Hi Auto !
Yes, I used a lot of kava at one time too, still use a little now and then, but here it's hard to find a good reliable supplier (in the UK, you have gentleman Edward! ).
I wondered aloud, because I know that kava can give these kinds of reversible effects in high doses, and I know that you're more of a kava "hardhead". So I imagined it might be related...
But soap used intensively can also damage hands, I experienced this myself during the first year of covid.
Anyway, so as not to derail the thread, these are really great photos! Enjoy...
(off-topic : I hope you've managed to lower or stabilize your benzos dosage ? )
Heyā¦next in line lol sorry zero faving, just rolling easiest dices if/when can because I struggle typing much like expressing this way
My tongue is so sharpened beyond pencil with the sheer easiest flow you see, and Iāve always kindof generally written close to how I speak
So itās SUCH a head spin task for my now. Iām all or nowt. Can converse with masterful ease.
My head spins quick when I attempt dotting out anything presently in life numerous reasons incl the above.
Okay 1 hr later. I was unable. Mini energy state recovery atm, is the core problem after 3 yrs now surviving impossible shit knowing ONLY Torture no hyperbole exaggeration or exception!
Being such an inborn mega hard head though, Iāve gritted and strived with such rare ingenuity and somehow will or determination.
To recover one day or die trying no shit.
The Hells Iāve learned too throughout this. The severest literary again anal fissures, like knife wounds on your f butt hole and up inside lol ffs right???
With equally severest haemorrhoids and totally deactivated digestive system
Quite a bloody important thing you know!!
All as consequence again of bad accident 2021.
Now I have been some f Superman and miraculously healed all damn rectal tissues about 90% plies, zero fissures which were a Trillion X more hell too vs ANY Haemos trust me.
24/365 literally (again lol but true still!) solidly unbearable stomach pain, bowels constantly spasming cramping too. Permanent major feeling sick.
Literally (

) for over 2.5 yrs, easy 12-25 poos daily whatever hr. 3 hrs shit sleep norm maybe, if??
Add 3 X urine frequency directly related to bowels.
I could have really done without this like. Way enough already being allergic to (lol cos it IS f true again and thereās no equally apt synonym basically soā¦) literally 99% up of ALL every any standard things foods herbs etc etc etc etc etcā¦.
Serious serious physical nerve damage too after (f lol but again..) LITERALLY 2 dozen evil Covids at least 20 minimum
Ontop Lyme ravaged sabotaged NS.
Priority still is easy though, fully fix bottom, restore digestive flow. Sleep again, get out at f last!
Then seek direct support and treatment sans any pharma meds though, as Iād drop dead in a day honest from those tablet allergies
Iād truly take my chances CT if zero pure Dutch powder, only possible way I can allergenically tolerate it.
My priority though for moment is not to pile too much pressure on myself re a still absurd benzo usage.
Iāve kept it within bounds, to where actual unpleasant hang over like side effects, occurring at almost exact mg levels, pretty at bay.
At points I reduced to 12-13 mgās Bromazolam daily but my mum has gone her own total nuts nothing my doing, drinks wine and spirits evening and mega epic stresses at me, with my intense ongoing pain sickness trauma still too, add zero supportive but contrarily genuinely extremely dangerous volatile unpredictable situation at home and in life
Tapering a real high q advanced brain chemistry hacked to fuck benzo addiction
Too physically debilitated by real intense sickness and pain. ?
But Iāve kept a control of it irt all round true total securest wisest path so far securing first vitally, physical injury and sickness recovery.
Then I can go realistically about that vital business!
Real sorry you struggle with kava sourcing there. The Law is the no 1 biggest Biiitch on Earth, IMO.
Edward is a gold gem. He sorts me out, without which no way Iād have scrapped 3 yrs post injuries like that no way ever.