that goes against the entire harm reduction message of bluelight.
the dark side is an extremely supportive and caring forum where you can talk about your problems, fears, concerns or whatnot. in fact, they have a suicide support thread with numbers of hotlines you can call 24 hours a day.
princessbarbie, I urge you to please re-think overdosing as an option. As animal_cookie, mentioned check out The Dark Side and wait before you do anything that you might regret later. Your life might be rocky now, but things DO get better. Just ride it out and this will pass. If you feel like talking, feel free to PM me.
I wish you all the best, please take care of yourself