This right here. I'd be lucky if .25 lasted two shots, but two weeks. DAMN!
It took me 2 weeks because it wasnt doing much of anything for me. I figured I bought it, might as well do it.
Opiates, at first, do not seem that impressive, especially if you're used to drugs such as adderall & meth.
My first time, all i could think was 'Why would anyone do this everyday?, E & nitrous are WAY better'. Opiate addiction is about much more than the high. It changes your brain chemistry and your internal 'reward' system over the course of many weeks/months of usage.
I havent done meth in almost 40 years, back when meth looked like purple quartz, and smelled like cat piss and hurt like hell. But it was a good kind of pain.
^^Absolutely this
Thats why real recreational opiate use is fairly rare,and will prolly escalate to at least some kind of addiction later on.
I was on adderall for 13 years. Stopped cold turkey about 2 months ago. Ive been been a rec opiate user for 15 years now. I got em, I do em and if I dont, I dont. Aint no no big thing. 2, 3, 5 months can go by. I certainly wont pass up an opportunity to get some if it falls in my lap. I can make 20 percocets last me 3-4 weeks. Now if thats not recreational, I dont know what is. Now i cant say Ive havent gone to the ER drug seeking 3 or 4 times in that 15 years, but still.
In the eighties it was all about the coke and the alcohol. On occasion I would consume a case of beer in one night; the blow was only to keep me awake so i could drink more, or so it seemed. I used to call it "the great white extender". It was after one of those nights that I ended up in the hospital with acute pancreatits. I refused to believe that the pancreatitis had any connection with my drinking. It wasnt until my 7th hospital admission, in the ICU with the doctors saying that there was a good chance I wouldnt live through that one and my girl friends telling me later that they were actually thinking about what to wear to my funeral that I got the message. I did a 30 day rehab, did 90 in 90 after getting out and didnt think about drinking for 6 years. Doctors told me I was in the 1% of alcoholics that get it on the first try like that. I started drinking again when I got engaged (think there was a connection there? 8), but no where near the extent prior to rehab. Then 5 years ago owning a home and living alone with just my dogs and little human contact, chasing snorting 40mg oxy with a 16 oz of Kettles was not uncommon. Waking up face down in just my underwear with a big box of corn flakes strewn all over the carpet and absolutely no recollection WTF I was doing to end up like that got my attention. These days I dont drink, I just dont like it. I dealt blow for 4 years from 1983-87. I hunkered down mith my quadra beam Ohaus once a week to make packages but never did any until Friday night rolled around. Those Friday nights were reminiscent of Hunter Thompson's wildest 'Fear and Loathing' adventures.
So yes, I have a long history of drug abuse/dependance but Ive kept it on a pretty tight leash for the most part. These days, Im so depressed about the state of my life oxy doesnt even get me "high", it just make me feel less depressed so I can get out of bed, to feel "normal"
