long shirt everyday lol. The only wash my spoons get is a lick when I'm done. I'm going downhill because last weekend I went to town found a likely looking person and scored some brown and used that as well. I don't want it but my mind won't leave it alone. I have approached drug services but the waiting to see a dr will be an age. There talking about a Subutex detox over a month. I was on Subutex for a 8 years before getting clean and the detox was horrible but they assure me that a short tranfer onto them and then 3 or 4 weeks will be ok.
if anyone has read all this: thank you
if anyone has read all this: thank you
